I
THESE boys congregated every autumn about a certain easterly fisher-village,
where they tasted in a high degree the glory of existence. The place was created
seemingly on purpose for the diversion of young gentlemen. A street or two of
houses, mostly red and many of, them tiled; a number of fine trees clustered
about the manse and the kirkyard, and turning the chief street into a shady
alley; many little gardens more than usually bright with flowers; nets a-drying,
and fisher-wives scolding in the backward parts; a smell of fish, a genial smell
of seaweed; whiffs of blowing sand at the street-corners; shops with golf-balls
and bottled lollipops; another shop with penny pickwicks (that remarkable cigar)
and the LONDON JOURNAL, dear to me for its startling pictures, and a few novels,
dear for their suggestive names: such, as well as memory serves me, were the
ingredients of the town. These, you are to conceive posted on a spit between two
sandy bays, and sparsely flanked with villas enough for the boys to lodge in
with their subsidiary parents, not enough (not yet enough) to cocknify the
scene: a haven in the rocks in front: in front of that, a file of gray islets:
to the left, endless links and sand wreaths, a wilderness of hiding-holes, alive
with popping rabbits and soaring gulls: to the right, a range of seaward crags,
one rugged brow beyond another; the ruins of a mighty and ancient fortress on
the brink of one; coves between - now charmed into sunshine quiet, now whistling
with wind and clamorous with bursting surges; the dens and sheltered hollows
redolent of thyme and southernwood, the air at the cliff's edge brisk and clean
and pungent of the sea - in front of all, the Bass Rock, tilted seaward like a
doubtful bather, the surf ringing it with white, the solan- geese hanging round
its summit like a great and glittering smoke. This choice piece of seaboard was
sacred, besides, to the wrecker; and the Bass, in the eye of fancy, still flew
the colours of King James; and in the ear of fancy the arches of Tantallon still
rang with horse-shoe iron, and echoed to the commands of Bell-the-Cat.
There was nothing to mar your days, if you were a boy summering in that part,
but the embarrassment of pleasure. You might golf if you wanted; but I seem to
have been better employed. You might secrete yourself in the Lady's Walk, a
certain sunless dingle of elders, all mossed over by the damp as green as grass,
and dotted here and there by the stream-side with roofless walls, the cold homes
of anchorites. To fit themselves for life, and with a special eye to acquire the
art of smoking, it was even common for the boys to harbour there; and you might
have seen a single penny pickwick, honestly shared in lengths with a blunt
knife, bestrew the glen with these apprentices. Again, you might join our
fishing parties, where we sat perched as thick as solan-geese, a covey of little
anglers, boy and girl, angling over each other's heads, to the to the much
entanglement of lines and loss of podleys and consequent shrill recrimination -
shrill as the geese themselves. Indeed, had that been all, you might have done
this often; but though fishing be a fine pastime, the podley is scarce to be
regarded as a dainty for the table; and it was a point of honour that a boy
should eat all that he had taken. Or again, you might climb the Law, where the
whale's jawbone stood landmark in the buzzing wind, and behold the face of many
counties, and the smoke and spires of many towns, and the sails of distant
ships. You might bathe, now in the flaws of fine weather, that we pathetically
call our summer, now in a gale of wind, with the sand scourging your bare hide,
your clothes thrashing abroad from underneath their guardian stone, the froth of
the great breakers casting you headlong ere it had drowned your knees. Or you
might explore the tidal rocks, above all in the ebb of springs, when the very
roots of the hills were for the nonce discovered; following my leader from one
group to another, groping in slippery tangle for the wreck of ships, wading in
pools after the abominable creatures of the sea, and ever with an eye cast
backward on the march off the tide and the menaced line of your retreat. And
then you might go Crusoeing, a word that covers all extempore eating in the open
air: digging perhaps a house under the margin of the links, kindling a fire of
the sea-ware, and cooking apples there - if they were truly apples, for I
sometimes suppose the merchant must have played us off with some inferior and
quite local fruit capable of resolving, in the neighbourhood of fire, into mere
sand and smoke and iodine; or perhaps pushing to Tantallon, you might lunch on
sandwiches and visions in the grassy court, while the wind hummed in the
crumbling turrets; or clambering along the coast, eat geans (the worst, I must
suppose, in Christendom) from an adventurous gean tree that had taken root under
a cliff, where it was shaken with an ague of east wind, and silvered after gales
with salt, and grew so foreign among its bleak surroundings that to eat of its
produce was an adventure in itself.
There are mingled some dismal memories with so many that were joyous. Of the
fisher-wife, for instance, who had cut her throat at Canty Bay; and of how I ran
with the other children to the top of the Quadrant, and beheld a posse of silent
people escorting a cart, and on the cart, bound in a chair, her throat bandaged,
and the bandage all bloody - horror! - the fisher-wife herself, who continued
thenceforth to hag-ride my thoughts, and even to-day (as I recall the scene)
darkens daylight. She was lodged in the little old jail in the chief street; but
whether or no she died there, with a wise terror of the worst, I never inquired.
She had been tippling; it was but a dingy tragedy; and it seems strange and hard
that, after all these years, the poor crazy sinner should be still pilloried on
her cart in the scrap-book of my memory. Nor shall I readily forget a certain
house in the Quadrant where a visitor died, and a dark old woman continued to
dwell alone with the dead body; nor how this old woman conceived a hatred to
myself and one of my cousins, and in the dread hour of the dusk, as we were
clambering on the garden-walls, opened a window in that house of mortality and
cursed us in a shrill voice and with a marrowy choice of language. It was a pair
of very colourless urchins that fled down the lane from this remarkable
experience! But I recall with a more doubtful sentiment, compounded out of fear
and exultation, the coil of equinoctial tempests; trumpeting squalls, scouring
flaws of rain; the boats with their reefed lugsails scudding for the harbour
mouth, where danger lay, for it was hard to make when the wind had any east in
it; the wives clustered with blowing shawls at the pier-head, where (if fate was
against them) they might see boat and husband and sons - their whole wealth and
their whole family - engulfed under their eyes; and (what I saw but once) a
troop of neighbours forcing such an unfortunate homeward, and she squalling and
battling in their midst, a figure scarcely human, a tragic Maenad.
These are things that I recall with interest; but what my memory dwells upon
the most, I have been all this while withholding. It was a sport peculiar to the
place, and indeed to a week or so of our two months' holiday there. Maybe it
still flourishes in its native spot; for boys and their pastimes are swayed by
periodic forces inscrutable to man; so that tops and marbles reappear in their
due season, regular like the sun and moon; and the harmless art of knucklebones
has seen the fall of the Roman empire and the rise of the United States. It may
still flourish in its native spot, but nowhere else, I am persuaded; for I tried
myself to introduce it on Tweedside, and was defeated lamentably; its charm
being quite local, like a country wine that cannot be exported.
The idle manner of it was this:-
Toward the end of September, when school-time was drawing near and the nights
were already black, we would begin to sally from our- respective villas, each
equipped with a tin bull's-eye lantern. The thing was so well known that it had
worn a rut in the commerce of Great Britain; and the grocers, about the due
time, began to garnish their windows with our particular brand of luminary. We
wore them buckled to the waist upon a cricket belt, and over them, such was the
rigour of the game, a buttoned top-coat. They smelled noisomely of blistered
tin; they never burned aright, though they would always burn our fingers; their
use was naught; the pleasure of them merely fanciful; and yet a boy with a
bull's-eye under his top-coat asked for nothing more. The fishermen used
lanterns about their boats, and it was from them, I suppose, that we had got the
hint; but theirs were not bull's-eyes, nor did we ever play at being fishermen.
The police carried them at their belts, and we had plainly copied them in that;
yet we did not pretend to be policemen. Burglars, indeed, we may have had some
haunting thoughts of; and we had certainly an eye to past ages when lanterns
were more common, and to certain story-books in which we had found them to
figure very largely. But take it for all in all, the pleasure of the thing was
substantive; and to be a boy with a bull's-eye under his top-coat was good
enough for us.
When two of these asses met, there would be an anxious "Have you got your
lantern?" and a gratified "Yes!" That was the shibboleth, and very needful too;
for, as it was the rule to keep our glory contained, none could recognise a
lantern-bearer, unless (like the polecat) by the smell. Four or five would
sometimes climb into the belly of a ten-man lugger, with nothing but the thwarts
above them - for the cabin was usually locked, or choose out some hollow of the
links where the wind might whistle overhead. There the coats would be unbuttoned
and the bull's-eyes discovered; and in the chequering glimmer, under the huge
windy hall of the night, and cheered by a rich steam of toasting tinware, these
fortunate young gentlemen would crouch together in the cold sand of the links or
on the scaly bilges of the fishing-boat, and delight themselves with
inappropriate talk. Woe is me that I may not give some specimens - some of their
foresights of life, or deep inquiries into the rudiments of man and nature,
these were so fiery and so innocent, they were so richly silly, so romantically
young. But the talk, at any rate, was but a condiment; and these gatherings
themselves only accidents in the career of the lantern-bearer. The essence of
this bliss was to walk by yourself in the black night; the slide shut, the
top-coat buttoned; not a ray escaping, whether to conduct your footsteps or to
make your glory public: a mere pillar of darkness in the dark; and all the
while, deep down in the privacy of your fool's heart, to know you had a
bull's-eye at your belt, and to exult and sing over the knowledge.
II
It is said that a poet has died young in the breast of the most stolid. It
may be contended, rather, that this (somewhat minor) bard in almost every case
survives, and is the spice of life to his possessor. Justice is not done to the
versatility and the unplumbed childishness of man's imagination. His life from
without may seem but a rude mound of mud; there will be some golden chamber at
the heart of it, in which he dwells delighted; and for as dark as his pathway
seems to the observer, he will have some kind of a bull's-eye at his belt.
It would be hard to pick out a career more cheerless than that of Dancer, the
miser, as he figures in the "Old Bailey Reports," a prey to the most sordid
persecutions, the butt of his neighbourhood, betrayed by his hired man, his
house beleaguered by the impish schoolboy, and he himself grinding and fuming
and impotently fleeing to the law against these pin-pricks. You marvel at first
that any one should willingly prolong a life so destitute of charm and dignity;
and then you call to memory that had he chosen, had he ceased to be a miser, he
could have been freed at once from these trials, and might have built himself a
castle and gone escorted by a squadron. For the love of more recondite joys,
which we cannot estimate, which, it may be, we should envy, the man had
willingly forgone both comfort and consideration. "His mind to him a kingdom
was"; and sure enough, digging into that mind, which seems at first a dust-heap,
we unearth some priceless jewels. For Dancer must have had the love of power and
the disdain of using it, a noble character in itself; disdain of many pleasures,
a chief part of what is commonly called wisdom; disdain of the inevitable end,
that finest trait of mankind; scorn of men's opinions, another element of
virtue; and at the back of all, a conscience just like yours and mine, whining
like a cur, swindling like a thimble- rigger, but still pointing (there or
there-about) to some conventional standard. Here were a cabinet portrait to
which Hawthorne perhaps had done justice; and yet not Hawthorne either, for he
was mildly minded, and it lay not in him to create for us that throb of the
miser's pulse, his fretful energy of gusto, his vast arms of ambition clutching
in he knows not what: insatiable, insane, a god with a muck-rake. Thus, at
least, looking in the bosom of the miser, consideration detects the poet in the
full tide of life, with more, indeed, of the poetic fire than usually goes to
epics; and tracing that mean man about his cold hearth, and to and fro in his
discomfortable house, spies within him a blazing bonfire of delight. And so with
others, who do not live by bread alone, but by some cherished and perhaps
fantastic pleasure; who are meat salesmen to the external eye, and possibly to
themselves are Shakespeares, Napoleons, or Beethovens; who have not one virtue
to rub against another in the field of active life, and yet perhaps, in the life
of contemplation, sit with the saints. We see them on the street, and we can
count their buttons; but heaven knows in what they pride themselves! heaven
knows where they have set their treasure!
There is one fable that touches very near the quick of life: the fable of the
monk who passed into the woods, heard a bird break into song, hearkened for a
trill or two, and found himself on his return a stranger at his convent gates;
for he had been absent fifty years, and of all his comrades there survived but
one to recognise him. It is not only in the woods that this enchanter carols,
though perhaps he is native there. He sings in the most doleful places. The
miser hears him and chuckles, and the days are moments. With no more apparatus
than an ill-smelling lantern I have evoked him on the naked links. All life that
is not merely mechanical is spun out of two strands: seeking for that bird and
hearing him. And it is just this that makes life so hard to value, and the
delight of each so incommunicable. And just a knowledge of this, and a
remembrance of those fortunate hours in which the bird has sung to us, that
fills us with such wonder when we turn the pages of the realist. There, to be
sure, we find a picture of life in so far as it consists of mud and of old iron,
cheap desires and cheap fears, that which we are ashamed to remember and that
which we are careless whether we forget; but of the note of that time- devouring
nightingale we hear no news.
The case of these writers of romance is most obscure. They have been boys and
youths; they have lingered outside the window of the beloved, who was then most
probably writing to some one else; they have sat before a sheet of paper, and
felt themselves mere continents of congested poetry, not one line of which would
flow; they have walked alone in the woods, they have walked in cities under the
countless lamps; they have been to sea, they have hated, they have feared, they
have longed to knife a man, and maybe done it; the wild taste of life has stung
their palate. Or, if you deny them all the rest, one pleasure at least they have
tasted to the full - their books are there to prove it - the keen pleasure of
successful literary composition. And yet they fill the globe with volumes, whose
cleverness inspires me with despairing admiration, and whose consistent falsity
to all I care to call existence, with despairing wrath. If I had no better hope
than to continue to revolve among the dreary and petty businesses, and to be
moved by the paltry hopes and fears with which they surround and animate their
heroes, I declare I would die now. But there has never an hour of mine gone
quite so dully yet; if it were spent waiting at a railway junction, I would have
some scattering thoughts, I could count some grains of memory, compared to which
the whole of one of these romances seems but dross.
These writers would retort (if I take them properly) that this was very true;
that it was the same with themselves and other persons of (what they call) the
artistic temperament; that in this we were exceptional, and should apparently be
ashamed of ourselves; but that our works must deal exclusively with (what they
call) the average man, who was a prodigious dull fellow, and quite dead to all
but the paltriest considerations. I accept the issue. We can only know others by
ourselves. The artistic temperament (a plague on the expression!) does not make
us different from our fellowmen, or it would make us incapable of writing
novels; and the average man (a murrain on the word!) is just like you and me, or
he would not be average. It was Whitman who stamped a kind of Birmingham
sacredness upon the latter phrase; but Whitman knew very well, and showed very
nobly, that the average man was full of joys and full of a poetry of his own.
And this harping on life's dulness and man's meanness is a loud profession of
incompetence; it is one of two things: the cry of the blind eye, I CANNOT SEE,
or the complaint of the dumb tongue, I CANNOT UTTER. To draw a life without
delights is to prove I have not realised it. To picture a man without some sort
of poetry - well, it goes near to prove my case, for it shows an author may have
little enough. To see Dancer only as a dirty, old, small-minded, impotently
fuming man, in a dirty house, besieged by Harrow boys, and probably beset by
small attorneys, is to show myself as keen an observer as . . . the Harrow boys.
But these young gentlemen (with a more becoming modesty) were content to pluck
Dancer by the coat-tails; they did not suppose they had surprised his secret or
could put him living in a book: and it is there my error would have lain. Or say
that in the same romance - I continue to call these books romances, in the hope
of giving pain - say that in the same romance, which now begins really to take
shape, I should leave to speak of Dancer, and follow instead the Harrow boys;
and say that I came on some such business as that of my lantern-bearers on the
links; and described the boys as very cold, spat upon by flurries of rain, and
drearily surrounded, all of which they were; and their talk as silly and
indecent, which it certainly was. I might upon these lines, and had I Zola's
genius, turn out, in a page or so, a gem of literary art, render the
lantern-light with the touches of a master, and lay on the indecency with the
ungrudging hand of love; and when all was done, what a triumph would my picture
be of shallowness and dulness! how it would have missed the point! how it would
have belied the boys! To the ear of the stenographer, the talk is merely silly
and indecent; but ask the boys themselves, and they are discussing (as it is
highly proper they should) the possibilities of existence. To the eye of the
observer they are wet and cold and drearily surrounded; but ask themselves, and
they are in the heaven of a recondite pleasure, the ground of which is an
ill-smelling lantern.
III
For, to repeat, the ground of a man's joy is often hard to hit. It may hinge
at times upon a mere accessory, like the lantern; it may reside, like Dancer's,
in the mysterious inwards of psychology. It may consist with perpetual failure,
and find exercise in the continued chase. It has so little bond with externals
(such as the observer scribbles in his note-book) that it may even touch them
not; and the man's true life, for which he consents to live, lie altogether in
the field of fancy. The clergyman, in his spare hours, may be winning battles,
the farmer sailing ships, the banker reaping triumph in the arts: all leading
another life, plying another trade from that they chose; like the poet's
housebuilder, who, after all, is cased in stone,
"By his fireside, as impotent fancy prompts. Rebuilds it to his liking."
In such a case the poetry runs underground. The observer (poor soul, with his
documents!) is all abroad. For to look at the man is but to court deception. We
shall see the trunk from which he draws his nourishment; but he himself is above
and abroad in the green dome of foliage, hummed through by winds and nested in
by nightingales. And the true realism were that of the poets, to climb up after
him like a squirrel, and catch some glimpse of the heaven for which he lives.
And, the true realism, always and everywhere, is that of the poets: to find
out where joy resides, and give it a voice far beyond singing.
For to miss the joy is to miss all. In the joy of the actors lies the sense
of any action. That is the explanation, that the excuse. To one who has not the
secret of the lanterns, the scene upon the links is meaningless. And hence the
haunting and truly spectral unreality of realistic books. Hence, when we read
the English realists, the incredulous wonder with which we observe the hero's
constancy under the submerging tide of dulness, and how he bears up with his
jibbing sweetheart, and endures the chatter of idiot girls, and stands by his
whole unfeatured wilderness of an existence, instead of seeking relief in drink
or foreign travel. Hence in the French, in that meat-market of middle-aged
sensuality, the disgusted surprise with which we see the hero drift sidelong,
and practically quite untempted, into every description of misconduct and
dishonour. In each, we miss the personal poetry, the enchanted atmosphere, that
rainbow work of fancy that clothes what is naked and seems to ennoble what is
base; in each, life falls dead like dough, instead of soaring away like a
balloon into the colours of the sunset; each is true, each inconceivable; for no
man lives in the external truth, among salts and acids, but in the warm,
phantasmagoric chamber of his brain, with the painted windows and the storied
walls.
Of this falsity we have had a recent example from a man who knows far better
- Tolstoi's POWERS OF DARKNESS. Here is a piece full of force and truth, yet
quite untrue. For before Mikita was led into so dire a situation he was tempted,
and temptations are beautiful at least in part; and a work which dwells on the
ugliness of crime and gives no hint of any loveliness in the temptation, sins
against the modesty of life, and even when a Tolstoi writes it, sinks to
melodrama. The peasants are not understood; they saw their life in fairer
colours; even the deaf girl was clothed in poetry for Mikita, or he had never
fallen. And so, once again, even an Old Bailey melodrama, without some
brightness of poetry and lustre of existence, falls into the inconceivable and
ranks with fairy tales.
IV
In nobler books we are moved with something like the emotions of life; and
this emotion is very variously provoked. We are so moved when Levine labours in
the field, when Andre sinks beyond emotion, when Richard Feverel and Lucy
Desborough meet beside the river, when Antony, "not cowardly, puts off his
helmet," when Kent has infinite pity on the dying Lear, when, in Dostoieffky's
DESPISED AND REJECTED, the uncomplaining hero drains his cup of suffering and
virtue. These are notes that please the great heart of man. Not only love, and
the fields, and the bright face of danger, but sacrifice and death and unmerited
suffering humbly supported, touch in us the vein of the poetic. We love to think
of them, we long to
try them, we are humbly hopeful that we may prove heroes also.
We have heard, perhaps, too much of lesser matters. Here is the door, here is
the open air. ITUR IN ANTIQUAM SILVAM.
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