While leading the way upstairs, she recommended that I should hide the
candle, and not make a noise; for her master had an odd notion about the
chamber she would put me in, and never let anybody lodge there willingly.
I asked the reason. She did not know, she answered: she had only lived
there a year or two; and they had so many queer goings on, she could not
begin to be curious.
Too stupefied to be curious myself, I fastened my door and glanced
round for the bed. The whole furniture consisted of a chair, a clothes-press,
and a large oak case, with squares cut out near the top resembling coach
windows. Having approached this structure I looked inside, and perceived
it to be a singular sort of old-fashioned couch, very conveniently designed
to obviate the necessity for every member of the family having a room to
himself. In fact it formed a little closet, and the ledge of a window,
which it enclosed, served as a table. I slid back the panelled sides, got
in with my light, pulled them together again, and felt secure against the
vigilance of Heathcliff, and everyone else.
The ledge, where I placed my candle, had a few mildewed books
piled up in one corner; and it was covered with writing scratched on the
paint. This writing, however, was nothing but a name repeated in all kinds
of characters, large and small--Catherine Earnshaw, here and there
varied to Catherine Heathcliff, and again to Catherine Linton.
In vapid listlessness I leant my head against the window, and
continued spelling over Catherine Earnshaw--Heathcliff--Linton, till my
eyes closed; but they had not rested five minutes when a glare of white
letters started from the dark as vivid as spectres--the air swarmed with
Catherines; and rousing myself to dispel the obtrusive name, I discovered
my candle wick reclining on one of the antique volumes, and perfuming the
place with an odour of roasted calfskin. I snuffed it off, and, very ill
at ease under the influence of cold and lingering nausea, sat up and spread
open the injured tome on my knee. It was a Testament, in lean type, and
smelling dreadfully musty: a fly-leaf bore the inscription --`Catherine
Earnshaw, her book', and a date some quarter of a century back. I shut
it, and took up another, and another, till I had examined all. Catherine's
library was select, and its state of dilapidation proved it to have been
well used; though not altogether for a legitimate purpose: scarcely one
chapter had escaped a pen-and-ink commentary--at least, the appearance
of one--covering every morsel of blank that the printer had left. Some
were detached sentences; other parts took the form of a regular diary,
scrawled in an unformed childish hand. At the top of an extra page (quite
a treasure, probably, when first lighted on) I was greatly amused to behold
an excellent caricature of my friend Joseph,--rudely, yet powerfully sketched.
An immediate interest kindled within me for the unknown Catherine, and
I began forthwith to decipher her faded hieroglyphics.
`An awful Sunday!' commenced the paragraph beneath. `I wish my
father were back again. Hindley is a detestable substitute his conduct
to Heathcliff is atrocious--H. and I are going to rebel--we took our initiatory
step this evening.
`All day had been flooding with rain; we could not go to church,
so Joseph must needs get up a congregation in the garret; and, while Hindley
and his wife basked downstairs before a comfortable fire--doing anything
but reading their Bibles, I'll answer for it--Heathcliff, myself, and the
unhappy plough-boy, were commanded to take our prayer books, and mount:
we were ranged in a row, on a sack of corn, groaning and shivering, and
hoping that Joseph would shiver too, so that he might give us a short homily
for his own sake. A vain idea! The service lasted precisely three hours;
and yet my brother had the face to exclaim, when he saw us descending,
"What, done already?" On Sunday evenings we used to be permitted to play,
if we did not make much noise; now a mere titter is sufficient to send
us into comers!
`"You forget you have a master here," says the tyrant. "I'll demolish
the first who puts me out of temper! I insist on perfect sobriety and silence.
Oh, boy! was that you? Frances, darling, pull his hair as you go by: I
heard him snap his fingers." Frances pulled his hair heartily, and then
went and seated herself on her husband's knee; and there they were, like
two babies, kissing and talking nonsense by the hour--foolish palaver that
we should be ashamed of. We made ourselves as snug as our means allowed
in the arch of the dresser. I had just fastened our pinafores together,
and hung them up for a curtain, when in comes Joseph on an errand from
the stables. He tears down my handiwork, boxes my ears, and croaks--
`"T' maister nobbut just buried, and Sabbath nut o'ered, und t'
sahnd uh t' gospel still i' yer lugs, and yah darr be laiking! Shame on
ye! sit ye dahn, ill childer! they's good books eneugh if ye'll read 'em!
sit ye dahn, and think uh yer sowls!"
`Saying this, he compelled us so to square our positions that
we might receive from the far-off fire a dull ray to show us the text of
the lumber thrust upon us. I could not bear the employment. I took my dingy
volume by the scroop, and hurled it into the dog kennel, vowing I hated
a good book. Heathcliff kicked his to the same place. Then there was a
hubbub!
`"Maister Hindley!" shouted our chaplain. "Maister, coom hither!
Miss Cathy's riven th' back off `Th' Helmet uh Salvation, un' Heathcliff's
pawsed his fit intuh t' first part uh `T' Brooad Way to Destruction!' It's
fair flaysome ut yah let 'em goa on this gait. Ech! th' owd man ud uh laced
'em properly--but he's goan!"
`Hindley hurried up from his paradise on the hearth, and seizing
one of us by the collar, and the other by the arm, hurled both into the
back kitchen; where, Joseph asseverated, "owd Nick" would fetch us as sure
as we were living: and, so comforted, we each sought a separate nook to
await his advent. I reached this book, and a pot of ink from a shelf, and
pushed the house door ajar to give me light, and I have got the time on
with writing for twenty minutes; but my companion is impatient, and proposes
that we should appropriate the dairywoman's cloak, and have a scamper on
the moors, under its shelter. A pleasant suggestion--and then, if the surly
old man come in, he may believe his prophecy verified--we cannot be damper,
or colder, in the rain than we are here.'
***
I suppose Catherine fulfilled her project, for the next sentence took up
another subject: she waxed lachrymose.
`How little did I dream that Hindley would ever make me cry so!'
she wrote. `My head aches, till I cannot keep it on the pillow; and still
I can't give over. Poor Heathcliff! Hindley calls him a vagabond, and won't
let him sit with us, nor eat with us any more; and, he says, he and I must
not play together, and threatens to turn him out of the house if we break
his orders. He has been blaming our father (how dared he?) for treating
H. too liberally; and swears he will reduce him to his right place--'
***
I began to nod drowsily over the dim page: my eye wandered from manuscript
to print, I saw a red ornamented title--`Seventy Times Seven, and the First
of the Seventy-First. A Pious Discourse delivered by the Reverend Jabes
Branderham, in the Chapel of Gimmerden Sough.' And while I was, half consciously,
worrying my brain to guess what Jabes Branderham would make of his subject,
I sank back in bed, and fell asleep. Alas, for the effects of bad tea and
bad temper! what else could it be that made me pass such a terrible night?
I don't remember another that I can at all compare with it since I was
capable of suffering.
I began to dream, almost before I ceased to be sensible of my
locality. I thought it was morning; and I had set out on my way home, with
Joseph for a guide. The snow lay yards deep in our road; and, as we floundered
on, my companion wearied me with constant reproaches that I had not brought
a pilgrim's staff: telling me that I could never get into the house without
one, and boastfully flourishing a heavy-headed cudgel, which I understood
to be so denominated. For a moment I considered it absurd that I should
need such a weapon to gain admittance into my own residence. Then a new
idea flashed across me. I was not going there: we were journeying to hear
the famous Jabes Branderham preach from the text--`Seventy Times Seven';
and either Joseph, the preacher, or I had committed the `First of the Seventy-First',
and were to be publicly exposed and excommunicated.
We came to the chapel. I have passed it really in my walks, twice
or thrice; it lies in a hollow, between two hills; an elevated hollow,
near a swamp, whose peaty moisture is said to answer all the purposes of
embalming on the few corpses deposited there. The roof has been kept whole
hitherto; but as the clergyman's stipend is only twenty pounds per annum,
and a house with two rooms, threatening speedily to determine into one,
no clergyman will undertake the duties of pastor: especially as it is currently
reported that his flock would rather let him starve than increase the living
by one penny from their own pockets. However, in my dream, Jabes had a
full and attentive congregation; and he preached--good God! what a sermon'.
divided into four hundred and ninety parts, each fully equal to an ordinary
address from the pulpit, and each discussing a separate sin! Where he searched
for them, I cannot tell. He had his private manner of interpreting the
phrase, and it seemed necessary the brother should sin different sins on
every occasion. They were of the most curious character: odd transgressions
that I never imagined previously.
Oh, how weary I grew. How I writhed, and yawned, and nodded, and
revived! How I pinched and pricked myself, and rubbed my eyes, and stood
up, and sat down again, and nudged Joseph to inform me if he would ever
have done. I was condemned 10 hear all out: finally, he reached
the `First of the Seventy-First'. At that crisis, a sudden inspiration
descended on me; I was moved to rise and denounce Jabes Branderham as the
sinner of the sin that no Christian need pardon.
`Sir,' I exclaimed, `sitting here within these four walls, at
one stretch, I have endured and forgiven the four hundred and ninety heads
of your discourse. Seventy times seven times have I plucked up my hat and
been about to depart--seventy times seven times have you preposterously
forced me to resume my seat. The four hundred and ninety-first is too much.
Fellow-martyrs, have at him! Drag him down, and crush him to atoms, that
the place which knows him may know him no more!'
`Thou art the Man!' cries Jabes, after a solemn pause,
leaning over his cushion. `Seventy times seven times didst thou gapingly
contort thy visage--seventy times seven did I take counsel with my soul--Lo,
this is human weakness: this also may be absolved! The First of the Seventy-First
is come. Brethren, execute upon him the judgment written. Such honour have
all His saints!'
With that concluding word, the whole assembly, exalting their
pilgrim's staves, rushed round me in a body; and I, having no weapon to
raise in self-defence, commenced grappling with Joseph, my nearest and
most ferocious assailant, for his. In the confluence of the multitude,
several clubs crossed; blows, aimed at me, fell on other sconces. Presently
the whole chapel resounded with rappings and counter-rappings: every man's
hand was against his neighbour; and Branderham, unwilling to remain idle,
poured forth his zeal in a shower of loud taps on the boards of the pulpit,
which responded so smartly that, at last, to my unspeakable relief, they
woke me. And what was it that had suggested the tremendous tumult? What
had played Jabes's part in the row? Merely, the branch of a fir tree that
touched my lattice, as the blast wailed by, and rattled its dry cones against
the panes! I listened doubtingly an instant; detected the disturber, then
turned and dozed, and dreamt again: if possible, still more disagreeably
than before.
This time, I remembered I was lying in the oak closet, and I heard
distinctly the gusty wind, and the driving of the snow; I heard, also,
the fir bough repeat its teasing sound, and ascribed it to the right cause:
but it annoyed me so much, that I resolved to--silence it, if possible;
and, I thought, I rose and endeavoured to unhasp the casement. The hook
was soldered into the staple: a circumstance observed by me when awake,
but forgotten. `I must stop it, nevertheless!' I muttered, knocking my
knuckles through the glass, and stretching an arm out to seize the importunate
branch; instead of which, my fingers closed on the fingers of a little,
ice-cold hand! The intense horror of nightmare came over me: I tried to
draw back my arm, but the hand clung to it, and a most melancholy voice
sobbed, `Let me in--let me in!' `Who are you?' I asked, struggling, meanwhile,
to disengage myself. `Catherine Linton,' it replied, shiveringly (why did
I think of Linton? I had read Earnshaw twenty times for Linton);
`I'm come home: I'd lost my way on the moor!' As it spoke, I discerned,
obscurely, a child's face looking through the window. Terror made me cruel;
and, finding it useless to attempt shaking the creature off, I pulled its
wrist on to the broken pane, and rubbed it to and fro till the blood ran
down and soaked the bedclothes: still it wailed, `Let me in!' and maintained
its tenacious grip, almost maddening me with fear. `How can I?' I said
at length. `Let me go, if you want me to let you in!' The fingers
relaxed, I snatched mine through the hole, hurriedly piled the books up
in a pyramid against it, and stopped my ears to exclude the lamentable
prayer. I seemed to keep them closed above a quarter of an hour; yet, the
instant I listened again, there was the doleful cry moaning on! `Begone!'
I shouted, `I'll never let you in, not if you beg for twenty years.' `It
is twenty years,' mourned the voice: `twenty years. I've been a waif for
twenty years!' Thereat began a feeble scratching outside, and the pile
of books moved as if thrust forward. I tried to jump up; but could not
stir a limb; and so yelled aloud, in a frenzy of fright. To my confusion,
I discovered the yell was not ideal: hasty footsteps approached my chamber
door; somebody pushed it open, with a vigorous hand, and a light glimmered
through the squares at the top of the bed. I sat shuddering yet, and wiping
the perspiration from my forehead: the intruder appeared to hesitate, and
muttered to himself. At last, he said in a half-whisper, plainly not expecting
an answer, `Is any one here?' I considered it best to confess my presence,
for I knew Heathcliff's accents, and feared he might search further, if
I kept quiet. With this intention, I turned and opened the panels. I shall
not soon forget the effect my action produced.
Heathcliff stood near the entrance, in his shirt and trousers:
with a candle dripping over his fingers, and his face as white as the wall
behind him. The first creak of the oak startled him like an electric shock!
the light leaped from his hold to a distance of some feet, and his agitation
was so extreme, that he could hardly pick it up.
`It is only your guest, sir,' I called out, desirous to spare
him the humiliation of exposing his cowardice further. `I had the misfortune
to scream in my sleep, owing to a frightful nightmare. I'm sorry I disturbed
you.
`Oh God confound you, Mr Lockwood! I wish you were at the--` commenced
my host, setting the candle on a chair, because he found it impossible
to hold it steady. `And who showed you up into this room?' he continued,
crushing his nails into his palms, and grinding his teeth to subdue the
maxillary convulsions. `Who was it? I've a good mind to turn them out of
the house this moment!'
`It was your servant, Zillah,' I replied, flinging myself on to
the floor, and rapidly resuming my garments. `I should not care if you
did, Mr Heathcliff; she richly deserves it. I suppose that she wanted to
get another proof that the place was haunted, at my expense. Well, it is--swarming
with ghosts and goblins! You have reason in shutting it up, I assure you.
No one will thank you for a doze in such a den!'
`What do you mean?' asked Heathcliff, `and what are you doing?
Lie down and finish out the night, since you are here; but, for heaven's
sake! don't repeat that horrid noise; nothing could excuse it, unless you
were having your throat cut!'
`If the little fiend had got in at the window, she probably would
have strangled me!' I returned. `I'm not going to endure the persecutions
of your hospitable ancestors again. Was not the Reverend Jabes Branderham
akin to you on the mother's side? And that minx, Catherine Linton, or Earnshaw,
or however she was called--she must have been a changeling--wicked little
soul! She told me she had been walking the earth these twenty years: a
just punishment for her mortal transgressions, I've no doubt!'
Scarcely were these words uttered, when I recollected the association
of Heathcliff's with Catherine's name in the book,--which had completely
slipped from my memory, till thus awakened. I blushed at my inconsideration;
but, without showing further consciousness of the offence, I hastened to
add--`The truth is, sir, I passed the first part of the night in'--Here
I stopped afresh--I was about to say perusing those old volumes', then
it would have revealed my knowledge of their written, as well as their
printed, contents: so, correcting myself, I went on, `in spelling over
the name scratched on that window-ledge. A monotonous occupation, calculated
to set me asleep, like counting, or--'
`What can you mean by talking in this way to me?'
thundered Heathcliff with savage vehemence. `How--how dare you,
under my roof?--God! he's mad to speak so!' And he struck his forehead
with rage.
I did not know whether to resent this language or pursue my explanation;
but he seemed so powerfully affected that I took pity and proceeded with
my dreams; affirming I had never heard the appellation of `Catherine Linton'
before, but reading it often over produced an impression which personified
itself when I had no longer my imagination under control. Heathcliff gradually
fell back into the shelter of the bed, as I spoke; finally sitting down
almost concealed behind it. I guessed, however, by his irregular and intercepted
breathing, that he struggled to vanquish an excess of violent emotion.
Not liking to show him that I had heard the conflict, I continued my toilette
rather noisily, looking at my watch, and soliloquized on the length of
the night: `Not three o'clock yet! I could have taken oath it had been
six. Time stagnates here: we must surely have retired to rest at eight!'
`Always at nine in winter, and always rise at four,' said my host,
suppressing a groan: and, as I fancied, by the motion of his shadow's arm,
dashing a tear from his eyes. `Mr Lockwood,' he added, `you may go into
my room: you'll only be in the way, coming downstairs so early; and your
childish outcry has sent sleep to the devil for me.'
`And for me, too,' I replied. `I'll walk in the yard till daylight,
and then I'll be off; and you need not dread a repetition of my intrusion.
I'm now quite cured of seeking pleasure in society, be it country or town.
A sensible man ought to find sufficient company in himself.'
`Delightful company!' muttered Heathcliff. `Take the candle, and
go where you please. I shall join you directly. Keep out of the yard, though,
the dogs are unchained; and the house--Juno mounts sentinel there, and--nay,
you can only ramble about the steps and passages. But, away with you! I'll
come in two minutes!'
I obeyed, so far as to quit the chamber; when, ignorant where
the narrow lobbies led, I stood still, and was witness, involuntarily,
to a piece of superstition on the part of my landlord, which belied, oddly,
his apparent sense. He got on to the bed, and wrenched open the lattice,
bursting, as he pulled at it, into an uncontrollable passion of tears.
`Come in! come in!' he sobbed. `Cathy, do come. Oh do--once more!
Oh! my heart's darling! hear me this time, Catherine, at last!'
The spectre showed a spectre's ordinary caprice: it gave no sign of being;
but the snow and wind whirled wildly through, even reaching my station,
and blowing out the light.
There was such anguish in the gust of grief that accompanied this
raving, that my compassion made me overlook its folly, and I drew off,
half angry to have listened at all, and vexed at having related my ridiculous
nightmare, since it produced that agony; though why, was beyond
my comprehension. I descended cautiously to the lower regions, and landed
in the back kitchen, where a gleam of fire, raked compactly together, enabled
me to rekindle my candle. Nothing was stirring except a bridled, grey cat,
which crept from the ashes, and saluted me with a querulous mew.
Two benches, shaped in sections of a circle, nearly enclosed the
hearth; on one of these I stretched myself, and Grimalkin mounted the other.
We were both of us nodding, ere anyone invaded our retreat, and then it
was Joseph, shuffling down a wooden ladder that vanished in the roof, through
a trap: the ascent to his garret, I suppose. He cast a sinister look at
the little flame which I had enticed to play between the ribs, swept the
cat from its elevation, and bestowing himself in the vacancy, commenced
the operation of stuffing a three-inch pipe with tobacco. My presence in
his sanctum was evidently esteemed a piece of impudence too shameful for
remark: he silently applied the tube to his lips, folded his arms, and
puffed away. I let him enjoy the luxury unannoyed; and after sucking out
his last wreath, and heaving a profound sigh, he got up, and departed as
solemnly as he came.
A more elastic footstep entered next; and now I opened my mouth
for a `good morning', but closed it again, the salutation unachieved; for
Hareton Earnshaw was performing his orisons sotto voce, in a series
of curses directed against every object he touched, while he rummaged a
corner for a spade or shovel to dig through the drifts. He glanced over
the back of the bench, dilating his nostrils, and thought as little of
exchanging civilities with me as with my companion the cat. I guessed,
by his preparations, that egress was allowed, and, leaving my hard couch,
made a movement to follow him. He noticed this, and thrust at an inner
door with the end of his spade, intimating by an inarticulate sound that
there was the place where I must go, if I changed my locality;
It opened into the house, where the females were already astir,
Zillah urging flakes of flame up the chimney with a colossal bellows; and
Mrs Heathcliff, kneeling on the hearth, reading a book by the aid of the
blaze. She held her hand interposed between the furnace heat and her eyes,
and seemed absorbed in her occupation; desisting from it only to chide
the servant for covering her with sparks, or to push away a dog, now and
then, that snoozled its nose over-forwardly into her face. I was surprised
to see Heathcliff there also. He stood by the fire, his back towards me,
just finishing a stormy scene to poor Zillah; who ever and anon interrupted
her labour to pluck up the corner of her apron, and heave an indignant
groan.
`And you, you worthless'--he broke out as I entered, turning to
his daughter-in-law, and employing an epithet as harmless as duck, or sheep,
but generally represented by a dash--. `There you are, at your idle tricks
again! The rest of them do earn their bread--you live on my charity! Put
your trash away, and find something to do. You shall pay me for the plague
of having you eternally in my sight--do you hear, damnable jade?'
`I'll put my trash away, because you can make me, if I refuse,'
answered the young lady, closing her book, and throwing it on a chair.
`But I'll not do anything, though you should swear your tongue out, except
what I please!'
Heathcliff lifted his hand, and the speaker sprang to a safer
distance, obviously acquainted with its weight. Having no desire to be
entertained by a cat-and-dog combat; I stepped forward briskly, as if eager
to partake the warmth of the hearth, and innocent of any knowledge of the
interrupted dispute. Each had enough decorum to suspend further hostilities:
Heathcliff placed his fist, out of temptation, in his pockets; Mrs Heathcliff
curled her lip, and walked to a seat far off, where she kept her word by
playing the part of a statue during the remainder of my stay. That was
not long. I declined joining their breakfast, and, at the first gleam of
dawn, took an opportunity of escaping into the free air, now clear, and
still, and cold as impalpable ice.
My landlord hallooed for me to stop, ere I reached the bottom
of the garden, and offered to accompany me across the moor. It was well
he did, for the whole hill-back was one billowy, white ocean; the swells
and falls not indicating corresponding rises and depressions in the ground:
many pits, at least, were filled to a level; and entire ranges of mounds,
the refuse of the quarries, blotted from the chart which my yesterday's
walk left pictured in my mind. I had remarked on one side of the road,
at intervals of six or seven yards, a line of upright stones, continued
through the whole length of the barren: these were erected, and daubed
with lime on purpose to serve as guides in the dark; and also when a fall,
like the present, confounded the deep swamps on either hand with the firmer
path: but, excepting a dirty dot pointing up here and there, all traces
of their existence had vanished: and my companion found it necessary to
warn me frequently to steer to the right or left, when I imagined I was
following, correctly, the windings of the road. We exchanged little conversation,
and he halted at the entrance of Thrushcross Park, saying, I could make
no error there. Our adieux were limited to a hasty bow, and then I pushed
forward, trusting to my own resources; for the porter's lodge is untenanted
as yet. The distance from the gate to the Grange is two miles: I believe
I managed to make it four; what with losing myself among the trees, and
sinking up to the neck in snow: a predicament which only those who have
experienced it can appreciate. At any rate, whatever were my wanderings,
the clock chimed twelve as I entered the house; and that gave exactly an
hour for every mile of the usual way from Wuthering Heights.
My human fixture and her satellites rushed to welcome me; exclaiming,
tumultuously, they had completely given me up; everybody conjectured that
I perished last night; and they were wondering how they must set about
the search for my remains. I bid them be quiet, now that they saw me returned,
and, benumbed to my very heart, I dragged upstairs; whence, after putting
on dry clothes, and pacing to and fro thirty or forty minutes, to restore
the animal heat, I am adjourned to my study, feeble as a kitten: almost
too much so to enjoy the cheerful fire and smoking coffee which the servant
has prepared for my refreshment.
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