PRINCESS CINDERELLA
THE porter, drawn by the growing turmoil, had vanished from the postern, and
the door stood open on the darkness of the night. As Seraphina fled up the
terraces, the cries and loud footing of the mob drew nearer the doomed palace;
the rush was like the rush of cavalry; the sound of shattering lamps tingled
above the rest; and, overtowering all, she heard her own name bandied among the
shouters. A bugle sounded at the door of the guard-room; one gun was fired; and
then with the yell of hundreds, Mittwalden Palace was carried at a rush.
Sped by these dire sounds and voices, the Princess scaled the long garden,
skimming like a bird the starlit stairways; crossed the Park, which was in that
place narrow; and plunged upon the farther side into the rude shelter of the
forest. So, at a bound, she left the discretion and the cheerful lamps of Palace
evenings; ceased utterly to be a sovereign lady; and, falling from the whole
height of civilisation, ran forth into the woods, a ragged Cinderella.
She went direct before her through an open tract of the forest, full of brush
and birches, and where the starlight guided her; and, beyond that again, must
thread the columned blackness of a pine grove joining overhead the thatch of its
long branches. At that hour the place was breathless; a horror of night like a
presence occupied that dungeon of the wood; and she went groping, knocking
against the boles -- her ear, betweenwhiles, strained to aching and yet
unrewarded.
But the slope of the ground was upward, and encouraged her; and presently she
issued on a rocky hill that stood forth above the sea of forest. All around were
other hill-tops, big and little; sable vales of forest between; overhead the
open heaven and the brilliancy of countless stars; and along the western sky the
dim forms of mountains. The glory of the great night laid hold upon her; her
eyes shone with stars; she dipped her sight into the coolness and brightness of
the sky, as she might have dipped her wrist into a spring; and her heart, at
that ethereal shock, began to move more soberly. The sun that sails overhead,
ploughing into gold the fields of daylight azure and uttering the signal to
man's myriads, has no word apart for man the individual; and the moon, like a
violin, only praises and laments our private destiny. The stars alone, cheerful
whisperers, confer quietly with each of us like friends; they give ear to our
sorrows smilingly, like wise old men, rich in tolerance; and by their double
scale, so small to the eye, so vast to the imagination, they keep before the
mind the double character of man's nature and fate.
There sat the Princess, beautifully looking upon beauty, in council with
these glad advisers. Bright like pictures, clear like a voice in the porches of
her ear, memory re-enacted the tumult of the evening: the Countess and the
dancing fan, the big Baron on his knees, the blood on the polished floor, the
knocking, the swing of the litter down the avenue of lamps, the messenger, the
cries of the charging mob; and yet all were far away and phantasmal, and she was
still healingly conscious of the peace and glory of the night. She looked
towards Mittwalden; and above the hill-top, which already hid it from her view,
a throbbing redness hinted of fire. Better so: better so, that she should fall
with tragic greatness, lit by a blazing palace! She felt not a trace of pity for
Gondremark or of concern for Grunewald: that period of her life was closed for
ever, a wrench of wounded vanity alone surviving. She had but one clear idea: to
flee;-- and another, obscure and half-rejected, although still obeyed: to flee
in the direction of the Felsenburg. She had a duty to perform, she must free
Otto -- so her mind said, very coldly; but her heart embraced the notion of that
duty even with ardour, and her hands began to yearn for the grasp of kindness.
She rose, with a start of recollection, and plunged down the slope into the
covert. The woods received and closed upon her. Once more, she wandered and
hasted in a blot, uncheered, unpiloted. Here and there, indeed, through rents in
the wood-roof, a glimmer attracted her; here and there a tree stood out among
its neighbours by some force of outline; here and there a brushing among the
leaves, a notable blackness, a dim shine, relieved, only to exaggerate, the
solid oppression of the night and silence. And betweenwhiles, the unfeatured
darkness would redouble and the whole ear of night appear to be gloating on her
steps. Now she would stand still, and the silence, would grow and grow, till it
weighed upon her breathing; and then she would address herself again to run,
stumbling, falling, and still hurrying the more. And presently the whole wood
rocked and began to run along with her. The noise of her own mad passage through
the silence spread and echoed, and filled the night with terror. Panic hunted
her: Panic from the trees reached forth with clutching branches; the darkness
was lit up and peopled with strange forms and faces. She strangled and fled
before her fears. And yet in the last fortress, reason, blown upon by these
gusts of terror, still shone with a troubled light. She knew, yet could not act
upon her knowledge; she knew that she must stop, and yet she still ran.
She was already near madness, when she broke suddenly into a narrow clearing.
At the same time the din grew louder, and she became conscious of vague forms
and fields of whiteness. And with that the earth gave way; she fell and found
her feet again with an incredible shock to her senses, and her mind was
swallowed up.
When she came again to herself, she was standing to the mid-leg in an icy
eddy of a brook, and leaning with one hand on the rock from which it poured. The
spray had wet her hair. She saw the white cascade, the stars wavering in the
shaken pool, foam flitting, and high overhead the tall pines on either hand
serenely drinking starshine; and in the sudden quiet of her spirit she heard
with joy the firm plunge of the cataract in the pool. She scrambled forth
dripping. In the face of her proved weakness, to adventure again upon the horror
of blackness in the groves were a suicide of life or reason. But here, in the
alley of the brook, with the kind stars above her, and the moon presently
swimming into sight, she could await the coming of day without alarm.
This lane of pine-trees ran very rapidly down-hill and wound among the woods;
but it was a wider thoroughfare than the brook needed, and here and there were
little dimpling lawns and coves of the forest, where the starshine slumbered.
Such a lawn she paced, taking patience bravely; and now she looked up the hill
and saw the brook coming down to her in a series of cascades; and now approached
the margin, where it welled among the rushes silently; and now gazed at the
great company of heaven with an enduring wonder. The early evening had fallen
chill, but the night was now temperate; out of the recesses of the wood there
came mild airs as from a deep and peaceful breathing; and the dew was heavy on
the grass and the tight-shut daisies. This was the girl's first night under the
naked heaven; and now that her fears were overpast, she was touched to the soul
by its serene amenity and peace. Kindly the host of heaven blinked down upon
that wandering Princess; and the honest brook had no words but to encourage her.
At last she began to be aware of a wonderful revolution, compared to which
the fire of Mittwalden Palace was but the crack and flash of a percussion-cap.
The countenance with which the pines regarded her began insensibly to change;
the grass too, short as it was, and the whole winding staircase of the brook's
course, began to wear a solemn freshness of appearance. And this slow
transfiguration reached her heart, and played upon it, and transpierced it with
a serious thrill. She looked all about; the whole face of nature looked back,
brimful of meaning, finger on lip, leaking its glad secret. She looked up.
Heaven was almost emptied of stars. Such as still lingered shone with a changed
and waning brightness, and began to faint in their stations. And the colour of
the sky itself was the most wonderful; for the rich blue of the night had now
melted and softened and brightened; and there had succeeded in its place a hue
that has no name, and that is never seen but as the herald of morning. `O!' she
cried, joy catching at her voice, `O! it is the dawn!'
In a breath she passed over the brook, and looped up her skirts and fairly
ran in the dim alleys. As she ran, her ears were aware of many pipings, more
beautiful than music; in the small dish-shaped houses in the fork of giant arms,
where they had lain all night, lover by lover, warmly pressed, the bright-eyed,
big-hearted singers began to awaken for the day. Her heart melted and flowed
forth to them in kindness. And they, from their small and high perches in the
clerestories of the wood cathedral, peered down sidelong at the ragged Princess
as she flitted below them on the carpet of the moss and tassel.
Soon she had struggled to a certain hill-top, and saw far before her the
silent inflooding of the day. Out of the East it welled and whitened; the
darkness trembled into light; and the stars were extinguished like the
street-lamps of a human city. The whiteness brightened into silver, the silver
warmed into gold, the gold kindled into pure and living fire; and the face of
the East was barred with elemental scarlet. The day drew its first long breath,
steady and chill; and for leagues around the woods sighed and shivered. And
then, at one bound, the sun had floated up; and her startled eyes received day's
first arrow, and quailed under the buffet. On every side, the shadows leaped
from their ambush and fell prone. The day was come, plain and garish; and up the
steep and solitary eastern heaven, the sun, victorious over his competitors,
continued slowly and royally to mount.
Seraphina drooped for a little, leaning on a pine, the shrill joy of the
woodlands mocking her. The shelter of the night, the thrilling and joyous
changes of the dawn, were over; and now, in the hot eye of the day, she turned
uneasily and looked sighingly about her. Some way off among the lower woods, a
pillar of smoke was mounting and melting in the gold and blue. There, surely
enough, were human folk, the hearth-surrounders. Man's fingers had laid the
twigs; it was man's breath that had quickened and encouraged the baby flames;
and now, as the fire caught, it would be playing ruddily on the face of its
creator. At the thought, she felt a-cold and little and lost in that great
out-of-doors. The electric shock of the young sun- beams and the unhuman beauty
of the woods began to irk and daunt her. The covert of the house, the decent
privacy of rooms, the swept and regulated fire, all that denotes or beautifies
the home life of man, began to draw her as with cords. The pillar of smoke was
now risen into some stream of moving air; it began to lean out sideways in a
pennon; and thereupon, as though the change had been a summons, Seraphina
plunged once more into the labyrinth of the wood.
She left day upon the high ground. In the lower groves there still lingered
the blue early twilight and the seizing freshness of the dew. But here and
there, above this field of shadow, the head of a great out-spread pine was
already glorious with day; and here and there, through the breaches of the
hills, the sun-beams made a great and luminous entry. Here Seraphina hastened
along forest paths. She had lost sight of the pilot smoke, which blew another
way, and conducted herself in that great wilderness by the direction of the sun.
But presently fresh signs bespoke the neighbourhood of man; felled trunks, white
slivers from the axe, bundles of green boughs, and stacks of firewood. These
guided her forward; until she came forth at last upon the clearing whence the
smoke arose. A hut stood in the clear shadow, hard by a brook which made a
series of inconsiderable falls; and on the threshold the Princess saw a sun-
burnt and hard-featured woodman, standing with his hands behind his back and
gazing skyward.
She went to him directly: a beautiful, bright-eyed, and haggard vision;
splendidly arrayed and pitifully tattered; the diamond ear- drops still
glittering in her ears; and with the movement of her coming, one small breast
showing and hiding among the ragged covert of the laces. At that ambiguous hour,
and coming as she did from the great silence of the forest, the man drew back
from the Princess as from something elfin.
`I am cold,' she said, `and weary. Let me rest beside your fire.'
The woodman was visibly commoved, but answered nothing.
`I will pay,' she said, and then repented of the words, catching perhaps a
spark of terror from his frightened eyes. But, as usual, her courage rekindled
brighter for the check. She put him from the door and entered; and he followed
her in superstitious wonder.
Within, the hut was rough and dark; but on the stone that served as hearth,
twigs and a few dry branches burned with the brisk sounds and all the variable
beauty of fire. The very sight of it composed her; she crouched hard by on the
earth floor and shivered in the glow, and looked upon the eating blaze with
admiration. The woodman was still staring at his guest: at the wreck of the rich
dress, the bare arms, the bedraggled laces and the gems. He found no word to
utter.
`Give me food,' said she, -- `here, by the fire.'
He set down a pitcher of coarse wine, bread, a piece of cheese, and a handful
of raw onions. The bread was hard and sour, the cheese like leather; even the
onion, which ranks with the truffle and the nectarine in the chief place of
honour of earth's fruits, is not perhaps a dish for princesses when raw. But she
ate, if not with appetite, with courage; and when she had eaten, did not disdain
the pitcher. In all her life before, she had not tasted of gross food nor drunk
after another; but a brave woman far more readily accepts a change of
circumstances than the bravest man. All that while, the woodman continued to
observe her furtively, many low thoughts of fear and greed contending in his
eyes. She read them clearly, and she knew she must begone.
Presently she arose and offered him a florin.
`Will that repay you?' she asked.
But here the man found his tongue. `I must have more than that,' said he.
`It is all I have to give you,' she returned, and passed him by serenely.
Yet her heart trembled, for she saw his hand stretched forth as if to arrest
her, and his unsteady eyes wandering to his axe. A beaten path led westward from
the clearing, and she swiftly followed it. She did not glance behind her. But as
soon as the least turning of the path had concealed her from the woodman's eyes,
she slipped among the trees and ran till she deemed herself in safety.
By this time the strong sunshine pierced in a thousand places the pine-thatch
of the forest, fired the red boles, irradiated the cool aisles of shadow, and
burned in jewels on the grass. The gum of these trees was dearer to the senses
than the gums of Araby; each pine, in the lusty morning sunlight, burned its own
wood-incense; and now and then a breeze would rise and toss these rooted
censers, and send shade and sun-gem flitting, swift as swallows, thick as bees;
and wake a brushing bustle of sounds that murmured and went by.
On she passed, and up and down, in sun and shadow; now aloft on the bare
ridge among the rocks and birches, with the lizards and the snakes; and anon in
the deep grove among sunless pillars. Now she followed wandering wood-paths, in
the maze of valleys; and again, from a hill-top, beheld the distant mountains
and the great birds circling under the sky. She would see afar off a nestling
hamlet, and go round to avoid it. Below, she traced the course of the foam of
mountain torrents. Nearer hand, she saw where the tender springs welled up in
silence, or oozed in green moss; or in the more favoured hollows a whole family
of infant rivers would combine, and tinkle in the stones, and lie in pools to be
a bathing-place for sparrows, or fall from the sheer rock in rods of crystal.
Upon all these things, as she still sped along in the bright air, she looked
with a rapture of surprise and a joyful fainting of the heart; they seemed so
novel, they touched so strangely home, they were so hued and scented, they were
so beset and canopied by the dome of the blue air of heaven.
At length, when she was well weary, she came upon a wide and shallow pool.
Stones stood in it, like islands; bulrushes fringed the coast; the floor was
paved with the pine needles; and the pines themselves, whose roots made
promontories, looked down silently on their green images. She crept to the
margin and beheld herself with wonder, a hollow and bright-eyed phantom, in the
ruins of her palace robe. The breeze now shook her image; now it would be marred
with flies; and at that she smiled; and from the fading circles, her counterpart
smiled back to her and looked kind. She sat long in the warm sun, and pitied her
bare arms that were all bruised and marred with falling, and marvelled to see
that she was dirty, and could not grow to believe that she had gone so long in
such a strange disorder.
Then, with a sigh, she addressed herself to make a toilette by that forest
mirror, washed herself pure from all the stains of her adventure, took off her
jewels and wrapped them in her handkerchief, re-arranged the tatters of her
dress, and took down the folds of her hair. She shook it round her face, and the
pool repeated her thus veiled. Her hair had smelt like violets, she remembered
Otto saying; and so now she tried to smell it, and then shook her head, and
laughed a little, sadly, to herself.
The laugh was returned upon her in a childish echo.
She looked up; and lo! two children looking on, -- a small girl and a yet
smaller boy, standing, like playthings, by the pool, below a spreading pine.
Seraphina was not fond of children, and now she was startled to the heart.
`Who are you?' she cried hoarsely.
The mites huddled together and drew back; and Seraphina's heart reproached
her that she should have frightened things so quaint and little, and yet alive
with senses. She thought upon the birds and looked again at her two visitors; so
little larger and so far more innocent. On their clear faces, as in a pool, she
saw the reflection of their fears. With gracious purpose she arose.
`Come,' she said, `do not be afraid of me,' and took a step towards them.
But alas! at the first moment, the two poor babes in the wood turned and ran
helter-skelter from the Princess.
The most desolate pang was struck into the girl's heart. Here she was,
twenty-two -- soon twenty-three -- and not a creature loved her; none but Otto;
and would even he forgive? If she began weeping in these woods alone, it would
mean death or madness. Hastily she trod the thoughts out like a burning paper;
hastily rolled up her locks, and with terror dogging her, and her whole bosom
sick with grief, resumed her journey.
Past ten in the forenoon, she struck a high-road, marching in that place
uphill between two stately groves, a river of sunlight; and here, dead weary,
careless of consequences, and taking some courage from the human and civilised
neighbourhood of the road, she stretched herself on the green margin in the
shadow of a tree. Sleep closed on her, at first with a horror of fainting, but
when she ceased to struggle, kindly embracing her. So she was taken home for a
little, from all her toils and sorrows, to her Father's arms. And there in the
meanwhile her body lay exposed by the highwayside, in tattered finery; and on
either hand from the woods the birds came flying by and calling upon others, and
debated in their own tongue this strange appearance.
The sun pursued his journey; the shadow flitted from her feet, shrank higher
and higher, and was upon the point of leaving her altogether, when the rumble of
a coach was signalled to and fro by the birds. The road in that part was very
steep; the rumble drew near with great deliberation; and ten minutes passed
before a gentleman appeared, walking with a sober elderly gait upon the grassy
margin of the highway, and looking pleasantly around him as he walked. From time
to time he paused, took out his note-book and made an entry with a pencil; and
any spy who had been near enough would have heard him mumbling words as though
he were a poet testing verses. The voice of the wheels was still faint, and it
was plain the traveller had far outstripped his carriage.
He had drawn very near to where the Princess lay asleep, before his eye
alighted on her; but when it did he started, pocketed his note- book, and
approached. There was a milestone close to where she lay; and he sat down on
that and coolly studied her. She lay upon one side, all curled and sunken, her
brow on one bare arm, the other stretched out, limp and dimpled. Her young body,
like a thing thrown down, had scarce a mark of life. Her breathing stirred her
not. The deadliest fatigue was thus confessed in every language of the sleeping
flesh. The traveller smiled grimly. As though he had looked upon a statue, he
made a grudging inventory of her charms: the figure in that touching freedom of
forgetfulness surprised him; the flush of slumber became her like a flower.
`Upon my word,' he thought, `I did not think the girl could be so pretty. And
to think,' he added, `that I am under obligation not to use one word of this!'
He put forth his stick and touched her; and at that she awoke, sat up with a
cry, and looked upon him wildly.
`I trust your Highness has slept well,' he said, nodding.
But she only uttered sounds.
`Compose yourself,' said he, giving her certainly a brave example in his own
demeanour. `My chaise is close at hand; and I shall have, I trust, the singular
entertainment of abducting a sovereign Princess.'
`Sir John!' she said, at last.
`At your Highness's disposal,' he replied.
She sprang to her feet. `O!' she cried, `have you come from Mittwalden?'
`This morning,' he returned, `I left it; and if there is any one less likely
to return to it than yourself, behold him!'
`The Baron -- ` she began, and paused.
`Madam,' he answered, `it was well meant, and you are quite a Judith; but
after the hours that have elapsed, you will probably be relieved to hear that he
is fairly well. I took his news this morning ere I left. Doing fairly well, they
said, but suffering acutely. Hey? -- acutely. They could hear his groans in the
next room.'
`And the Prince,' she asked, `is anything known of him?'
`It is reported,' replied Sir John, with the same pleasurable deliberation,
`that upon that point your Highness is the best authority.'
`Sir John,' she said eagerly, `you were generous enough to speak about your
carriage. Will you, I beseech you, will you take me to the Felsenburg? I have
business there of an extreme importance.'
`I can refuse you nothing,' replied the old gentleman, gravely and seriously
enough. `Whatever, madam, it is in my power to do for you, that shall be done
with pleasure. As soon as my chaise shall overtake us, it is yours to carry you
where you will. But,' added he, reverting to his former manner, `I observe you
ask me nothing of the Palace.'
`I do not care,' she said. `I thought I saw it burning.'
`Prodigious!' said the Baronet. `You thought? And can the loss of forty
toilettes leave you cold? Well, madam, I admire your fortitude. And the state,
too? As I left, the government was sitting, -- the new government, of which at
least two members must be known to you by name: Sabra, who had, I believe, the
benefit of being formed in your employment -- a footman, am I right? -- and our
old friend the Chancellor, in something of a subaltern position. But in these
convulsions the last shall be first, and the first last.'
`Sir John,' she said, with an air of perfect honesty, `I am sure you mean
most kindly, but these matters have no interest for me.'
The Baronet was so utterly discountenanced that he hailed the appearance of
his chaise with welcome, and, by way of saying something, proposed that they
should walk back to meet it. So it was done; and he helped her in with courtesy,
mounted to her side, and from various receptacles (for the chaise was most
completely fitted out) produced fruits and truffled liver, beautiful white
bread, and a bottle of delicate wine. With these he served her like a father,
coaxing and praising her to fresh exertions; and during all that time, as though
silenced by the laws of hospitality, he was not guilty of the shadow of a sneer.
Indeed his kindness seemed so genuine that Seraphina was moved to gratitude.
`Sir John,' she said, `you hate me in your heart; why are you so kind to me?'
`Ah, my good lady,' said he, with no disclaimer of the accusation, `I have
the honour to be much your husband's friend, and somewhat his admirer.'
`You!' she cried. `They told me you wrote cruelly of both of us.'
`Such was the strange path by which we grew acquainted,' said Sir John. `I
had written, madam, with particular cruelty (since that shall be the phrase) of
your fair self. Your husband set me at liberty, gave me a passport, ordered a
carriage, and then, with the most boyish spirit, challenged me to fight. Knowing
the nature of his married life, I thought the dash and loyalty he showed
delightful. "Do not be afraid," says he; "if I am killed, there is nobody to
miss me." It appears you subsequently thought of that yourself. But I digress. I
explained to him it was impossible that I could fight! "Not if I strike you?"
says he. Very droll; I wish I could have put it in my book. However, I was
conquered, took the young gentleman to my high favour, and tore up my bits of
scandal on the spot. That is one of the little favours, madam, that you owe your
husband.'
Seraphina sat for some while in silence. She could bear to be misjudged
without a pang by those whom she contemned; she had none of Otto's eagerness to
be approved, but went her own way straight and head in air. To Sir John,
however, after what he had said, and as her husband's friend, she was prepared
to stoop.
`What do you think of me?' she asked abruptly.
`I have told you already,' said Sir John: `I think you want another glass of
my good wine.'
`Come,' she said, `this is unlike you. You are not wont to be afraid. You say
that you admire my husband: in his name, be honest.'
`I admire your courage,' said the Baronet. `Beyond that, as you have guessed,
and indeed said, our natures are not sympathetic.'
`You spoke of scandal,' pursued Seraphina. `Was the scandal great?'
`It was considerable,' said Sir John.
`And you believed it?' she demanded.
`O, madam,' said Sir John, `the question!'
`Thank you for that answer!' cried Seraphina. `And now here, I will tell you,
upon my honour, upon my soul, in spite of all the scandal in this world, I am as
true a wife as ever stood.'
`We should probably not agree upon a definition,' observed Sir John.
`O!' she cried, `I have abominably used him -- I know that; it is not that I
mean. But if you admire my husband, I insist that you shall understand me: I can
look him in the face without a blush.'
`It may be, madam,' said Sir John; `nor have I presumed to think the
contrary.'
`You will not believe me?' she cried. `You think I am a guilty wife? You
think he was my lover?'
`Madam,' returned the Baronet, `when I tore up my papers, I promised your
good husband to concern myself no more with your affairs; and I assure you for
the last time that I have no desire to judge you.'
`But you will not acquit me! Ah!' she cried, `HE will -- he knows me better!'
Sir John smiled.
`You smile at my distress?' asked Seraphina.
`At your woman's coolness,' said Sir John. `A man would scarce have had the
courage of that cry, which was, for all that, very natural, and I make no doubt
quite true. But remark, madam -- since you do me the honour to consult me
gravely -- I have no pity for what you call your distresses. You have been
completely selfish, and now reap the consequence. Had you once thought of your
husband, instead of singly thinking of yourself, you would not now have been
alone, a fugitive, with blood upon your hands, and hearing from a morose old
Englishman truth more bitter than scandal.'
`I thank you,' she said, quivering. `This is very true. Will you stop the
carriage?'
`No, child,' said Sir John, `not until I see you mistress of yourself.'
There was a long pause, during which the carriage rolled by rock and
woodland.
`And now,' she resumed, with perfect steadiness, `will you consider me
composed? I request you, as a gentleman, to let me out.'
`I think you do unwisely,' he replied. `Continue, if you please, to use my
carriage.'
`Sir John,' she said, `if death were sitting on that pile of stones, I would
alight! I do not blame, I thank you; I now know how I appear to others; but
sooner than draw breath beside a man who can so think of me, I would -- O!' she
cried, and was silent.
Sir John pulled the string, alighted, and offered her his hand; but she
refused the help.
The road had now issued from the valleys in which it had been winding, and
come to that part of its course where it runs, like a cornice, along the brow of
the steep northward face of Grunewald. The place where they had alighted was at
a salient angle; a bold rock and some wind-tortured pine-trees overhung it from
above; far below the blue plains lay forth and melted into heaven; and before
them the road, by a succession of bold zigzags, was seen mounting to where a
tower upon a tall cliff closed the view.
`There,' said the Baronet, pointing to the tower, `you see the Felsenburg,
your goal. I wish you a good journey, and regret I cannot be of more
assistance.'
He mounted to his place and gave a signal, and the carriage rolled away.
Seraphina stood by the wayside, gazing before her with blind eyes. Sir John
she had dismissed already from her mind: she hated him, that was enough; for
whatever Seraphina hated or contemned fell instantly to Lilliputian smallness,
and was thenceforward steadily ignored in thought. And now she had matter for
concern indeed. Her interview with Otto, which she had never yet forgiven him,
began to appear before her in a very different light. He had come to her, still
thrilling under recent insult, and not yet breathed from fighting her own cause;
and how that knowledge changed the value of his words! Yes, he must have loved
her! this was a brave feeling -- it was no mere weakness of the will. And she,
was she incapable of love? It would appear so; and she swallowed her tears, and
yearned to see Otto, to explain all, to ask pity upon her knees for her
transgressions, and, if all else were now beyond the reach of reparation, to
restore at least the liberty of which she had deprived him.
Swiftly she sped along the highway, and, as the road wound out and in about
the bluffs and gullies of the mountain, saw and lost by glimpses the tall tower
that stood before and above her, purpled by the mountain air.
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