'Adieu! she cries, and waved her lily hand.'
The few tattered clouds of the morning enlarged and united, the sun withdrew
behind them to emerge no more that day, and the evening drew to a close in
drifts of rain. The water-drops beat like duck shot against the window of the
railway-carriage containing Stephen and Elfride.
The journey from Plymouth to Paddington, by even the most headlong express,
allows quite enough leisure for passion of any sort to cool. Elfride's
excitement had passed off, and she sat in a kind of stupor during the latter
half of the journey. She was aroused by the clanging of the maze of rails over
which they traced their way at the entrance to the station.
Is this London?' she said.
'Yes, darling,' said Stephen in a tone of assurance he was far from feeling.
To him, no less than to her, the reality so greatly differed from the
prefiguring.
She peered out as well as the window, beaded with drops, would allow her, and
saw only the lamps, which had just been lit, blinking in the wet atmosphere, and
rows of hideous zinc chimney- pipes in dim relief against the sky. She writhed
uneasily, as when a thought is swelling in the mind which must cause much pain
at its deliverance in words. Elfride had known no more about the stings of evil
report than the native wild-fowl knew of the effects of Crusoe's first shot. Now
she saw a little further, and a little further still.
The train stopped. Stephen relinquished the soft hand he had held all the
day, and proceeded to assist her on to the platform.
This act of alighting upon strange ground seemed all that was wanted to
complete a resolution within her.
She looked at her betrothed with despairing eyes.
'O Stephen,' she exclaimed, 'I am so miserable! I must go home again--I
must--I must! Forgive my wretched vacillation. I don't like it here--nor
myself--nor you!'
Stephen looked bewildered, and did not speak.
'Will you allow me to go home?' she implored. 'I won't trouble you to go with
me. I will not be any weight upon you; only say you will agree to my returning;
that you will not hate me for it, Stephen! It is better that I should return
again; indeed it is, Stephen.'
'But we can't return now,' he said in a deprecatory tone.
'I must! I will!'
'How? When do you want to go?'
'Now. Can we go at once?'
The lad looked hopelessly along the platform.
'If you must go, and think it wrong to remain, dearest,' said he sadly, 'you
shall. You shall do whatever you like, my Elfride. But would you in reality
rather go now than stay till to-morrow, and go as my wife?'
'Yes, yes--much--anything to go now. I must; I must!' she cried.
'We ought to have done one of two things,' he answered gloomily. 'Never to
have started, or not to have returned without being married. I don't like to say
it, Elfride--indeed I don't; but you must be told this, that going back
unmarried may compromise your good name in the eyes of people who may hear of
it.'
'They will not; and I must go.'
'O Elfride! I am to blame for bringing you away.'
'Not at all. I am the elder.'
'By a month; and what's that? But never mind that now.' He looked around. 'Is
there a train for Plymouth to-night?' he inquired of a guard. The guard passed
on and did not speak.
'Is there a train for Plymouth to-night?' said Elfride to another.
'Yes, miss; the 8.10--leaves in ten minutes. You have come to the wrong
platform; it is the other side. Change at Bristol into the night mail. Down that
staircase, and under the line.'
They ran down the staircase--Elfride first--to the booking-office, and into a
carriage with an official standing beside the door. 'Show your tickets, please.'
They are locked in--men about the platform accelerate their velocities till they
fly up and down like shuttles in a loom--a whistle--the waving of a flag--a
human cry--a steam groan--and away they go to Plymouth again, just catching
these words as they glide off:
'Those two youngsters had a near run for it, and no mistake!'
Elfride found her breath.
'And have you come too, Stephen? Why did you?'
'I shall not leave you till I see you safe at St. Launce's. Do not think
worse of me than I am, Elfride.'
And then they rattled along through the night, back again by the way they had
come. The weather cleared, and the stars shone in upon them. Their two or three
fellow-passengers sat for most of the time with closed eyes. Stephen sometimes
slept; Elfride alone was wakeful and palpitating hour after hour.
The day began to break, and revealed that they were by the sea. Red rocks
overhung them, and, receding into distance, grew livid in the blue grey
atmosphere. The sun rose, and sent penetrating shafts of light in upon their
weary faces. Another hour, and the world began to be busy. They waited yet a
little, and the train slackened its speed in view of the platform at St.
Launce's.
She shivered, and mused sadly.
'I did not see all the consequences,' she said. 'Appearances are wofully
against me. If anybody finds me out, I am, I suppose, disgraced.'
'Then appearances will speak falsely; and how can that matter, even if they
do? I shall be your husband sooner or later, for certain, and so prove your
purity.'
'Stephen, once in London I ought to have married you,' she said firmly. 'It
was my only safe defence. I see more things now than I did yesterday. My only
remaining chance is not to be discovered; and that we must fight for most
desperately.'
They stepped out. Elfride pulled a thick veil over her face.
A woman with red and scaly eyelids and glistening eyes was sitting on a bench
just inside the office-door. She fixed her eyes upon Elfride with an expression
whose force it was impossible to doubt, but the meaning of which was not clear;
then upon the carriage they had left. She seemed to read a sinister story in the
scene.
Elfride shrank back, and turned the other way.
'Who is that woman?' said Stephen. 'She looked hard at you.'
'Mrs. Jethway--a widow, and mother of that young man whose tomb we sat on the
other night. Stephen, she is my enemy. Would that God had had mercy enough upon
me to have hidden this from HER!'
'Do not talk so hopelessly,' he remonstrated. 'I don't think she recognized
us.'
'I pray that she did not.'
He put on a more vigorous mood.
'Now, we will go and get some breakfast.'
'No, no!' she begged. 'I cannot eat. I MUST get back to Endelstow.'
Elfride was as if she had grown years older than Stephen now.
'But you have had nothing since last night but that cup of tea at Bristol.'
'I can't eat, Stephen.'
'Wine and biscuit?'
'No.'
'Nor tea, nor coffee?'
'No.'
'A glass of water?'
'No. I want something that makes people strong and energetic for the present,
that borrows the strength of to-morrow for use to- day--leaving to-morrow
without any at all for that matter; or even that would take all life away
to-morrow, so long as it enabled me to get home again now. Brandy, that's what I
want. That woman's eyes have eaten my heart away!'
'You are wild; and you grieve me, darling. Must it be brandy?'
'Yes, if you please.'
'How much?'
'I don't know. I have never drunk more than a teaspoonful at once. All I know
is that I want it. Don't get it at the Falcon.'
He left her in the fields, and went to the nearest inn in that direction.
Presently he returned with a small flask nearly full, and some slices of
bread-and-butter, thin as wafers, in a paper- bag. Elfride took a sip or two.
'It goes into my eyes,' she said wearily. 'I can't take any more. Yes, I
will; I will close my eyes. Ah, it goes to them by an inside route. I don't want
it; throw it away.'
However, she could eat, and did eat. Her chief attention was concentrated
upon how to get the horse from the Falcon stables without suspicion. Stephen was
not allowed to accompany her into the town. She acted now upon conclusions
reached without any aid from him: his power over her seemed to have departed.
'You had better not be seen with me, even here where I am so little known. We
have begun stealthily as thieves, and we must end stealthily as thieves, at all
hazards. Until papa has been told by me myself, a discovery would be terrible.'
Walking and gloomily talking thus they waited till nearly nine o'clock, at
which time Elfride thought she might call at the Falcon without creating much
surprise. Behind the railway-station was the river, spanned by an old Tudor
bridge, whence the road diverged in two directions, one skirting the suburbs of
the town, and winding round again into the high-road to Endelstow. Beside this
road Stephen sat, and awaited her return from the Falcon.
He sat as one sitting for a portrait, motionless, watching the chequered
lights and shades on the tree-trunks, the children playing opposite the school
previous to entering for the morning lesson, the reapers in a field afar off.
The certainty of possession had not come, and there was nothing to mitigate the
youth's gloom, that increased with the thought of the parting now so near.
At length she came trotting round to him, in appearance much as on the
romantic morning of their visit to the cliff, but shorn of the radiance which
glistened about her then. However, her comparative immunity from further risk
and trouble had considerably composed her. Elfride's capacity for being wounded
was only surpassed by her capacity for healing, which rightly or wrongly is by
some considered an index of transientness of feeling in general.
'Elfride, what did they say at the Falcon?'
'Nothing. Nobody seemed curious about me. They knew I went to Plymouth, and I
have stayed there a night now and then with Miss Bicknell. I rather calculated
upon that.'
And now parting arose like a death to these children, for it was imperative
that she should start at once. Stephen walked beside her for nearly a mile.
During the walk he said sadly:
'Elfride, four-and-twenty hours have passed, and the thing is not done.'
'But you have insured that it shall be done.'
'How have I?'
'O Stephen, you ask how! Do you think I could marry another man on earth
after having gone thus far with you? Have I not shown beyond possibility of
doubt that I can be nobody else's? Have I not irretrievably committed
myself?--pride has stood for nothing in the face of my great love. You
misunderstood my turning back, and I cannot explain it. It was wrong to go with
you at all; and though it would have been worse to go further, it would have
been better policy, perhaps. Be assured of this, that whenever you have a home
for me--however poor and humble--and come and claim me, I am ready.' She added
bitterly, 'When my father knows of this day's work, he may be only too glad to
let me go.'
'Perhaps he may, then, insist upon our marriage at once!' Stephen answered,
seeing a ray of hope in the very focus of her remorse. 'I hope he may, even if
we had still to part till I am ready for you, as we intended.'
Elfride did not reply.
'You don't seem the same woman, Elfie, that you were yesterday.'
'Nor am I. But good-bye. Go back now.' And she reined the horse for parting.
'O Stephen,' she cried, 'I feel so weak! I don't know how to meet him. Cannot
you, after all, come back with me?'
'Shall I come?'
Elfride paused to think.
'No; it will not do. It is my utter foolishness that makes me say such words.
But he will send for you.'
'Say to him,' continued Stephen, 'that we did this in the absolute despair of
our minds. Tell him we don't wish him to favour us-- only to deal justly with
us. If he says, marry now, so much the better. If not, say that all may be put
right by his promise to allow me to have you when I am good enough for
you--which may be soon. Say I have nothing to offer him in exchange for his
treasure--the more sorry I; but all the love, and all the life, and all the
labour of an honest man shall be yours. As to when this had better be told, I
leave you to judge.'
His words made her cheerful enough to toy with her position.
'And if ill report should come, Stephen,' she said smiling, 'why, the
orange-tree must save me, as it saved virgins in St. George's time from the
poisonous breath of the dragon. There, forgive me for forwardness: I am going.'
Then the boy and girl beguiled themselves with words of half- parting only.
'Own wifie, God bless you till we meet again!'
'Till we meet again, good-bye!'
And the pony went on, and she spoke to him no more. He saw her figure
diminish and her blue veil grow gray--saw it with the agonizing sensations of a
slow death.
After thus parting from a man than whom she had known none greater as yet,
Elfride rode rapidly onwards, a tear being occasionally shaken from her eyes
into the road. What yesterday had seemed so desirable, so promising, even
trifling, had now acquired the complexion of a tragedy.
She saw the rocks and sea in the neighbourhood of Endelstow, and heaved a
sigh of relief
When she passed a field behind the vicarage she heard the voices of Unity and
William Worm. They were hanging a carpet upon a line. Unity was uttering a
sentence that concluded with 'when Miss Elfride comes.'
'When d'ye expect her?'
'Not till evening now. She's safe enough at Miss Bicknell's, bless ye.'
Elfride went round to the door. She did not knock or ring; and seeing nobody
to take the horse, Elfride led her round to the yard, slipped off the bridle and
saddle, drove her towards the paddock, and turned her in. Then Elfride crept
indoors, and looked into all the ground-floor rooms. Her father was not there.
On the mantelpiece of the drawing-room stood a letter addressed to her in his
handwriting. She took it and read it as she went upstairs to change her habit.
STRATLEIGH, Thursday.
'DEAR ELFRIDE,--On second thoughts I will not return to-day, but only come as
far as Wadcombe. I shall be at home by to-morrow afternoon, and bring a friend
with me.--Yours, in haste, C. S.'
After making a quick toilet she felt more revived, though still suffering
from a headache. On going out of the door she met Unity at the top of the stair.
'O Miss Elfride! I said to myself 'tis her sperrit! We didn't dream o' you
not coming home last night. You didn't say anything about staying.'
'I intended to come home the same evening, but altered my plan. I wished I
hadn't afterwards. Papa will be angry, I suppose?'
'Better not tell him, miss,' said Unity.
'I do fear to,' she murmured. 'Unity, would you just begin telling him when
he comes home?'
'What! and get you into trouble?'
'I deserve it.'
'No, indeed, I won't,' said Unity. 'It is not such a mighty matter, Miss
Elfride. I says to myself, master's taking a hollerday, and because he's not
been kind lately to Miss Elfride, she----'
'Is imitating him. Well, do as you like. And will you now bring me some
luncheon?'
After satisfying an appetite which the fresh marine air had given her in its
victory over an agitated mind, she put on her hat and went to the garden and
summer-house. She sat down, and leant with her head in a corner. Here she fell
asleep.
Half-awake, she hurriedly looked at the time. She had been there three hours.
At the same moment she heard the outer gate swing together, and wheels sweep
round the entrance; some prior noise from the same source having probably been
the cause of her awaking. Next her father's voice was heard calling to Worm.
Elfride passed along a walk towards the house behind a belt of shrubs. She
heard a tongue holding converse with her father, which was not that of either of
the servants. Her father and the stranger were laughing together. Then there was
a rustling of silk, and Mr. Swancourt and his companion, or companions, to all
seeming entered the door of the house, for nothing more of them was audible.
Elfride had turned back to meditate on what friends these could be, when she
heard footsteps, and her father exclaiming behind her:
'O Elfride, here you are! I hope you got on well?'
Elfride's heart smote her, and she did not speak.
'Come back to the summer-house a minute,' continued Mr. Swancourt; 'I have to
tell you of that I promised to.'
They entered the summer-house, and stood leaning over the knotty woodwork of
the balustrade.
'Now,' said her father radiantly, 'guess what I have to say.' He seemed to be
regarding his own existence so intently, that he took no interest in nor even
saw the complexion of hers.
'I cannot, papa,' she said sadly.
'Try, dear.'
'I would rather not, indeed.'
'You are tired. You look worn. The ride was too much for you. Well, this is
what I went away for. I went to be married!'
'Married!' she faltered, and could hardly check an involuntary 'So did I.' A
moment after and her resolve to confess perished like a bubble.
'Yes; to whom do you think? Mrs. Troyton, the new owner of the estate over
the hedge, and of the old manor-house. It was only finally settled between us
when I went to Stratleigh a few days ago.' He lowered his voice to a sly tone of
merriment. 'Now, as to your stepmother, you'll find she is not much to look at,
though a good deal to listen to. She is twenty years older than myself, for one
thing.'
'You forget that I know her. She called here once, after we had been, and
found her away from home.'
'Of course, of course. Well, whatever her looks are, she's as excellent a
woman as ever breathed. She has had lately left her as absolute property three
thousand five hundred a year, besides the devise of this estate--and, by the
way, a large legacy came to her in satisfaction of dower, as it is called.'
'Three thousand five hundred a year!'
'And a large--well, a fair-sized--mansion in town, and a pedigree as long as
my walking-stick; though that bears evidence of being rather a raked-up
affair--done since the family got rich--people do those things now as they build
ruins on maiden estates and cast antiques at Birmingham.'
Elfride merely listened and said nothing.
He continued more quietly and impressively. 'Yes, Elfride, she is wealthy in
comparison with us, though with few connections. However, she will introduce you
to the world a little. We are going to exchange her house in Baker Street for
one at Kensington, for your sake. Everybody is going there now, she says. At
Easters we shall fly to town for the usual three months--I shall have a curate
of course by that time. Elfride, I am past love, you know, and I honestly
confess that I married her for your sake. Why a woman of her standing should
have thrown herself away upon me, God knows. But I suppose her age and plainness
were too pronounced for a town man. With your good looks, if you now play your
cards well, you may marry anybody. Of course, a little contrivance will be
necessary; but there's nothing to stand between you and a husband with a title,
that I can see. Lady Luxellian was only a squire's daughter. Now, don't you see
how foolish the old fancy was? But come, she is indoors waiting to see you. It
is as good as a play, too,' continued the vicar, as they walked towards the
house. 'I courted her through the privet hedge yonder: not entirely, you know,
but we used to walk there of an evening--nearly every evening at last. But I
needn't tell you details now; everything was terribly matter-of-fact, I assure
you. At last, that day I saw her at Stratleigh, we determined to settle it
off-hand.'
'And you never said a word to me,' replied Elfride, not reproachfully either
in tone or thought. Indeed, her feeling was the very reverse of reproachful. She
felt relieved and even thankful. Where confidence had not been given, how could
confidence be expected?
Her father mistook her dispassionateness for a veil of politeness over a
sense of ill-usage. 'I am not altogether to blame,' he said. 'There were two or
three reasons for secrecy. One was the recent death of her relative the
testator, though that did not apply to you. But remember, Elfride,' he continued
in a stiffer tone, 'you had mixed yourself up so foolishly with those low
people, the Smiths--and it was just, too, when Mrs. Troyton and myself were
beginning to understand each other--that I resolved to say nothing even to you.
How did I know how far you had gone with them and their son? You might have made
a point of taking tea with them every day, for all that I knew.'
Elfride swallowed her feelings as she best could, and languidly though flatly
asked a question.
'Did you kiss Mrs. Troyton on the lawn about three weeks ago? That evening I
came into the study and found you had just had candles in?'
Mr. Swancourt looked rather red and abashed, as middle-aged lovers are apt to
do when caught in the tricks of younger ones.
'Well, yes; I think I did,' he stammered; 'just to please her, you know.' And
then recovering himself he laughed heartily.
'And was this what your Horatian quotation referred to?'
'It was, Elfride.'
They stepped into the drawing-room from the verandah. At that moment Mrs.
Swancourt came downstairs, and entered the same room by the door.
'Here, Charlotte, is my little Elfride,' said Mr. Swancourt, with the
increased affection of tone often adopted towards relations when newly produced.
Poor Elfride, not knowing what to do, did nothing at all; but stood receptive
of all that came to her by sight, hearing, and touch.
Mrs. Swancourt moved forward, took her step-daughter's hand, then kissed her.
'Ah, darling!' she exclaimed good-humouredly, 'you didn't think when you
showed a strange old woman over the conservatory a month or two ago, and
explained the flowers to her so prettily, that she would so soon be here in new
colours. Nor did she, I am sure.'
The new mother had been truthfully enough described by Mr. Swancourt. She was
not physically attractive. She was dark--very dark--in complexion, portly in
figure, and with a plentiful residuum of hair in the proportion of half a dozen
white ones to half a dozen black ones, though the latter were black indeed. No
further observed, she was not a woman to like. But there was more to see. To the
most superficial critic it was apparent that she made no attempt to disguise her
age. She looked sixty at the first glance, and close acquaintanceship never
proved her older.
Another and still more winning trait was one attaching to the corners of her
mouth. Before she made a remark these often twitched gently: not backwards and
forwards, the index of nervousness; not down upon the jaw, the sign of
determination; but palpably upwards, in precisely the curve adopted to represent
mirth in the broad caricatures of schoolboys. Only this element in her face was
expressive of anything within the woman, but it was unmistakable. It expressed
humour subjective as well as objective--which could survey the peculiarities of
self in as whimsical a light as those of other people.
This is not all of Mrs. Swancourt. She had held out to Elfride hands whose
fingers were literally stiff with rings, signis auroque rigentes, like Helen's
robe. These rows of rings were not worn in vanity apparently. They were mostly
antique and dull, though a few were the reverse.
RIGHT HAND.
1st. Plainly set oval onyx, representing a devil's head. 2nd. Green jasper
intaglio, with red veins. 3rd. Entirely gold, bearing figure of a hideous
griffin. 4th. A sea-green monster diamond, with small diamonds round it. 5th.
Antique cornelian intaglio of dancing figure of a satyr. 6th. An angular band
chased with dragons' heads. 7th. A facetted carbuncle accompanied by ten little
twinkling emeralds; &c. &c.
LEFT HAND.
1st. A reddish-yellow toadstone. 2nd. A heavy ring enamelled in colours, and
bearing a jacynth. 3rd. An amethystine sapphire. 4th. A polished ruby,
surrounded by diamonds. 5th. The engraved ring of an abbess. 6th. A gloomy
intaglio; &c. &c.
Beyond this rather quaint array of stone and metal Mrs. Swancourt wore no
ornament whatever.
Elfride had been favourably impressed with Mrs. Troyton at their meeting
about two months earlier; but to be pleased with a woman as a momentary
acquaintance was different from being taken with her as a stepmother. However,
the suspension of feeling was but for a moment. Elfride decided to like her
still.
Mrs. Swancourt was a woman of the world as to knowledge, the reverse as to
action, as her marriage suggested. Elfride and the lady were soon inextricably
involved in conversation, and Mr. Swancourt left them to themselves.
'And what do you find to do with yourself here?' Mrs. Swancourt said, after a
few remarks about the wedding. 'You ride, I know.'
'Yes, I ride. But not much, because papa doesn't like my going alone.'
'You must have somebody to look after you.'
'And I read, and write a little.'
'You should write a novel. The regular resource of people who don't go enough
into the world to live a novel is to write one.'
'I have done it,' said Elfride, looking dubiously at Mrs. Swancourt, as if in
doubt whether she would meet with ridicule there.
'That's right. Now, then, what is it about, dear?'
'About--well, it is a romance of the Middle Ages.'
'Knowing nothing of the present age, which everybody knows about, for safety
you chose an age known neither to you nor other people. That's it, eh? No, no; I
don't mean it, dear.'
'Well, I have had some opportunities of studying mediaeval art and manners in
the library and private museum at Endelstow House, and I thought I should like
to try my hand upon a fiction. I know the time for these tales is past; but I
was interested in it, very much interested.'
'When is it to appear?'
'Oh, never, I suppose.'
'Nonsense, my dear girl. Publish it, by all means. All ladies do that sort of
thing now; not for profit, you know, but as a guarantee of mental respectability
to their future husbands.'
'An excellent idea of us ladies.'
'Though I am afraid it rather resembles the melancholy ruse of throwing
loaves over castle-walls at besiegers, and suggests desperation rather than
plenty inside.'
'Did you ever try it?'
'No; I was too far gone even for that.'
'Papa says no publisher will take my book.'
'That remains to be proved. I'll give my word, my dear, that by this time
next year it shall be printed.'
'Will you, indeed?' said Elfride, partially brightening with pleasure, though
she was sad enough in her depths. 'I thought brains were the indispensable, even
if the only, qualification for admission to the republic of letters. A mere
commonplace creature like me will soon be turned out again.'
'Oh no; once you are there you'll be like a drop of water in a piece of
rock-crystal--your medium will dignify your commonness.'
'It will be a great satisfaction,' Elfride murmured, and thought of Stephen,
and wished she could make a great fortune by writing romances, and marry him and
live happily.
'And then we'll go to London, and then to Paris,' said Mrs. Swancourt. 'I
have been talking to your father about it. But we have first to move into the
manor-house, and we think of staying at Torquay whilst that is going on.
Meanwhile, instead of going on a honeymoon scamper by ourselves, we have come
home to fetch you, and go all together to Bath for two or three weeks.'
Elfride assented pleasantly, even gladly; but she saw that, by this marriage,
her father and herself had ceased for ever to be the close relations they had
been up to a few weeks ago. It was impossible now to tell him the tale of her
wild elopement with Stephen Smith.
He was still snugly housed in her heart. His absence had regained for him
much of that aureola of saintship which had been nearly abstracted during her
reproachful mood on that miserable journey from London. Rapture is often cooled
by contact with its cause, especially if under awkward conditions. And that last
experience with Stephen had done anything but make him shine in her eyes. His
very kindness in letting her return was his offence. Elfride had her sex's love
of sheer force in a man, however ill-directed; and at that critical juncture in
London Stephen's only chance of retaining the ascendancy over her that his face
and not his parts had acquired for him, would have been by doing what, for one
thing, he was too youthful to undertake--that was, dragging her by the wrist to
the rails of some altar, and peremptorily marrying her. Decisive action is seen
by appreciative minds to be frequently objectless, and sometimes fatal; but
decision, however suicidal, has more charm for a woman than the most unequivocal
Fabian success.
However, some of the unpleasant accessories of that occasion were now out of
sight again, and Stephen had resumed not a few of his fancy colours.
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