Thatmustbethestoryofinnumerablecouples,andthepatternoflifeoflifeitoffershasahomelygrace.Itremindsyouofaplacidrivulet,meanderingsmoohtlythroughgreenpasturesandshadedbypleasanttrees,tillatlastitfallsintothevastysea;buttheseaissocalm,sosilent,soindifferent,thatyouaretroubledsuddentlybyavagueuneasiness.Perhapsitisonlybyakinkinmynature,stronginmeeveninthosedays,thatIfeltinsuchanexistence,theshareofthegreatmajority,somethingamiss.Irecognizeditssocialvalue.Isawitsorderedhappiness,butafeverinmybloodaskedforawildercourse.Thereseemedtomesomethingalarminginsucheasydelights.Inmyheartwasdesiretolivemoredangerously.Iwasnotunpreparedforjaggedrocksandtreacherous,shoalsitIcouldonlyhavechange—changeandtheexcitementofunforeseen.
這一定是世間無數對夫妻的生活寫照,這種生活模式給人一種天倫之美。它使人想起一條平靜的溪流,蜿蜒暢遊過綠茵的草場,濃蔭遮蔽,最後注入煙波浩渺的汪洋大海;但是大海太過平靜,太過沉默,太過不動聲色,你會突然感到莫名的不安。也許這只是我自己的一種怪誕想法,在那樣的時代,這想法對我影響很深:我覺得這像大多數人一樣的生活,似乎欠缺了一點兒什麼。我承認這種生活有社會價值,我也看到了它那井然有序的幸福,但我血液裡的衝動卻渴望一種更桀驁不馴的旅程。這樣的安逸中好像有一種叫我驚懼不安的東西。我的心渴望一種更加驚險的生活。只要生活中還能有變遷——以及不可知的刺激,我願意踏上怪石嶙峋的山崖,奔赴暗礁滿佈的海灘。
BiddingTheLovelyScenesAtDistanceHail!向遠方的美景歡呼!
Andseenoendtothelandscape,newobjectspresentingthemselvesasweadvance;so,inthecommencementoflife,wesetnoboundstoourinclinations.Nortotheunrestrictedopportunitiesofgrastifyingthem.Wehaveasyetfoundnoobstacle,nodispositiontoflag;anditseemsthatwecangoonsoforever.Welookroundinanewworld,fulloflife,andmotion,andceaselessprogress;andfeelinourselvesallthevigourandspirittokeeppacewithit,anddonotforeseefromanypresentsymptomshowweshallbeleftbehindinthenaturalcourseofthings,declineintooldage,anddropintothegrave.Itisthesimplicity,andasitwereabstractednessofourfeelingsinyouth,that(sotospeak)identifiesuswithnature,and(ourexperiencebeingslightandourpassionsstrong)deludesusintoabeliefofbeingimmortallikeit.Ourshort-livesconnexionwithexistencewefondlyflatterourselves,isanindissolubleandlastingunion-ahoneymoonthatknowsneithercoldness,jar,norseparation.Asinfantssmileandsleep,wearerockedinthecradleofourwaywardfancies,andlulledintosecuritybytheroaroftheuniversearoundus0wequaffthecupoflifewitheagerhastewithoutdrainingit,insteadofwhichitonlyoverflowsthemore-objectspressaroundus,fillingthemindwiththeirmagnitudeandwiththestrongofdesiresthatwaituponthem,sothatwehavenoroomforthethoughtsofdeath.
此時,但覺好風光應接不暇,而且,前程更有美不勝收的新鮮景致。在這生活的開端,我們聽任自己的志趣馳騁,放手給它們一切滿足的機會。到此為止,我們還沒有碰上過什麼障礙,也沒有感覺到什麼疲憊,因此覺得還可以一直這樣向前走去,直到永遠。我們看到四週一派新天地——生機盎然,變動不居,日新月異;我們覺得自己活力充盈,精神飽滿,可與宇宙並駕齊驅。而且,眼前也無任何跡象可以證明,在大自然的發展過程中,我們自己也會落伍,衰老,進入墳墓。由於年輕人天真單純,可以說是茫然無知,因而將自己跟大自然劃上等號;並且,由於經驗少而感情盛,誤以為自己也能和大自然一樣永世長存。我們一廂情願,癡心妄想,竟把自己在世上的暫時棲身,當作千古不變、萬事長存的結合,好像沒有冷淡、爭執、離別的密月。像嬰兒帶著微笑入睡,我們躺在用自己編織成的搖籃裡,讓大千世界的萬籟之聲催哄我們安然入夢;我們急切切,興沖沖地暢飲生命之杯,怎麼也不會飲乾,反而好像永遠是滿滿欲溢;森羅萬象紛至沓來,各種慾望隨之而生,使我們騰不出工夫想死亡。
LoveYourLife熱愛生活
Howevermeanyourlifeis,meetitandliveit;donotshunitandcallithardnames.Itisnotsobadasyouare.Itlookspoorestwhenyouarerichest.Thefault-finderwillfindfaultsinparadise.Loveyourlife,poorasitis.Youmayperhapshavesomepleasant,thrilling,glorioushours,eveninapoor-house.Thesettingsunisreflectedfromthewindowsofthealms-houseasbrightlyasfromtherichman'sabode;thesnowmeltsbeforeitsdoorasearlyinthespring.Idonotseebutaquietmindmayliveascontentedlythere,andhaveascheeringthoughts,asinapalace.Thetown'spoorseemtomeoftentolivethemostindependentlivesofany.Maybetheyaresimplygreatenoughtoreceivewithoutmisgiving.Mostthinkthattheyareabovebeingsupportedbythetown;butitoftenhappensthattheyarenotabovesupportingthemselvesbydishonestmeans.Whichshouldbemoredisreputable?Cultivatepovertylikeagardenherb,likesage.Donottroubleyourselfmuchtogetnewthings,whetherclothesorfriends,Turntheold,returntothem.Thingsdonotchange;wechange.Sellyourclothesandkeepyourthoughts.
不論你的生活如何卑賤,你要面對它生活,不要躲避它,更別用惡言咒罵它。它不像你那樣壞。你最富有的時候,倒是看似最窮。愛找缺點的人就是到天堂裡也能找到缺點。你要愛你的生活,儘管它貧窮。甚至在一個濟貧院裡,你也還有愉快、高興、光榮的時候。夕陽反射在濟貧院的窗上,像身在富戶人家窗上一樣光亮;在那門前,積雪同在早春融化。我只看到,一個從容的人,在哪裡也像在皇宮中一樣,生活得心滿意足而富有愉快的思想。城鎮中的窮人,我看,倒往往是過著最獨立不羈的生活。也許因為他們很偉大,所以受之無愧。大多數人以為他們是超然的,不靠城鎮來支援他們;可是事實上他們是往往利用了不正當的手段來對付生活,他們是毫不超脫的,毋寧是不體面的。視貧窮如園中之花而像聖人一樣耕植它吧!不要找新的花樣,無論是新的朋友或新的衣服,來麻煩你自己。找舊的,回到那裡去。萬物不變,是我們在變。你的衣服可以賣掉,但要保留你的思想。
WordsToLife生活的忠告
I』llgiveyousomeadviceaboutlife.
Eatmoreroughage;
Domorethanothersexpectyoutodoanddoitpains;
Rememberwhatlifetellsyou;
Don』ttaketohearteverythingyouhear.Don』tspendallthatyouhave.Don』tsleepaslongasyouwant;
Wheneveryousay "Iloveyou",pleasesayithonestly;
Wheneveryousay"I』msorry",pleaselookintotheotherperson』seyes;
Fallinloveatfirstsight;
Don』tneglectdreams;
Lovedeeplyandardently,evenifthereispain,butthisisthewaytomakeyourlifecomplete;
Findawaytosettle,nottodispute;
Neverjudgepeoplebytheirappearance;
Speakslowly,butthinkquickly;