HOWEVER, my attention was suddenly snatched from such matters; our child
began to lose ground again, and we had to go to sitting up with her, her case
became so serious. We couldn't bear to allow anybody to help in this service, so
we two stood watch-and-watch, day in and day out. Ah, Sandy, what a right heart
she had, how simple, and genuine, and good she was! She was a flawless wife and
mother; and yet I had married her for no other particular reasons, except that
by the customs of chivalry she was my property until some knight should win her
from me in the field. She had hunted Britain over for me; had found me at the
hanging-bout outside of London, and had straightway resumed her old place at my
side in the placidest way and as of right. I was a New Englander, and in my
opinion this sort of partnership would compromise her, sooner or later. She
couldn't see how, but I cut argument short and we had a wedding.
Now I didn't know I was drawing a prize, yet that was what I did draw. Within
the twelvemonth I became her worshiper; and ours was the dearest and perfectest
comradeship that ever was. People talk about beautiful friendships between two
persons of the same sex. What is the best of that sort, as compared with the
friendship of man and wife, where the best impulses and highest ideals of both
are the same? There is no place for comparison between the two friendships; the
one is earthly, the other divine.
In my dreams, along at first, I still wandered thirteen centuries away, and
my unsatisfied spirit went calling and harking all up and down the unreplying
vacancies of a vanished world. Many a time Sandy heard that imploring cry come
from my lips in my sleep. With a grand magnanimity she saddled that cry of mine
upon our child, conceiving it to be the name of some lost darling of mine. It
touched me to tears, and it also nearly knocked me off my feet, too, when she
smiled up in my face for an earned reward, and played her quaint and pretty
surprise upon me:
"The name of one who was dear to thee is here preserved, here made holy, and
the music of it will abide alway in our ears. Now thou'lt kiss me, as knowing
the name I have given the child."
But I didn't know it, all the same. I hadn't an idea in the world; but it
would have been cruel to confess it and spoil her pretty game; so I never let
on, but said:
"Yes, I know, sweetheart -- how dear and good it is of you, too! But I want
to hear these lips of yours, which are also mine, utter it first -- then its
music will be perfect."
Pleased to the marrow, she murmured:
"HELLO-CENTRAL!"
I didn't laugh -- I am always thankful for that -- but the strain ruptured
every cartilage in me, and for weeks afterward I could hear my bones clack when
I walked. She never found out her mistake. The first time she heard that form of
salute used at the telephone she was surprised, and not pleased; but I told her
I had given order for it: that henceforth and forever the telephone must always
be invoked with that reverent formality, in perpetual honor and remembrance of
my lost friend and her small namesake. This was not true. But it answered.
Well, during two weeks and a half we watched by the crib, and in our deep
solicitude we were unconscious of any world outside of that sick-room. Then our
reward came: the center of the universe turned the corner and began to mend.
Grateful? It isn't the term. There ISN'T any term for it. You know that
yourself, if you've watched your child through the Valley of the Shadow and seen
it come back to life and sweep night out of the earth with one all-illuminating
smile that you could cover with your hand.
Why, we were back in this world in one instant! Then we looked the same
startled thought into each other's eyes at the same moment; more than two weeks
gone, and that ship not back yet!
In another minute I appeared in the presence of my train. They had been
steeped in troubled bodings all this time -- their faces showed it. I called an
escort and we galloped five miles to a hilltop overlooking the sea. Where was my
great commerce that so lately had made these glistening expanses populous and
beautiful with its white-winged flocks? Vanished, every one! Not a sail, from
verge to verge, not a smoke-bank -- just a dead and empty solitude, in place of
all that brisk and breezy life.
I went swiftly back, saying not a word to anybody. I told Sandy this ghastly
news. We could imagine no explanation that would begin to explain. Had there
been an invasion? an earthquake? a pestilence? Had the nation been swept out of
existence? But guessing was profitless. I must go -- at once. I borrowed the
king's navy -- a "ship" no bigger than a steam launch -- and was soon ready.
The parting -- ah, yes, that was hard. As I was devouring the child with last
kisses, it brisked up and jabbered out its vocabulary! -- the first time in more
than two weeks, and it made fools of us for joy. The darling mispronunciations
of childhood! -- dear me, there's no music that can touch it; and how one
grieves when it wastes away and dissolves into correctness, knowing it will
never visit his bereaved ear again. Well, how good it was to be able to carry
that gracious memory away with me!
I approached England the next morning, with the wide highway of salt water
all to myself. There were ships in the harbor, at Dover, but they were naked as
to sails, and there was no sign of life about them. It was Sunday; yet at
Canterbury the streets were empty; strangest of all, there was not even a priest
in sight, and no stroke of a bell fell upon my ear. The mournfulness of death
was everywhere. I couldn't understand it. At last, in the further edge of that
town I saw a small funeral procession -- just a family and a few friends
following a coffin -- no priest; a funeral without bell, book, or candle; there
was a church there close at hand, but they passed it by weeping, and did not
enter it; I glanced up at the belfry, and there hung the bell, shrouded in
black, and its tongue tied back. Now I knew! Now I understood the stupendous
calamity that had overtaken England. Invasion? Invasion is a triviality to it.
It was the INTERDICT!
I asked no questions; I didn't need to ask any. The Church had struck; the
thing for me to do was to get into a disguise, and go warily. One of my servants
gave me a suit of clothes, and when we were safe beyond the town I put them on,
and from that time I traveled alone; I could not risk the embarrassment of
company.
A miserable journey. A desolate silence everywhere. Even in London itself.
Traffic had ceased; men did not talk or laugh, or go in groups, or even in
couples; they moved aimlessly about, each man by himself, with his head down,
and woe and terror at his heart. The Tower showed recent war-scars. Verily, much
had been happening.
Of course, I meant to take the train for Camelot. Train! Why, the station was
as vacant as a cavern. I moved on. The journey to Camelot was a repetition of
what I had already seen. The Monday and the Tuesday differed in no way from the
Sunday. I arrived far in the night. From being the best electric-lighted town in
the kingdom and the most like a recumbent sun of anything you ever saw, it was
become simply a blot -- a blot upon darkness -- that is to say, it was darker
and solider than the rest of the darkness, and so you could see it a little
better; it made me feel as if maybe it was symbolical -- a sort of sign that the
Church was going to KEEP the upper hand now, and snuff out all my beautiful
civilization just like that. I found no life stirring in the somber streets. I
groped my way with a heavy heart. The vast castle loomed black upon the hilltop,
not a spark visible about it. The drawbridge was down, the great gate stood
wide, I entered without challenge, my own heels making the only sound I heard --
and it was sepulchral enough, in those huge vacant courts.
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