He entered, vociferating oaths dreadful to hear; and caught me in the act
of stowing his son away in the kitchen cupboard. Hareton was impressed
with a wholesome terror of encountering either his wild beast's fondness
or his madman's rage; for in one he ran a chance of being squeezed and
kissed to death, and in the other of being flung into the fire, or dashed
against the wall; and the poor thing remained perfectly quiet wherever
I chose to put him.
`There, I've found it out at last!' cried Hindley, pulling me
back by the skin of my neck, like a dog. `By heaven and hell, you've sworn
between you to murder that child! I know how it is, now, that he is always
out of my way. But, with the help of Satan, I shall make you swallow the
carving-knife, Nelly! You needn't laugh; for I've just crammed Kenneth,
head downmost, in the Blackhorse marsh; and two is the same as one--and
I want to kill some of you: I shall have no rest till I do!'
`But I don't like the carving-knife, Mr Hindley,' I answered:
`it has been cutting red herrings. I'd rather be shot, if you please.'
`You'd rather be damned!' he said; `and so you shall. No law in
England can hinder a man from keeping his house decent, and mine's abominable!
open your mouth.'
He held the knife in his hand, and pushed its point between my
teeth: but, for my part, I was never much afraid of his vagaries. I spat
out, and affirmed it tasted detestably--I would not take it on any account.
`Oh!' said he, releasing me, `I see that hideous little villain
is not Hareton: I beg your pardon, Nell. If it be, he deserves flaying
alive for not running to welcome me, and for screaming as if I were a goblin.
Unnatural cub, come hither! I'll teach thee to impose on a good-hearted,
deluded father. Now, don't you think the lad would be handsomer cropped?
It makes a dog fiercer, and I love something fierce--get me a scissors--something
fierce and trim! Besides, it's infernal affectation--devilish conceit it
is, to cherish our ears--we're asses enough without them. Hush, child,
hush! Well then, it is my darling! wisht, dry thy eyes--there's a joy;
kiss me. What! it won't? Kiss me, Hareton! Damn thee, kiss me! By God,
as if 1 would rear such a monster! As sure as I'm living, I'll break the
brat's neck.'
Poor Hareton was squalling and kicking in his father's arms with
all his might, and redoubled his yells when he carried him upstairs and
lifted him over the banister. I cried out that he would frighten the child
into fits, and ran to rescue him. As I reached them, Hindley leant forward
on the rails to listen to a noise below; almost forgetting what he had
in his hands. `Who is that?' he asked, hearing someone approaching the
stair's foot. I leant forward also, for the purpose of signing to Heathcliff,
whose step I recognized, not to come farther; and, at the instant when
my eye quitted Hareton, he gave a sudden spring, delivered himself from
the careless grasp that held him, and fell.
There was scarcely time to experience a thrill of horror before
we saw that the little wretch was safe. Heathcliff arrived underneath just
at the critical moment; by a natural impulse, he arrested his descent,
and setting him on his feet, looked up to discover the author of the accident.
A miser who has parted with a lucky lottery ticket for five shillings,
and finds next day he has lost in the bargain five thousand pounds, could
not show a blanker countenance than he did on beholding the figure of Mr
Earnshaw above. It expressed, plainer than words could do, the intense
anguish at having made himself the instrument of thwarting his own revenge.
Had it been dark, I dare say, he would have tried to remedy the mistake
by smashing Hareton's skull on the steps; but we witnessed his salvation;
and I was presently below with my precious charge pressed to my heart.
Hindley descended more leisurely, sobered and abashed.
`It is your fault, Ellen,' he said; `you should have kept him
out of sight: you should have taken him from me! Is he injured anywhere?'
`Injured!' I cried angrily; `if he's not killed, he'll be an idiot!
Oh! I wonder his mother does not rise from her grave to see how you use
him. You're worse than a heathen--treating your own flesh and blood in
that manner!'
He attempted to touch the child, who, on finding himself with
me, sobbed off his terror directly. At the first finger his father laid
on him, however, he shrieked again louder than before, and struggled as
if he would go into convulsions.
`You shall not meddle with him!' I continued. `He hates you--they
all hate you--that's the truth! A happy family you have: and a pretty state
you're come to!'
`I shall come to a prettier, yet, Nelly,' laughed the misguided
man, recovering his hardness. `At present, convey yourself and him away.
And, hark you, Heathcliff! clear you too, quite from my reach and hearing.
I wouldn't murder you tonight; unless, perhaps, I set the house on fire:
but that's as my fancy goes.
While saying this he took a pint bottle of brandy from the dresser,
and poured some into a tumbler.
`Nay, don't!' I entreated. `Mr Hindley, do take warning. Have
mercy on this unfortunate boy, if you care nothing for yourself!'
`Anyone will do better for him than I shall,' he answered.
`Have mercy on your own soul!' I said, endeavouring to snatch
the glass from his hand.
`Not I! On the contrary, I shall have great pleasure in sending
it to perdition to punish its Maker,' exclaimed the blasphemer. `Here's
to its hearty damnation!'
He drank the spirits and impatiently bade us go; terminating his
command with a sequel of horrid imprecations, too bad to repeat or remember.
`It's a pity he cannot kill himself with drink,' observed Heathcliff,
muttering an echo of curses back when the door was shut. `He's doing his
very utmost; but his constitution defies him. Mr Kenneth says he would
wager his mare, that he'll outlive any man on this side Gimmerton, and
go to the grave a hoary sinner; unless some happy chance out of the common
course befall him.'
I went into the kitchen, and sat down to lull my little lamb to
sleep. Heathcliff, as I thought, walked through to the barn. It turned
out afterwards that he only got as far as the other side the settle, when
he flung himself on a bench by the wall, removed from the fire, and remained
silent.
I was rocking Hareton on my knee, and humming a song that began:
It was far in the night, and the bairnies grat,
The mither beneath the mools heard that--
when Miss Cathy, who had listened to the hubbub from her room, put her
head in, and whispered:
`Are you alone, Nelly?'
`Yes, miss,' I replied.
She entered and approached the hearth. I, supposing she was going
to say something, looked up. The expression of her face seemed disturbed
and anxious. Her lips were half asunder, as if she meant to speak, and
she drew a breath; but it escaped in a sigh instead of a sentence. I resumed
my song; not having forgotten her recent behaviour.
`Where's Heathcliff?' she said, interrupting me.
`About his work in the stable,' was my answer.
He did not contradict me; perhaps he had fallen into a doze. There
followed another long pause, during which I perceived a drop or two trickle
from Catherine's cheek to the flags. Is she sorry for her shameful conduct?
I asked myself. That will be a novelty: but she may come to the point as
she will--I shan't help her! No, she felt small trouble regarding any subject,
save her own concerns.
`Oh, dear!' she cried at last. `I'm very unhappy!'
`A pity,' observed I. `You're hard to please: so many friends
and so few cares, and can't make yourself content!'
`Nelly, will you keep a secret for me?' she pursued, kneeling
down by me, and lifting her winsome eyes to my face with that sort of look
which turns off bad temper, even when one has all the right in the world
to indulge it.
`Is it worth keeping?' I inquired, less sulkily.
`Yes, and it worries me, and I must let it out! I want to know
what I should do. Today, Edgar Linton has asked me to marry him, and I've
given him an answer. Now, before I tell you whether it was a consent or
denial, you tell me which it ought to have been.'
`Really, Miss Catherine, how can I know?' I replied. `To be sure,
considering the exhibition you performed in his presence this afternoon,
I might say it would be wise to refuse him: since he asked you after that,
he must either be hopelessly stupid or a venturesome fool.'
`If you talk so, I won't tell you any more,' she returned peevishly,
rising to her feet. `I accepted him, Nelly. Be quick, and say whether I
was wrong!'
`You accepted him! then what good is it discussing the matter?
You have pledged your word, and cannot retract.'
`But, say whether I should have done so--do!' she exclaimed in
an irritated tone; chafing her hands together, and frowning.
`There are many things to be considered before that question can
be answered properly,' I said sententiously. `First and fore-most, do you
love Mr Edgar?'
`Who can help it? Of course I do,' she answered.
Then I put her through the following catechism: for a girl of
twenty-two it was not injudicious.
`Why do you love him, Miss Cathy?'
`Nonsense, I do--that's sufficient.'
`By no means; you must say why?'
`Well, because he is handsome, and pleasant to be with.'
`Bad!' was my commentary.
`And because he is young and cheerful.'
`Bad, still.'
`And because he loves me.'
`Indifferent, coming there.'
`And he will be rich, and I shall like to be the greatest woman
of the neighbourhood, and I shall be proud of having such a husband.'
`Worst of all. And now, say how you love him?'
`As everybody loves--You're silly, Nelly.'
`Not at all--Answer.'
`I love the ground under his feet, and the air over his head,
and everything he touches, and every word he says. I love all his looks,
and all his actions, and him entirely and altogether. There now!'
`And why?'
`Nay; you are making a jest of it; it is exceedingly ill-natured! It's
no jest to me!' said the young lady, scowling, and turning her face to
the fire.
`I'm very far from jesting, Miss Catherine,' I replied. `You love
Mr Edgar because he is handsome, and young, and cheerful, and rich, and
loves you. The last, however, goes for nothing: you would love him without
that, probably; and with it you wouldn't, unless he possessed the four
former attractions.'
`No, to be sure not: I should only pity him--hate him, perhaps,
if he were ugly, and a clown.'
`But there are several other handsome, rich young men in the world:
handsomer, possibly, and richer than he is. What should hinder you from
loving them?'
`If there be any, they are out of my way! I've seen none like
Edgar.'
`You may see some; and he won't always be handsome, and young,
and may not always be rich.'
`He is now; and I have only to do with the present. I wish you
would speak rationally.'
`Well, that settles it: if you have only to do with the present,
marry Mr Linton.'
`I don't want your permission for that--I shall marry him:
and yet you have not told me whether I'm right.'
`Perfectly right; if people be right to marry only for the present.
And now, let us hear what you are unhappy about. Your brother will be pleased;
the old lady and gentleman will not object, I think; you will escape from
a disorderly, comfortless home into a wealthy, respectable one; and you
love Edgar, and Edgar loves you. All seems smooth and easy: where is the
obstacle?'
`Here! and here!' replied Catherine, striking one
hand on her forehead, and the other on her breast: `in whichever place
the soul lives. In my soul and in my heart, I'm convinced I'm wrong!'
`That's very strange! I cannot make it out.'
`It's my secret. But if you will not mock at me, I'll explain
it: I can't do it distinctly: but I'll give you a feeling of how I feel.'
She seated herself by me again: her countenance grew sadder and
graver, and her clasped hands trembled.
`Nelly, do you never dream queer dreams?' she said, suddenly,
after some minutes' reflection.
`Yes, now and then,' I answered.
`And so do I. I've dreamt in my life dreams that have stayed with
me ever after, and changed my ideas: they've gone through and through me,
like wine through water, and altered the colour of my mind. And this is
one; I'm going to tell it--but take care not to smile at any part of it.'
`Oh! don't, Miss Catherine!' I cried. `We're dismal enough without
conjuring up ghosts and visions to perplex us. Come, come, be merry and
like yourself! Look at little Hareton! he's dreaming nothing dreary. How
sweetly he smiles in his sleep!'
`Yes; and how sweetly his father curses in his solitude! You remember
him, I dare say, when he was just such another as that chubby thing: nearly
as young and innocent. However, Nelly, I shall oblige you to listen: it's
not long; and I've no power to be merry tonight.'
`I won't hear it, I won't hear it!' I repeated hastily.
I was superstitious about dreams then, and am still; and Catherine
had an unusual gloom in her aspect, that made me dread something from which
I might shape a prophecy, and foresee a fearful catastrophe. She was vexed,
but she did not proceed. Apparently taking up another subject, she recommenced
in a short time.
`If I were in heaven, Nelly, I should be extremely miserable.'
`Because you are not fit to go there,', I answered. `All sinners would
be miserable in heaven.'
`But it is not for that. I dreamt once that I was there.'
`I tell you I won't hearken to your dreams, Miss Catherine! I'll
go to bed,' I interrupted again.
She laughed, and held me down; for I made a motion to leave my
chair.
`This is nothing,' cried she: `I was only going to say that heaven
did not seem to be my home; and I broke my heart with weeping to come back
to earth; and the angels were so angry that they flung me out into the
middle of the heath on the top of Wuthering Heights; where I woke sobbing
for joy. That will do to explain my secret, as well as the other. I've
no more business to marry Edgar Linton than I have to be in heaven; and
if the wicked man in there had not brought Heathcliff so low, I shouldn't
have thought of it. It would degrade me to marry Heathcliff now; so he
shall never know how I love him: and that, not because he's handsome, Nelly,
but because he's more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of,
his and mine are the same; and Linton's is as different as a moonbeam from
lightning, or frost from fire.'
Ere this speech ended, I became sensible of Heathcliff's presence.
Having noticed a slight movement, I turned my head, and saw him rise from
the bench, and steal out noiselessly. He had listened till he heard Catherine
say it would degrade her to marry him, and then he stayed to hear no further.
My companion, sitting on the ground, was prevented by the back of the settle
from remarking his presence or departure; but I started, and bade her hush!
`Why?' she asked, gazing nervously round.
`Joseph is here,' I answered, catching opportunely the roll of
his cart-wheels up the road; `and Heathcliff will come in with him. I'm
not sure whether he were not at the door this moment.'
`Oh, he couldn't overhear me at the door!' said she. `Give me
Hareton, while you get the supper, and when it is ready ask me to sup with
you. I want to cheat my uncomfortable conscience, and be convinced that
Heathcliff has no notion of these things. He has not, has he? He does not
know what being in love is?'
`I see no reason that he should not know, as well as you,' I returned;
`and if you are his choice, he will be the most unfortunate creature that
ever was born! As soon as you become Mrs Linton, he loses friend, and love,
and all! Have you considered how you'll bear the separation, and how he'll
be deserted in the world? Because, Miss Catherine---'
`He quite deserted! we separated!' she exclaimed, with an accent
of indignation. `Who is to separate us, pray? They'll meet the fate of
Milo! Not as long as I live, Ellen: for no mortal creature. Every Linton
on the face of the earth might melt into nothing, before I could consent
to forsake Heathcliff. Oh, that's not what I intend--that's not what I
mean! I shouldn't be Mrs Linton were such a price demanded! He'll be as
much to me as he has been all his lifetime. Edgar must shake off his antipathy,
and tolerate him, at least. He will, when he learns my true feelings towards
him. Nelly, I see now, you think me a selfish wretch; but did it never
strike you that if Heathcliff and I married, we should be beggars? whereas,
if I marry Linton, I can aid Heathcliff to rise, and place him out of my
brother's power.'
`With your husband's money, Miss Catherine?' I asked. `You'll
find him not so pliable as you calculate upon: and, though I'm hardly a
judge, I think that's the worst motive you've given yet for being the wife
of young Linton.'
`It is not,' retorted she; `it is the best! The others were the
satisfaction of my whims: and for Edgar's sake, too, to satisfy him. This
is for the sake of one who comprehends in his person my feelings to Edgar
and myself. I cannot express it; but surely you and everybody have a notion
that there is or should be an existence of yours beyond you. What were
the use of my creation, if I were entirely contained here? My great miseries
in this world have been Heathcliff's miseries, and I watched and felt each
from the beginning: my great thought in living is himself. If all else
perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else
remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty
stranger: I should not seem a part of it. My love for Linton is like the
foliage in the woods: time will change it, I'm well aware, as winter changes
the trees. My love for Heathcliff resembles the eternal rocks beneath:
a source of little visible delight, but necessary. Nelly, I am Heathcliff!
He's always, always in my mind: not as a pleasure, any more than I am always
a pleasure to myself, but as my own being. So don't talk of our separation
again: it is impracticable; and---'
She paused, and hid her face in the folds of my gown; but I jerked
it forcibly away. I was out of patience with her folly!
`If I can make any sense of your nonsense, miss,' I said, `it
only goes to convince me that you are ignorant of the duties you undertake
in marrying; or else that you are a wicked, unprincipled girl. But trouble
me with no more secrets: I'll not promise to keep them.'
`You'll keep that?' she asked eagerly.
`No, I'll not promise,' I repeated.
She was about to insist, when the entrance of Joseph finished
our conversation; and Catherine removed her seat to a corner, and nursed
Hareton, while I made the supper. After it was cooked, my fellow-servant
and I began to quarrel who should carry some to Mr Hindley; and we didn't
settle it till all was nearly cold. Then we came to the agreement that
we would let him ask, if he wanted any; for we feared particularly to go
into his presence when he had been some time alone.
`Und hah isn't that nowt comed in frough th' field, be this time?
What is he abaht? girt eedle seeght!' demanded the old man, looking round
for Heathcliff.
`I'll call him,' I replied. `He's in the barn, I've no doubt.'
I went and called, but got no answer. On returning, I whispered
to Catherine that he had heard a good part of what she said, I was sure;
and told how I saw him quit the kitchen just as she complained of her brother's
conduct regarding him. She jumped up in a fine fright, flung Hareton on
to the settle, and ran to seek for her friend herself; not taking leisure
to consider why she was so flurried, or how her talk would have affected
him. She was absent such a while that Joseph proposed we should wait no
longer. He cunningly conjectured they were staying away in order to avoid
hearing his protracted blessing. They were `ill eneugh for ony fahl manners',
he affirmed. And on their behalf he added that night a special prayer to
the usual quarter of an hour's supplication before meat, and would have
tacked another to the end of the grace, had not his young mistress broken
in upon him with a hurried command that he must run down the road, and
wherever Heathcliff had rambled, find and make him re-enter directly!
`I want to speak to him, and I must, before I go upstairs,'
she said. `And the gate is open: he is somewhere out of hearing; for he
would not reply, though I shouted at the top of the fold as loud as I could.'
Joseph objected at first; she was too much in earnest, however,
to suffer contradiction; and at last he placed his hat on his head, and
walked grumbling forth. Meantime, Catherine paced up and down the floor,
exclaiming:
`I wonder where he is--I wonder where he can be? What did
I say, Nelly? I've forgotten. Was he vexed at my bad humour this afternoon?
Dear! tell me what I've said to grieve him? I do wish he'd come. I do wish
he would!'
`What a noise for nothing!' I cried, though rather uneasy myself.
`What a trifle scares you! It's surely no great cause of alarm that Heathcliff
should take a moonlight saunter on the moors, or even lie too sulky to
speak to us in the hay-loft. I'll engage he's lurking there. See if I don't
ferret him out!'
I departed to renew my search; its result was disappointment, and Joseph's
quest ended in the same.
`Yon lads gets war un war!' observed he on re-entering. `He's
left th' yate ut t' full swing, and Miss's pony has trodden dahn two rigs
uh corn, un plottered through, raight o'er intuh t' meadow! Hahsomdiver,
t' maister 'ull play t' devil tomorn, and he'll do weel. He's patience
itsseln wi' sich careless, offald craters--patience itsseln he is! Bud
he'll nut be soa allus--yah's see, all on ye! Yah mum'nt drive him aht
uf his heead for nowt!'
`Have you found Heathcliff, you ass?' interrupted Catherine. `Have
you been looking for him, as I ordered?'
`Aw sud more likker look for th' horse,' he replied. `It 'ud be
tuh more sense. Bud, Aw can look for norther horse nur man uf a neeght
loike this--as black as t' chimbley! und Hathecliff's noan t' chap to coom
at maw whistle--happen he'll be less hard uh hearing wi' ye!'
It was a very dark evening for summer: the clouds appeared
inclined to thunder, and I said we had better all sit down; the approaching
rain would be certain to bring him home without further trouble. However,
Catherine would not be persuaded into tranquillity. She kept wandering
to and fro, from the gate to the door, in a state of agitation which permitted
no repose; and at length took up a permanent situation on one side of the
wall, near the road: where, heedless of my expostulations and the growling
thunder, and the great drops that began to plash around her, she remained,
calling at intervals, and then listening, and then crying outright. She
beat Hareton, or any child, at a good passionate fit of crying.
About midnight, while we still sat up, the storm came rattling
over the Heights in full fury. There was a violent wind, as well as thunder,
and either one or the other split a tree off at the corner of the building:
a huge bough fell across the roof, and knocked down a portion of the east
chimney-stack, sending a clatter of stones and soot into the kitchen fire.
We thought a bolt had fallen in the middle of us; and Joseph swung on to
his knees beseeching the Lord to remember the patriarchs Noah and Lot,
and, as in former times, spare the righteous, though He smote the ungodly.
I felt some sentiment that it must be a judgment on us also. The Jonah,
in my mind, was Mr Earnshaw; and I shook the handle of his den that I might
ascertain if he were yet living. He replied audibly enough, in a fashion
which made my companion vociferate, more clamorously than before, that
a wide distinction might be drawn between saints like himself and sinners
like his master. But the uproar passed away in twenty minutes, leaving
us all unharmed; excepting Cathy, who got thoroughly drenched for her obstinacy
in refusing to take shelter, and standing bonnetless and shawl-less to
catch as much water as she could with her hair and clothes. She came in
and lay down on the settle, all soaked as she was, turning her face to
the back, and putting her hands before it.
`Well, miss!' I exclaimed, touching her shoulder; `you are not
bent on getting your death, are you? Do you know what o'clock it is? Half
past twelve. Come, come to bed! there's no use waiting longer on that foolish
boy: he'll be gone to Gimmetton, and he'll stay there now. He guesses we
shouldn't wait for him till this late hour: at least, he guesses that only
Mr Hindley would be up; and he'd rather avoid having the door opened by
the master.
`Nay, nay, he's noan at Gimmerton,' said Joseph. `Aw's niver wonder,
bud he's at t' bothom uf a bog-hoile. This visitation worn't for nowt,
and I wod hev ye to look out, miss--yah muh be t' next. Thank Hiven for
all! All warks togither for gooid to them as is chozzen, and piked out
fro' th' rubbidge! Yah knaw whet t' Scripture ses.' And he began quoting
several texts, referring us to the chapters and verses where we might find
them.
I, having vainly begged the wilful girl to rise and remove her
wet things, left him preaching and her shivering, and betook myself to
bed with little Hareton, who slept as fast as if everyone had been sleeping
round him. I heard Joseph read on a while afterwards; then I distinguished
his slow step on the ladder, and then I dropped asleep.
Coming down somewhat later than usual, I saw, by the sunbeams
piercing the chinks of the shutters, Miss Catherine still seated near the
fireplace. The house door was ajar, too; light entered from its unclosed
windows; Hindley had come out, and stood on the kitchen hearth, haggard
and drowsy.
`What ails you, Cathy?' he was saying when I entered: `you look
as dismal as a drowned whelp. Why are you so damp and pale, child?'
`I've been wet,' she answered reluctantly' `and I'm cold, that's
all.'
`Oh, she is naughty!' I cried, perceiving the master to be tolerably
sober. `She got steeped in the shower of yesterday evening, and there she
has sat the night through, and I couldn't prevail on her to stir.'
Mr Earnshaw stared at us in surprise. `The night through,' he
repeated. `What kept her up? not fear of the thunder, surely? That was
over hours since.'
Neither of us wished to mention Heathcliff's absence, as long
as we could conceal it; so I replied, I didn't know how she took it into
her head to sit up; and she said nothing. The morning was fresh and cool;
I threw back the lattice, and presently the room filled with sweet scents
from the garden; but Catherine called peevishly to me, `Ellen, shut the
window. I'm starving!' And her teeth chattered as she shrunk closer to
the almost extinguished embers.
`She's ill,' said Hindley, taking her wrist; `I suppose that's
the reason she would not go to bed. Damn it! I don't want to be troubled
with more sickness here. What took you into the rain!'
`Running after t' lads, as usuald!' croaked Joseph, catching an
opportunity, from our hesitation, to thrust in his evil tongue. `If I war
yah, maister, I'd just slam t' boards i' their faces all on 'em, gentle
and simple! Never a day ut yah're off, but yon cat o' Linton comes sneaking
hither; and Miss Nelly, shoo's a fine lass! shoo sits watching for ye i'
t' kitchen; and as yah're in at one door, he's out at t'other; and, then,
wer grand lady goes a coorting of her side! It's bonny behaviour, lurking
amang t' fields, after twelve o' t' night, wi' that fahl, flaysome divil
of a gipsy, Heathcliff! They think I'm blind; but I'm noan: nowt
ut t' soart!--I seed young Linton boath coming and going, and I seed yah'
(directing his discourse to me), `yah gooid fur nowt, slattenly witch!
nip up and bolt into th' house, t' minute yah heard t' maister's horse
fit clatter up t' road.'
`Silence, eavesdropper!' cried Catherine; `none of your insolence
before me! Edgar Linton came yesterday by chance, Hindley; and it was I
who told him to be off: because I knew you would not like to have met him
as you were.
`You lie, Cathy, no doubt,' answered her brother, `and you are
a confounded simpleton! But never mind Linton at present: tell me, were
you not with Heathcliff last night? Speak the truth, now. You need not
be afraid of harming him: though I hate him as much as ever, he did me
a good turn a short time since, that will make my conscience tender of
breaking his neck. To prevent it, I shall send him about his business,
this very morning; and after he's gone, I'd advise you all to look sharp:
I shall only have the more humour for you.
`I never saw Heathcliff last night,' answered Catherine, beginning
to sob bitterly: `and if you do turn him out of doors, I'll go with him.
But, perhaps, you'll never have an opportunity: perhaps he's gone.' Here
she burst into uncontrollable grief, and the remainder of her words were
inarticulate.
Hindley lavished on her a torrent of scornful abuse, and bade
her get to her room immediately, or she shouldn't cry for nothing! I obliged
her to obey; and I shall never forget what a scene she acted when we reached
her chamber: it terrified me. I thought she was going mad, and I begged
Joseph to run for the doctor. It proved the commencement of delirium: Mr
Kenneth, as soon as he saw her, pronounced her dangerously ill; she had
a fever. He bled her, and he told me to let her live on whey and water
gruel, and take care she did not throw herself downstairs or out of the
window; and then he left: for he had enough to do in the parish, where
two or three miles was the ordinary distance between cottage and cottage.
Though I cannot say I made a gentle nurse, and Joseph and the
master were no better; and though our patient was as wearisome and headstrong
as a patient could be, she weathered it through. Old Mrs Linton paid us
several visits, to be sure, and set things to rights, and scolded and ordered
us all; and when Catherine was convalescent, she insisted on conveying
her to Thrushcross Grange: for which deliverance we were very grateful.
But the poor dame had reason to repent of her kindness: she and her husband
both took the fever, and died within a few days of each other.
Our young lady returned to us, saucier and more passionate, and
haughtier than ever. Heathcliff had never been heard of since the evening
of the thunder-storm; and one day I had the misfortune, when she had provoked
me exceedingly, to lay the blame of his disappearance on her: where indeed
it belonged, as she well knew. From that period, for several months, she
ceased to hold any communication with me, save in the relation of a mere
servant. Joseph fell under a ban also: he would speak his mind,
and lecture her all the same as if she were a little girl; and she esteemed
herself a woman, and our mistress, and thought that her recent illness
gave her a claim to be treated with consideration. Then the doctor had
said that she would not bear crossing much; she ought to have her own way;
and it was nothing less than murder in her eyes for anyone to presume to
stand up and contradict her. From Mr Earnshaw and his companions she kept
aloof; and tutored by Kenneth, and serious threats of a fit that often
attended her rages, her brother allowed her whatever she pleased to demand,
and generally avoided aggravating her fiery temper. He was rather too
indulgent in humouring her caprices; not from affection, but from pride:
he wished earnestly to see her bring honour to the family by an alliance
with the Lintons, and as long as she let.him alone she might trample us
like slaves, for aught he cared! Edgar Linton, as multitudes have been
before and will be after him, was infatuated; and believed himself th,e
happiest man alive on the day he led her to Gimmerton Chapel, three years
subsequent to his father's death.
Much against my inclination, I was persuaded to leave Wuthering
Heights and accompany her here. Little Hareton was nearly five years old,
and I had just begun to teach him his letters. We made a sad parting; but
Catherine's tears were more powerful than ours. When I refused to go, and
when she found her entreaties did not move me, she went lamenting to her
husband and brother. The former offered me munificent wages; the latter
ordered me to pack up: he wanted no women in the house, he said, now that
there was no mistress; and as to Hareton, the curate should take him in
hand, by and by. And so I had but one choice left: to do as I was ordered.
I told the master he got rid of all decent people only to run to ruin a
little faster; I kissed Hareton goodbye; and since then he has been a stranger:
and it's very queer to think it, but I've no doubt he has completely forgotten
all about Ellen Dean, and that he was ever more than all the world to her,
and she to him!
At this point of the housekeeper's story, she chanced to glance
towards the timepiece over the chimney; and was in amazement on seeing
the minute hand measure half past one. She would not hear of staying a
second longer: in truth, I felt rather disposed to defer the sequel of
her narrative, myself. And now that she is vanished to her rest, and I
have meditated for another hour or two, I shall summon courage to go, also,
in spite of aching laziness of head and limbs.
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