Part 1
We left Miss Stanley with Ann Veronica's fancy dress in her hands and her
eyes directed to Ann Veronica's pseudo-Turkish slippers.
When Mr. Stanley came home at a quarter to six--an earlier train by fifteen
minutes than he affected--his sister met him in the hall with a hushed
expression. "I'm so glad you're here, Peter," she said. "She means to go."
"Go!" he said. "Where?"
"To that ball."
"What ball?" The question was rhetorical. He knew.
"I believe she's dressing up-stairs--now."
"Then tell her to undress, confound her!" The City had been thoroughly
annoying that day, and he was angry from the outset.
Miss Stanley reflected on this proposal for a moment.
"I don't think she will," she said.
"She must," said Mr. Stanley, and went into his study. His sister followed.
"She can't go now. She'll have to wait for dinner," he said, uncomfortably.
"She's going to have some sort of meal with the Widgetts down the Avenue, and
go up with them.
"She told you that?"
"Yes."
"When?"
"At tea."
"But why didn't you prohibit once for all the whole thing? How dared she tell
you that?"
"Out of defiance. She just sat and told me that was her arrangement. I've
never seen her quite so sure of herself."
"What did you say?"
"I said, 'My dear Veronica! how can you think of such things?' "
"And then?"
"She had two more cups of tea and some cake, and told me of her walk."
"She'll meet somebody one of these days--walking about like that."
"She didn't say she'd met any one."
"But didn't you say some more about that ball?"
"I said everything I could say as soon as I realized she was trying to avoid
the topic. I said, 'It is no use your telling me about this walk and pretend
I've been told about the ball, because you haven't. Your father has forbidden
you to go!' "
"Well?"
"She said, 'I hate being horrid to you and father, but I feel it my duty to
go to that ball!' "
"Felt it her duty!"
" 'Very well,' I said, 'then I wash my hands of the whole business. Your
disobedience be upon your own head.' "
"But that is flat rebellion!" said Mr. Stanley, standing on the hearthrug
with his back to the unlit gas-fire. "You ought at once--you ought at once to
have told her that. What duty does a girl owe to any one before her father?
Obedience to him, that is surely the first law. What CAN she put before that?"
His voice began to rise. "One would think I had said nothing about the matter.
One would think I had agreed to her going. I suppose this is what she learns in
her infernal London colleges. I suppose this is the sort of damned rubbish--"
"Oh! Ssh, Peter!" cried Miss Stanley.
He stopped abruptly. In the pause a door could be heard opening and closing
on the landing up-stairs. Then light footsteps became audible, descending the
staircase with a certain deliberation and a faint rustle of skirts.
"Tell her," said Mr. Stanley, with an imperious gesture, "to come in here."
Part 2
Miss Stanley emerged from the study and stood watching Ann Veronica descend.
The girl was flushed with excitement, bright-eyed, and braced for a struggle;
her aunt had never seen her looking so fine or so pretty. Her fancy dress, save
for the green-gray stockings, the pseudo-Turkish slippers, and baggy silk
trousered ends natural to a Corsair's bride, was hidden in a large
black-silk-hooded opera-cloak. Beneath the hood it was evident that her
rebellious hair was bound up with red silk, and fastened by some device in her
ears (unless she had them pierced, which was too dreadful a thing to suppose!)
were long brass filigree earrings.
"I'm just off, aunt," said Ann Veronica.
"Your father is in the study and wishes to speak to you."
Ann Veronica hesitated, and then stood in the open doorway and regarded her
father's stern presence. She spoke with an entirely false note of cheerful
off-handedness. "I'm just in time to say good-bye before I go, father. I'm going
up to London with the Widgetts to that ball."
"Now look here, Ann Veronica," said Mr. Stanley, "just a moment. You are NOT
going to that ball!"
Ann Veronica tried a less genial, more dignified note.
"I thought we had discussed that, father."
"You are not going to that ball! You are not going out of this house in that
get-up!"
Ann Veronica tried yet more earnestly to treat him, as she would treat any
man, with an insistence upon her due of masculine respect. "You see," she said,
very gently, "I AM going. I am sorry to seem to disobey you, but I am. I
wish"--she found she had embarked on a bad sentence--"I wish we needn't have
quarrelled."
She stopped abruptly, and turned about toward the front door. In a moment he
was beside her. "I don't think you can have heard me, Vee," he said, with
intensely controlled fury. "I said you were"--he shouted--"NOT TO GO!"
She made, and overdid, an immense effort to be a princess. She tossed her
head, and, having no further words, moved toward the door. Her father
intercepted her, and for a moment she and he struggled with their hands upon the
latch. A common rage flushed their faces. "Let go!" she gasped at him, a blaze
of anger.
"Veronica!" cried Miss Stanley, warningly, and, "Peter!"
For a moment they seemed on the verge of an altogether desperate scuffle.
Never for a moment had violence come between these two since long ago he had, in
spite of her mother's protest in the background, carried her kicking and
squalling to the nursery for some forgotten crime. With something near to horror
they found themselves thus confronted.
The door was fastened by a catch and a latch with an inside key, to which at
night a chain and two bolts were added. Carefully abstaining from thrusting
against each other, Ann Veronica and her father began an absurdly desperate
struggle, the one to open the door, the other to keep it fastened. She seized
the key, and he grasped her hand and squeezed it roughly and painfully between
the handle and the ward as she tried to turn it. His grip twisted her wrist. She
cried out with the pain of it.
A wild passion of shame and self-disgust swept over her. Her spirit awoke in
dismay to an affection in ruins, to the immense undignified disaster that had
come to them.
Abruptly she desisted, recoiled, and turned and fled up-stairs.
She made noises between weeping and laughter as she went. She gained her
room, and slammed her door and locked it as though she feared violence and
pursuit.
"Oh God!" she cried, "Oh God!" and flung aside her opera-cloak, and for a
time walked about the room--a Corsair's bride at a crisis of emotion. "Why can't
he reason with me," she said, again and again, "instead of doing this?"
Part 3
There presently came a phase in which she said: "I WON'T stand it even now. I
will go to-night."
She went as far as her door, then turned to the window. She opened this and
scrambled out--a thing she had not done for five long years of adolescence--upon
the leaded space above the built-out bath-room on the first floor. Once upon a
time she and Roddy had descended thence by the drain-pipe.
But things that a girl of sixteen may do in short skirts are not things to be
done by a young lady of twenty-one in fancy dress and an opera-cloak, and just
as she was coming unaided to an adequate realization of this, she discovered Mr.
Pragmar, the wholesale druggist, who lived three gardens away, and who had been
mowing his lawn to get an appetite for dinner, standing in a fascinated attitude
beside the forgotten lawn-mower and watching her intently.
She found it extremely difficult to infuse an air of quiet correctitude into
her return through the window, and when she was safely inside she waved clinched
fists and executed a noiseless dance of rage.
When she reflected that Mr. Pragmar probably knew Mr. Ramage, and might
describe the affair to him, she cried "Oh!" with renewed vexation, and repeated
some steps of her dance in a new and more ecstatic measure.
Part 4
At eight that evening Miss Stanley tapped at Ann Veronica's bedroom door.
"I've brought you up some dinner, Vee," she said.
Ann Veronica was lying on her bed in a darkling room staring at the ceiling.
She reflected before answering. She was frightfully hungry. She had eaten little
or no tea, and her mid-day meal had been worse than nothing.
She got up and unlocked the door.
Her aunt did not object to capital punishment or war, or the industrial
system or casual wards, or flogging of criminals or the Congo Free State,
because none of these things really got hold of her imagination; but she did
object, she did not like, she could not bear to think of people not having and
enjoying their meals. It was her distinctive test of an emotional state, its
interference with a kindly normal digestion. Any one very badly moved choked
down a few mouthfuls; the symptom of supreme distress was not to be able to
touch a bit. So that the thought of Ann Veronica up-stairs had been extremely
painful for her through all the silent dinner-time that night. As soon as dinner
was over she went into the kitchen and devoted herself to compiling a tray --not
a tray merely of half-cooled dinner things, but a specially prepared "nice"
tray, suitable for tempting any one. With this she now entered.
Ann Veronica found herself in the presence of the most disconcerting fact in
human experience, the kindliness of people you believe to be thoroughly wrong.
She took the tray with both hands, gulped, and gave way to tears.
Her aunt leaped unhappily to the thought of penitence.
"My dear," she began, with an affectionate hand on Ann Veronica's shoulder,
"I do SO wish you would realize how it grieves your father."
Ann Veronica flung away from her hand, and the pepper-pot on the tray upset,
sending a puff of pepper into the air and instantly filling them both with an
intense desire to sneeze.
"I don't think you see," she replied, with tears on her cheeks, and her brows
knitting, "how it shames and, ah!--disgraces me--AH TISHU!"
She put down the tray with a concussion on her toilet-table.
"But, dear, think! He is your father. SHOOH!"
"That's no reason," said Ann Veronica, speaking through her handkerchief and
stopping abruptly.
Niece and aunt regarded each other for a moment over their
pocket-handkerchiefs with watery but antagonistic eyes, each far too profoundly
moved to see the absurdity of the position.
"I hope," said Miss Stanley, with dignity, and turned doorward with features
in civil warfare. "Better state of mind," she gasped. . . .
Ann Veronica stood in the twilight room staring at the door that had slammed
upon her aunt, her pocket-handkerchief rolled tightly in her hand. Her soul was
full of the sense of disaster. She had made her first fight for dignity and
freedom as a grown-up and independent Person, and this was how the universe had
treated her. It had neither succumbed to her nor wrathfully overwhelmed her. It
had thrust her back with an undignified scuffle, with
vulgar comedy, with an unendurable, scornful grin.
"By God!" said Ann Veronica for the first time in her life. "But I will! I
will!"
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