"The art of ignoring is one of the accomplishments of every
well-bred girl, so carefully instilled that at last she can even ignore her own
thoughts and her own knowledge."
ANN VERONICA
CHAPTER THE FIRST ANN VERONICA TALKS TO HER FATHER
Part 1
One Wednesday afternoon in late September, Ann Veronica Stanley came down
from London in a state of solemn excitement and quite resolved to have things
out with her father that very evening. She had trembled on the verge of such a
resolution before, but this time quite definitely she made it. A crisis had been
reached, and she was almost glad it had been reached. She made up her mind in
the train home that it should be a decisive crisis. It is for that reason that
this novel begins with her there, and neither earlier nor later, for it is the
history of this crisis and its consequences that this novel has to tell.
She had a compartment to herself in the train from London to Morningside
Park, and she sat with both her feet on the seat in an attitude that would
certainly have distressed her mother to see, and horrified her grandmother
beyond measure; she sat with her knees up to her chin and her hands clasped
before them, and she was so lost in thought that she discovered with a start,
from a lettered lamp, that she was at Morningside Park, and thought she was
moving out of the station, whereas she was only moving in. "Lord!" she said. She
jumped up at once, caught up a leather clutch containing notebooks, a fat
text-book, and a chocolate-and-yellow-covered pamphlet, and leaped neatly from
the carriage, only to discover that the train was slowing down and that she had
to traverse the full length of the platform past it again as the result of her
precipitation. "Sold again," she remarked. "Idiot!" She raged inwardly while she
walked along with that air of self-contained serenity that is proper to a young
lady of nearly two-and-twenty under the eye of the world.
She walked down the station approach, past the neat, obtrusive offices of the
coal merchant and the house agent, and so to the wicket-gate by the butcher's
shop that led to the field path to her home. Outside the post-office stood a
no-hatted, blond young man in gray flannels, who was elaborately affixing a
stamp to a letter. At the sight of her he became rigid and a singularly bright
shade of pink. She made herself serenely unaware of his existence, though it may
be it was his presence that sent her by the field detour instead of by the
direct path up the Avenue.
"Umph!" he said, and regarded his letter doubtfully before consigning it to
the pillar-box. "Here goes," he said. Then he hovered undecidedly for some
seconds with his hands in his pockets and his mouth puckered to a whistle before
he turned to go home by the Avenue.
Ann Veronica forgot him as soon as she was through the gate, and her face
resumed its expression of stern preoccupation. "It's either now or never," she
said to herself. . . .
Morningside Park was a suburb that had not altogether, as people say, come
off. It consisted, like pre-Roman Gaul, of three parts. There was first the
Avenue, which ran in a consciously elegant curve from the railway station into
an undeveloped wilderness of agriculture, with big, yellow brick villas on
either side, and then there was the pavement, the little clump of shops about
the post-office, and under the railway arch was a congestion of workmen's
dwellings. The road from Surbiton and Epsom ran under the arch, and, like a
bright fungoid growth in the ditch, there was now appearing a sort of fourth
estate of little red-and-white rough-cast villas, with meretricious gables and
very brassy window-blinds. Behind the Avenue was a little hill, and an
iron-fenced path went over the crest of this to a stile under an elm-tree, and
forked there, with one branch going back into the Avenue again.
"It's either now or never," said Ann Veronica, again ascending this stile.
"Much as I hate rows, I've either got to make a stand or give in altogether."
She seated herself in a loose and easy attitude and surveyed the backs of the
Avenue houses; then her eyes wandered to where the new red-and-white villas
peeped among the trees. She seemed to be making some sort of inventory. "Ye
Gods!" she said at last. "WHAT a place!
"Stuffy isn't the word for it.
"I wonder what he takes me for?"
When presently she got down from the stile a certain note of internal
conflict, a touch of doubt, had gone from her warm-tinted face. She had now the
clear and tranquil expression of one whose mind is made up. Her back had
stiffened, and her hazel eyes looked steadfastly ahead.
As she approached the corner of the Avenue the blond, no-hatted man in gray
flannels appeared. There was a certain air of forced fortuity in his manner. He
saluted awkwardly. "Hello, Vee!" he said.
"Hello, Teddy!" she answered.
He hung vaguely for a moment as she passed.
But it was clear she was in no mood for Teddys. He realized that he was
committed to the path across the fields, an uninteresting walk at the best of
times.
"Oh, dammit!" he remarked, "dammit!" with great bitterness as he faced it.
Part 2
Ann Veronica Stanley was twenty-one and a half years old. She had black hair,
fine eyebrows, and a clear complexion; and the forces that had modelled her
features had loved and lingered at their work and made them subtle and fine. She
was slender, and sometimes she seemed tall, and walked and carried herself
lightly and joyfully as one who commonly and habitually feels well, and
sometimes she stooped a little and was preoccupied. Her lips came together with
an expression between contentment and the faintest shadow of a smile, her manner
was one of quiet reserve, and behind this mask she was wildly discontented and
eager for freedom and life.
She wanted to live. She was vehemently impatient--she did not clearly know
for what--to do, to be, to experience. And experience was slow in coming. All
the world about her seemed to be--how can one put it? --in wrappers, like a
house when people leave it in the summer. The blinds were all drawn, the
sunlight kept out, one could not tell what colors these gray swathings hid. She
wanted to know. And there was no intimation whatever that the blinds would ever
go up or the windows or doors be opened, or the chandeliers, that seemed to
promise such a blaze of fire, unveiled and furnished and lit. Dim souls flitted
about her, not only speaking but it would seem even thinking in undertones. . .
.
During her school days, especially her earlier school days, the world had
been very explicit with her, telling her what to do, what not to do, giving her
lessons to learn and games to play and interests of the most suitable and
various kinds. Presently she woke up to the fact that there was a considerable
group of interests called being in love and getting married, with certain
attractive and amusing subsidiary developments, such as flirtation and "being
interested" in people of the opposite sex. She approached this field with her
usual liveliness of apprehension. But here she met with a check. These interests
her world promptly, through the agency of schoolmistresses, older school-mates,
her aunt, and a number of other responsible and authoritative people, assured
her she must on no account think about. Miss Moffatt, the history and moral
instruction mistress, was particularly explicit upon this score, and they all
agreed in indicating contempt and pity for girls whose minds ran on such
matters, and who betrayed it in their conversation or dress or bearing. It was,
in fact, a group of interests quite unlike any other group, peculiar and
special, and one to be thoroughly ashamed of. Nevertheless, Ann Veronica found
it a difficult matter not to think of these things. However having a
considerable amount of pride, she decided she would disavow these undesirable
topics and keep her mind away from them just as far as she could, but it left
her at the end of her school days with that wrapped feeling I have described,
and rather at loose ends.
The world, she discovered, with these matters barred had no particular place
for her at all, nothing for her to do, except a functionless existence varied by
calls, tennis, selected novels, walks, and dusting in her father's house. She
thought study would be better. She was a clever girl, the best of her year in
the High School, and she made a valiant fight for Somerville or Newnham but her
father had met and argued with a Somerville girl at a friend's dinner-table and
he thought that sort of thing unsexed a woman. He said simply that he wanted her
to live at home. There was a certain amount of disputation, and meanwhile she
went on at school. They compromised at length on the science course at the
Tredgold Women's College--she had already matriculated into London University
from school--she came of age, and she bickered with her aunt for latch-key
privileges on the strength of that and her season ticket. Shamefaced curiosities
began to come back into her mind, thinly disguised as literature and art. She
read voraciously, and presently, because of her aunt's censorship, she took to
smuggling any books she thought might be prohibited instead of bringing them
home openly, and she went to the theatre whenever she could produce an
acceptable friend to accompany her. She passed her general science examination
with double honors and specialized in science. She happened to have an acute
sense of form and unusual mental lucidity, and she found in biology, and
particularly in comparative anatomy, a very considerable interest, albeit the
illumination it cast upon her personal life was not altogether direct. She
dissected well, and in a year she found herself chafing at the limitations of
the lady B. Sc. who retailed a store of faded learning in the Tredgold
laboratory. She had already realized that this instructress was hopelessly wrong
and foggy--it is the test of the good comparative anatomist--upon the skull. She
discovered a desire to enter as a student in the Imperial College at
Westminster, where Russell taught, and go on with her work at the fountain-head.
She had asked about that already, and her father had replied, evasively:
"We'll have to see about that, little Vee; we'll have to see about that." In
that posture of being seen about the matter hung until she seemed committed to
another session at the Tredgold College, and in the mean time a small conflict
arose and brought the latch-key question, and in fact the question of Ann
Veronica's position generally, to an acute issue.
In addition to the various business men, solicitors, civil servants, and
widow ladies who lived in the Morningside Park Avenue, there was a certain
family of alien sympathies and artistic quality, the Widgetts, with which Ann
Veronica had become very friendly. Mr. Widgett was a journalist and art critic,
addicted to a greenish-gray tweed suit and "art" brown ties; he smoked corncob
pipes in the Avenue on Sunday morning, travelled third class to London by
unusual trains, and openly despised golf. He occupied one of the smaller houses
near the station. He had one son, who had been co-educated, and three daughters
with peculiarly jolly red hair that Ann Veronica found adorable. Two of these
had been her particular intimates at the High School, and had done much to send
her mind exploring beyond the limits of the available literature at home. It was
a cheerful, irresponsible, shamelessly hard-up family in the key of faded green
and flattened purple, and the girls went on from the High School to the Fadden
Art School and a bright, eventful life of art student dances, Socialist
meetings, theatre galleries, talking about work, and even, at intervals, work;
and ever and again they drew Ann Veronica from her sound persistent industry
into the circle of these experiences. They had asked her to come to the first of
the two great annual Fadden Dances, the October one, and Ann Veronica had
accepted with enthusiasm. And now her father said she must not go.
He had "put his foot down," and said she must not go.
Going involved two things that all Ann Veronica's tact had been ineffectual
to conceal from her aunt and father. Her usual dignified reserve had availed her
nothing. One point was that she was to wear fancy dress in the likeness of a
Corsair's bride, and the other was that she was to spend whatever vestiges of
the night remained after the dance was over in London with the Widgett girls and
a select party in "quite a decent little hotel" near Fitzroy Square.
"But, my dear!" said Ann Veronica's aunt.
"You see," said Ann Veronica, with the air of one who shares a difficulty,
"I've promised to go. I didn't realize-- I don't see how I can get out of it
now."
Then it was her father issued his ultimatum. He had conveyed it to her, not
verbally, but by means of a letter, which seemed to her a singularly ignoble
method of prohibition. "He couldn't look me in the face and say it," said Ann
Veronica.
"But of course it's aunt's doing really."
And thus it was that as Ann Veronica neared the gates of home, she said to
herself: "I'll have it out with him somehow. I'll have it out with him. And if
he won't--"
But she did not give even unspoken words to the alternative at that time.
Part 3
Ann Veronica's father was a solicitor with a good deal of company business: a
lean, trustworthy, worried-looking, neuralgic, clean-shaven man of fifty-three,
with a hard mouth, a sharp nose, iron-gray hair, gray eyes, gold-framed glasses,
and a small, circular baldness at the crown of his head. His name was Peter. He
had had five children at irregular intervals, of whom Ann Veronica was the
youngest, so that as a parent he came to her perhaps a little practised and
jaded and inattentive; and he called her his "little Vee," and patted her
unexpectedly and disconcertingly, and treated her promiscuously as of any age
between eleven and eight-and-twenty. The City worried him a good deal, and what
energy he had left over he spent partly in golf, a game he treated very
seriously, and partly in the practices of microscopic petrography.
He "went in" for microscopy in the unphilosophical Victorian manner as his
"hobby." A birthday present of a microscope had turned his mind to technical
microscopy when he was eighteen, and a chance friendship with a Holborn
microscope dealer had confirmed that bent. He had remarkably skilful fingers and
a love of detailed processes, and he had become one of the most dexterous
amateur makers of rock sections in the world. He spent a good deal more money
and time than he could afford upon the little room at the top of the house, in
producing new lapidary apparatus and new microscopic accessories and in rubbing
down slices of rock to a transparent thinness and mounting them in a beautiful
and dignified manner. He did it, he said, "to distract his mind." His chief
successes he exhibited to the Lowndean Microscopical Society, where their high
technical merit never failed to excite admiration. Their scientific value was
less considerable, since he chose rocks entirely with a view to their difficulty
of handling or their attractiveness at conversaziones when done. He had a great
contempt for the sections the "theorizers" produced. They proved all sorts of
things perhaps, but they were thick, unequal, pitiful pieces of work. Yet an
indiscriminating, wrong-headed world gave such fellows all sorts of
distinctions....
He read but little, and that chiefly healthy light fiction with chromatic
titles, The Red Sword, The Black Helmet, The Purple Robe, also in order "to
distract his mind." He read it in winter in the evening after dinner, and Ann
Veronica associated it with a tendency to monopolize the lamp, and to spread a
very worn pair of dappled fawn-skin slippers across the fender. She wondered
occasionally why his mind needed so much distraction. His favorite newspaper was
the Times, which he began at breakfast in the morning often with manifest
irritation, and carried off to finish in the train, leaving no other paper at
home.
It occurred to Ann Veronica once that she had known him when he was younger,
but day had followed day, and each had largely obliterated the impression of its
predecessor. But she certainly remembered that when she was a little girl he
sometimes wore tennis flannels, and also rode a bicycle very dexterously in
through the gates to the front door. And in those days, too, he used to help her
mother with her gardening, and hover about her while she stood on the ladder and
hammered creepers to the scullery wall.
It had been Ann Veronica's lot as the youngest child to live in a home that
became less animated and various as she grew up. Her mother had died when she
was thirteen, her two much older sisters had married off--one submissively, one
insubordinately; her two brothers had gone out into the world well ahead of her,
and so she had made what she could of her father. But he was not a father one
could make much of.
His ideas about girls and women were of a sentimental and modest quality;
they were creatures, he thought, either too bad for a modern vocabulary, and
then frequently most undesirably desirable, or too pure and good for life. He
made this simple classification of a large and various sex to the exclusion of
all intermediate kinds; he held that the two classes had to be kept apart even
in thought and remote from one another. Women are made like the potter's
vessels--either for worship or contumely, and are withal fragile vessels. He had
never wanted daughters. Each time a daughter had been born to him he had
concealed his chagrin with great tenderness and effusion from his wife, and had
sworn unwontedly and with passionate sincerity in the bathroom. He was a manly
man, free from any strong maternal strain, and he had loved his dark-eyed,
dainty bright-colored, and active little wife with a real vein of passion in his
sentiment. But he had always felt (he had never allowed himself to think of it)
that the promptitude of their family was a little indelicate of her, and in a
sense an intrusion. He had, however, planned brilliant careers for his two sons,
and, with a certain human amount of warping and delay, they were pursuing these.
One was in the Indian Civil Service and one in the rapidly developing motor
business. The daughters, he had hoped, would be their mother's care.
He had no ideas about daughters. They happen to a man.
Of course a little daughter is a delightful thing enough. It runs about
gayly, it romps, it is bright and pretty, it has enormous quantities of soft
hair and more power of expressing affection than its brothers. It is a lovely
little appendage to the mother who smiles over it, and it does things quaintly
like her, gestures with her very gestures. It makes wonderful sentences that you
can repeat in the City and are good enough for Punch. You call it a lot of
nicknames--"Babs" and "Bibs" and "Viddles" and "Vee"; you whack at it playfully,
and it whacks you back. It loves to sit on your knee. All that is jolly and as
it should be.
But a little daughter is one thing and a daughter quite another. There one
comes to a relationship that Mr. Stanley had never thought out. When he found
himself thinking about it, it upset him so that he at once resorted to
distraction. The chromatic fiction with which he relieved his mind glanced but
slightly at this aspect of life, and never with any quality of guidance. Its
heroes never had daughters, they borrowed other people's. The one fault, indeed,
of this school of fiction for him was that it had rather a light way with
parental rights. His instinct was in the direction of considering his daughters
his absolute property, bound to obey him, his to give away or his to keep to be
a comfort in his declining years just as he thought fit. About this conception
of ownership he perceived and desired a certain sentimental glamour, he liked
everything properly dressed, but it remained ownership. Ownership seemed only a
reasonable return for the cares and expenses of a daughter's upbringing.
Daughters were not like sons. He perceived, however, that both the novels he
read and the world he lived in discountenanced these assumptions. Nothing else
was put in their place, and they remained sotto voce, as it were, in his mind.
The new and the old cancelled out; his daughters became quasi-independent
dependents--which is absurd. One married as he wished and one against his
wishes, and now here was Ann Veronica, his little Vee, discontented with her
beautiful, safe, and sheltering home, going about with hatless friends to
Socialist meetings and art-class dances, and displaying a disposition to carry
her scientific ambitions to unwomanly lengths. She seemed to think he was merely
the paymaster, handing over the means of her freedom. And now she insisted that
she MUST leave the chastened security of the Tredgold Women's College for
Russell's unbridled classes, and wanted to go to fancy dress dances in pirate
costume and spend the residue of the night with Widgett's ramshackle girls in
some indescribable hotel in Soho!
He had done his best not to think about her at all, but the situation and his
sister had become altogether too urgent. He had finally put aside The Lilac
Sunbonnet, gone into his study, lit the gas fire, and written the letter that
had brought these unsatisfactory relations to a head.
Part 4
MY DEAR VEE, he wrote.
These daughters! He gnawed his pen and reflected, tore the sheet up, and
began again.
"MY DEAR VERONICA,--Your aunt tells me you have involved yourself in some
arrangement with the Widgett girls about a Fancy Dress Ball in London. I gather
you wish to go up in some fantastic get-up, wrapped about in your opera cloak,
and that after the festivities you propose to stay with these friends of yours,
and without any older people in your party, at an hotel. Now I am sorry to cross
you in anything you have set your heart upon, but I regret to say--"
"H'm," he reflected, and crossed out the last four words.
"--but this cannot be."
"No," he said, and tried again: "but I must tell you quite definitely that I
feel it to be my duty to forbid any such exploit."
"Damn!" he remarked at the defaced letter; and, taking a fresh sheet, he
recopied what he had written. A certain irritation crept into his manner as he
did so.
"I regret that you should ever have proposed it," he went on.
He meditated, and began a new paragraph.
"The fact of it is, and this absurd project of yours only brings it to a
head, you have begun to get hold of some very queer ideas about what a young
lady in your position may or may not venture to do. I do not think you quite
understand my ideals or what is becoming as between father and daughter. Your
attitude to me--"
He fell into a brown study. It was so difficult to put precisely.
"--and your aunt--"
For a time he searched for the mot juste. Then he went on:
"--and, indeed, to most of the established things in life is, frankly,
unsatisfactory. You are restless, aggressive, critical with all the crude
unthinking criticism of youth. You have no grasp upon the essential facts of
life (I pray God you never may), and in your rash ignorance you are prepared to
dash into positions that may end in lifelong regret. The life of a young girl is
set about with prowling pitfalls."
He was arrested for a moment by an indistinct picture of Veronica reading
this last sentence. But he was now too deeply moved to trace a certain
unsatisfactoriness to its source in a mixture of metaphors. "Well," he said,
argumentatively, "it IS. That's all about it. It's time she knew."
"The life of a young girl is set about with prowling pitfalls, from which she
must be shielded at all costs."
His lips tightened, and he frowned with solemn resolution.
"So long as I am your father, so long as your life is entrusted to my care, I
feel bound by every obligation to use my authority to check this odd disposition
of yours toward extravagant enterprises. A day will come when you will thank me.
It is not, my dear Veronica, that I think there is any harm in you; there is
not. But a girl is soiled not only by evil but by the proximity of evil, and a
reputation for rashness may do her as serious an injury as really reprehensible
conduct. So do please believe that in this matter I am acting for the best."
He signed his name and reflected. Then he opened the study door and called
"Mollie!" and returned to assume an attitude of authority on the hearthrug,
before the blue flames and orange glow of the gas fire.
His sister appeared.
She was dressed in one of those complicated dresses that are all lace and
work and confused patternings of black and purple and cream about the body, and
she was in many ways a younger feminine version of the same theme as himself.
She had the same sharp nose--which, indeed, only Ann Veronica, of all the
family, had escaped. She carried herself well, whereas her brother slouched, and
there was a certain aristocratic dignity about her that she had acquired through
her long engagement to a curate of family, a scion of the Wiltshire Edmondshaws.
He had died before they married, and when her brother became a widower she had
come to his assistance and taken over much of the care of his youngest daughter.
But from the first her rather old-fashioned conception of life had jarred with
the suburban atmosphere, the High School spirit and the memories of the light
and little Mrs. Stanley, whose family had been by any reckoning
inconsiderable--to use the kindliest term. Miss Stanley had determined from the
outset to have the warmest affection for her youngest niece and to be a second
mother in her life--a second and a better one; but she had found much to battle
with, and there was much in herself that Ann Veronica failed to understand. She
came in now with an air of reserved solicitude.
Mr. Stanley pointed to the letter with a pipe he had drawn from his jacket
pocket. "What do you think of that?" he asked.
She took it up in her many-ringed hands and read it judicially. He filled his
pipe slowly.
"Yes," she said at last, "it is firm and affectionate."
"I could have said more."
"You seem to have said just what had to be said. It seems to me exactly what
is wanted. She really must not go to that affair."
She paused, and he waited for her to speak.
"I don't think she quite sees the harm of those people or the sort of life to
which they would draw her," she said. "They would spoil every chance."
"She has chances?" he said, helping her out.
"She is an extremely attractive girl," she said; and added, "to some people.
Of course, one doesn't like to talk about things until there are things to talk
about."
"All the more reason why she shouldn't get herself talked about."
"That is exactly what I feel."
Mr. Stanley took the letter and stood with it in his hand thoughtfully for a
time. "I'd give anything," he remarked, "to see our little Vee happily and
comfortably married."
He gave the note to the parlormaid the next morning in an inadvertent, casual
manner just as he was leaving the house to catch his London train. When Ann
Veronica got it she had at first a wild, fantastic idea that it contained a tip.
Part 5
Ann Veronica's resolve to have things out with her father was not
accomplished without difficulty.
He was not due from the City until about six, and so she went and played
Badminton with the Widgett girls until dinner-time. The atmosphere at dinner was
not propitious. Her aunt was blandly amiable above a certain tremulous undertow,
and talked as if to a caller about the alarming spread of marigolds that summer
at the end of the garden, a sort of Yellow Peril to all the smaller hardy
annuals, while her father brought some papers to table and presented himself as
preoccupied with them. "It really seems as if we shall have to put down
marigolds altogether next year," Aunt Molly repeated three times, "and do away
with marguerites. They seed beyond all reason." Elizabeth, the parlormaid, kept
coming in to hand vegetables whenever there seemed a chance of Ann Veronica
asking for an interview. Directly dinner was over Mr. Stanley, having pretended
to linger to smoke, fled suddenly up-stairs to petrography, and when Veronica
tapped he answered through the locked door, "Go away, Vee! I'm busy," and made a
lapidary's wheel buzz loudly.
Breakfast, too, was an impossible occasion. He read the Times with an
unusually passionate intentness, and then declared suddenly for the earlier of
the two trains he used.
"I'll come to the station," said Ann Veronica. "I may as well come up by this
train."
"I may have to run," said her father, with an appeal to his watch.
"I'll run, too," she volunteered.
Instead of which they walked sharply. . . .
"I say, daddy," she began, and was suddenly short of breath.
"If it's about that dance project," he said, "it's no good, Veronica. I've
made up my mind."
"You'll make me look a fool before all my friends."
"You shouldn't have made an engagement until you'd consulted your aunt."
"I thought I was old enough," she gasped, between laughter and crying.
Her father's step quickened to a trot. "I won't have you quarrelling and
crying in the Avenue," he said. "Stop it! . . . If you've got anything to say,
you must say it to your aunt--"
"But look here, daddy!"
He flapped the Times at her with an imperious gesture.
"It's settled. You're not to go. You're NOT to go."
"But it's about other things."
"I don't care. This isn't the place."
"Then may I come to the study to-night--after dinner?"
"I'm--BUSY!"
"It's important. If I can't talk anywhere else--I DO want an understanding."
Ahead of them walked a gentleman whom it was evident they must at their
present pace very speedily overtake. It was Ramage, the occupant of the big
house at the end of the Avenue. He had recently made Mr. Stanley's acquaintance
in the train and shown him one or two trifling civilities. He was an outside
broker and the proprietor of a financial newspaper; he had come up very rapidly
in the last few years, and Mr. Stanley admired and detested him in almost equal
measure. It was intolerable to think that he might overhear words and phrases.
Mr. Stanley's pace slackened.
"You've no right to badger me like this, Veronica," he said. "I can't see
what possible benefit can come of discussing things that are settled. If you
want advice, your aunt is the person. However, if you must air your opinions--"
"To-night, then, daddy!"
He made an angry but conceivably an assenting noise, and then Ramage glanced
back and stopped, saluted elaborately, and waited for them to come up. He was a
square-faced man of nearly fifty, with iron-gray hair a mobile, clean-shaven
mouth and rather protuberant black eyes that now scrutinized Ann Veronica. He
dressed rather after the fashion of the West End than the City, and affected a
cultured urbanity that somehow disconcerted and always annoyed Ann Veronica's
father extremely. He did not play golf, but took his exercise on horseback,
which was also unsympathetic.
"Stuffy these trees make the Avenue," said Mr. Stanley as they drew
alongside, to account for his own ruffled and heated expression. "They ought to
have been lopped in the spring."
"There's plenty of time," said Ramage. "Is Miss Stanley coming up with us?"
"I go second," she said, "and change at Wimbledon."
"We'll all go second," said Ramage, "if we may?"
Mr. Stanley wanted to object strongly, but as he could not immediately think
how to put it, he contented himself with a grunt, and the motion was carried.
"How's Mrs. Ramage?" he asked.
"Very much as usual," said Ramage. "She finds lying up so much very irksome.
But, you see, she HAS to lie up."
The topic of his invalid wife bored him, and he turned at once to Ann
Veronica. "And where are YOU going?" he said. "Are you going on again this
winter with that scientific work of yours? It's an instance of heredity, I
suppose." For a moment Mr. Stanley almost liked Ramage. "You're a biologist,
aren't you?"
He began to talk of his own impressions of biology as a commonplace magazine
reader who had to get what he could from the monthly reviews, and was glad to
meet with any information from nearer the fountainhead. In a little while he and
she were talking quite easily and agreeably. They went on talking in the
train--it seemed to her father a slight want of deference to him--and he
listened and pretended to read the Times. He was struck disagreeably by Ramage's
air of gallant consideration and Ann Veronica's self-possessed answers. These
things did not harmonize with his conception of the forthcoming (if unavoidable)
interview. After all, it came to him suddenly as a harsh discovery that she
might be in a sense regarded as grownup. He was a man who in all things
classified without nuance, and for him there were in the matter of age just two
feminine classes and no more--girls and women. The distinction lay chiefly in
the right to pat their heads. But here was a girl--she must be a girl, since she
was his daughter and pat-able--imitating the woman quite remarkably and
cleverly. He resumed his listening. She was discussing one of those modern
advanced plays with a remarkable, with an extraordinary, confidence.
"His love-making," she remarked, "struck me as unconvincing. He seemed too
noisy."
The full significance of her words did not instantly appear to him. Then it
dawned. Good heavens! She was discussing love-making. For a time he heard no
more, and stared with stony eyes at a Book-War proclamation in leaded type that
filled half a column of the Times that day. Could she understand what she was
talking about? Luckily it was a second-class carriage and the ordinary
fellow-travellers were not there. Everybody, he felt, must be listening behind
their papers.
Of course, girls repeat phrases and opinions of which they cannot possibly
understand the meaning. But a middle-aged man like Ramage ought to know better
than to draw out a girl, the daughter of a friend and neighbor. . . .
Well, after all, he seemed to be turning the subject. "Broddick is a heavy
man," he was saying, "and the main interest of the play was the embezzlement."
Thank Heaven! Mr. Stanley allowed his paper to drop a little, and scrutinized
the hats and brows of their three fellow-travellers .
They reached Wimbledon, and Ramage whipped out to hand Miss Stanley to the
platform as though she had been a duchess, and she descended as though such
attentions from middle-aged, but still gallant, merchants were a matter of
course. Then, as Ramage readjusted himself in a corner, he remarked: "These
young people shoot up, Stanley. It seems only yesterday that she was running
down the Avenue, all hair and legs."
Mr. Stanley regarded him through his glasses with something approaching
animosity.
"Now she's all hat and ideas," he said, with an air of humor.
"She seems an unusually clever girl," said Ramage.
Mr. Stanley regarded his neighbor's clean-shaven face almost warily. "I'm not
sure whether we don't rather overdo all this higher education," he said, with an
effect of conveying profound meanings.
Part 6
He became quite sure, by a sort of accumulation of reflection, as the day
wore on. He found his youngest daughter intrusive in his thoughts all through
the morning, and still more so in the afternoon. He saw her young and graceful
back as she descended from the carriage, severely ignoring him, and recalled a
glimpse he had of her face, bright and serene, as his train ran out of
Wimbledon. He recalled with exasperating perplexity her clear, matter-of-fact
tone as she talked about love-making being unconvincing. He was really very
proud of her, and extraordinarily angry and resentful at the innocent and
audacious self-reliance that seemed to intimate her sense of absolute
independence of him, her absolute security without him. After all, she only
LOOKED a woman. She was rash and ignorant, absolutely inexperienced. Absolutely.
He began to think of speeches, very firm, explicit speeches, he would make.
He lunched in the Legal Club in Chancery Lane, and met Ogilvy. Daughters were
in the air that day. Ogilvy was full of a client's trouble in that matter, a
grave and even tragic trouble. He told some of the particulars.
"Curious case," said Ogilvy, buttering his bread and cutting it up in a way
he had. "Curious case--and sets one thinking."
He resumed, after a mouthful: "Here is a girl of sixteen or seventeen,
seventeen and a half to be exact, running about, as one might say, in London.
Schoolgirl. Her family are solid West End people, Kensington people.
Father--dead. She goes out and comes home. Afterward goes on to Oxford.
Twenty-one, twenty-two. Why doesn't she marry? Plenty of money under her
father's will. Charming girl."
He consumed Irish stew for some moments.
"Married already," he said, with his mouth full. "Shopman."
"Good God!" said Mr. Stanley.
"Good-looking rascal she met at Worthing. Very romantic and all that. He
fixed it."
"But--"
"He left her alone. Pure romantic nonsense on her part. Sheer calculation on
his. Went up to Somerset House to examine the will before he did it. Yes. Nice
position."
"She doesn't care for him now?"
"Not a bit. What a girl of sixteen cares for is hair and a high color and
moonlight and a tenor voice. I suppose most of our daughters would marry
organ-grinders if they had a chance--at that age. My son wanted to marry a woman
of thirty in a tobacconist's shop. Only a son's another story. We fixed that.
Well, that's the situation. My people don't know what to do. Can't face a
scandal. Can't ask the gent to go abroad and condone a bigamy. He misstated her
age and address; but you can't get home on him for a thing like that. . . .
There you are! Girl spoilt for life. Makes one want to go back to the Oriental
system!"
Mr. Stanley poured wine. "Damned Rascal!" he said. "Isn't there a brother to
kick him?"
"Mere satisfaction," reflected Ogilvy. "Mere sensuality. I rather think they
have kicked him, from the tone of some of the letters. Nice, of course. But it
doesn't alter the situation."
"It's these Rascals," said Mr. Stanley, and paused.
"Always has been," said Ogilvy. "Our interest lies in heading them off."
"There was a time when girls didn't get these extravagant ideas."
"Lydia Languish, for example. Anyhow, they didn't run about so much."
"Yes. That's about the beginning. It's these damned novels. All this torrent
of misleading, spurious stuff that pours from the press. These sham ideals and
advanced notions. Women who Dids, and all that kind of thing. . . ."
Ogilvy reflected. "This girl--she's really a very charming, frank person--had
had her imagination fired, so she told me, by a school performance of Romeo and
Juliet."
Mr. Stanley decided to treat that as irrelevant. "There ought to be a
Censorship of Books. We want it badly at the present time. Even WITH the
Censorship of Plays there's hardly a decent thing to which a man can take his
wife and daughters, a creeping taint of suggestion everywhere. What would it be
without that safeguard?"
Ogilvy pursued his own topic. "I'm inclined to think, Stanley, myself that as
a matter of fact it was the expurgated Romeo and Juliet did the mischief. If our
young person hadn't had the nurse part cut out, eh? She might have known more
and done less. I was curious about that. All they left it was the moon and
stars. And the balcony and 'My Romeo!' "
"Shakespeare is altogether different from the modern stuff. Altogether
different. I'm not discussing Shakespeare. I don't want to Bowdlerize
Shakespeare. I'm not that sort I quite agree.
But this modern miasma--"
Mr. Stanley took mustard savagely.
"Well, we won't go into Shakespeare," said Ogilvy "What interests me is that
our young women nowadays are running about as free as air practically, with
registry offices and all sorts of accommodation round the corner. Nothing to
check their proceedings but a declining habit of telling the truth and the
limitations of their imaginations. And in that respect they stir up one another.
Not my affair, of course, but I think we ought to teach them more or restrain
them more. One or the other. They're too free for their innocence or too
innocent for their freedom. That's my point. Are you going to have any
apple-tart, Stanley? The apple-tart's been very good lately--very good!"
Part 7
At the end of dinner that evening Ann Veronica began: "Father!"
Her father looked at her over his glasses and spoke with grave deliberation;
"If there is anything you want to say to me," he said, "you must say it in the
study. I am going to smoke a little here, and then I shall go to the study. I
don't see what you can have to say. I should have thought my note cleared up
everything. There are some papers I have to look through to-night--important
papers."
"I won't keep you very long, daddy," said Ann Veronica.
"I don't see, Mollie," he remarked, taking a cigar from the box on the table
as his sister and daughter rose, "why you and Vee shouldn't discuss this little
affair--whatever it is--without bothering me."
It was the first time this controversy had become triangular, for all three
of them were shy by habit.
He stopped in mid-sentence, and Ann Veronica opened the door for her aunt.
The air was thick with feelings. Her aunt went out of the room with dignity and
a rustle, and up-stairs to the fastness of her own room. She agreed entirely
with her brother. It distressed and confused her that the girl should not come
to her.
It seemed to show a want of affection, to be a deliberate and unmerited
disregard, to justify the reprisal of being hurt.
When Ann Veronica came into the study she found every evidence of a carefully
foreseen grouping about the gas fire. Both arm-chairs had been moved a little so
as to face each other on either side of the fender, and in the circular glow of
the green-shaded lamp there lay, conspicuously waiting, a thick bundle of blue
and white papers tied with pink tape. Her father held some printed document in
his hand, and appeared not to observe her entry. "Sit down," he said, and
perused--"perused" is the word for it--for some moments. Then he put the paper
by. "And what is it all about, Veronica?" he asked, with a deliberate note of
irony, looking at her a little quizzically over his glasses.
Ann Veronica looked bright and a little elated, and she disregarded her
father's invitation to be seated. She stood on the mat instead, and looked down
on him. "Look here, daddy," she said, in a tone of great reasonableness, "I MUST
go to that dance, you know."
Her father's irony deepened. "Why?" he asked, suavely.
Her answer was not quite ready. "Well, because I don't see any reason why I
shouldn't."
"You see I do."
"Why shouldn't I go?"
"It isn't a suitable place; it isn't a suitable gathering."
"But, daddy, what do you know of the place and the gathering?"
"And it's entirely out of order; it isn't right, it isn't correct; it's
impossible for you to stay in an hotel in London--the idea is preposterous. I
can't imagine what possessed you, Veronica."
He put his head on one side, pulled down the corners of his mouth, and looked
at her over his glasses.
"But why is it preposterous?" asked Ann Veronica, and fiddled with a pipe on
the mantel.
"Surely!" he remarked, with an expression of worried appeal.
"You see, daddy, I don't think it IS preposterous. That's really what I want
to discuss. It comes to this--am I to be trusted to take care of myself, or am I
not?"
"To judge from this proposal of yours, I should say not."
"I think I am."
"As long as you remain under my roof--" he began, and paused.
"You are going to treat me as though I wasn't. Well, I don't think that's
fair."
"Your ideas of fairness--" he remarked, and discontinued that sentence. "My
dear girl," he said, in a tone of patient reasonableness, "you are a mere child.
You know nothing of life, nothing of its dangers, nothing of its possibilities.
You think everything is harmless and simple, and so forth. It isn't. It isn't.
That's where you go wrong. In some things, in many things, you must trust to
your elders, to those who know more of life than you do. Your aunt and I have
discussed all this matter. There it is. You can't go."
The conversation hung for a moment. Ann Veronica tried to keep hold of a
complicated situation and not lose her head. She had turned round sideways, so
as to look down into the fire.
"You see, father," she said, "it isn't only this affair of the dance. I want
to go to that because it's a new experience, because I think it will be
interesting and give me a view of things. You say I know nothing. That's
probably true. But how am I to know of things?"
"Some things I hope you may never know," he said.
"I'm not so sure. I want to know--just as much as I can."
"Tut!" he said, fuming, and put out his hand to the papers in the pink tape.
"Well, I do. It's just that I want to say. I want to be a human being; I want
to learn about things and know about things, and not to be protected as
something too precious for life, cooped up in one narrow little corner."
"Cooped up!" he cried. "Did I stand in the way of your going to college? Have
I ever prevented you going about at any reasonable hour? You've got a bicycle!"
"H'm!" said Ann Veronica, and then went on "I want to be taken seriously. A
girl--at my age--is grown-up. I want to go on with my University work under
proper conditions, now that I've done the Intermediate. It isn't as though I
haven't done well. I've never muffed an exam. yet. Roddy muffed two. . . ."
Her father interrupted. "Now look here, Veronica, let us be plain with each
other. You are not going to that infidel Russell's classes. You are not going
anywhere but to the Tredgold College. I've thought that out, and you must make
up your mind to it. All sorts of considerations come in. While you live in my
house you must follow my ideas. You are wrong even about that man's scientific
position and his standard of work. There are men in the Lowndean who laugh at
him--simply laugh at him. And I have seen work by his pupils myself that struck
me as being--well, next door to shameful. There's stories, too, about his
demonstrator, Capes Something or other. The kind of man who isn't content with
his science, and writes articles in the monthly reviews. Anyhow, there it is:
YOU ARE NOT GOING THERE."
The girl received this intimation in silence. but the face that looked down
upon the gas fire took an expression of obstinacy that brought out a hitherto
latent resemblance between parent and child. When she spoke, her lips twitched.
"Then I suppose when I have graduated I am to come home?"
"It seems the natural course "
"And do nothing?"
"There are plenty of things a girl can find to do at home."
"Until some one takes pity on me and marries me?"
He raised his eyebrows in mild appeal. His foot tapped impatiently, and he
took up the papers.
"Look here, father," she said, with a change in her voice, "suppose I won't
stand it?"
He regarded her as though this was a new idea.
"Suppose, for example, I go to this dance?"
"You won't."
"Well"--her breath failed her for a moment. "How would you prevent it?" she
asked.
"But I have forbidden it!" he said, raising his voice.
"Yes, I know. But suppose I go?"
"Now, Veronica! No, no. This won't do. Understand me! I forbid it. I do not
want to hear from you even the threat of disobedience." He spoke loudly. "The
thing is forbidden!"
"I am ready to give up anything that you show to be wrong."
"You will give up anything I wish you to give up."
They stared at each other through a pause, and both faces were flushed and
obstinate.
She was trying by some wonderful, secret, and motionless gymnastics to
restrain her tears. But when she spoke her lips quivered, and they came. "I mean
to go to that dance!" she blubbered. "I mean to go to that dance! I meant to
reason with you, but you won't reason. You're dogmatic."
At the sight of her tears his expression changed to a mingling of triumph and
concern. He stood up, apparently intending to put an arm about her, but she
stepped back from him quickly. She produced a handkerchief, and with one sweep
of this and a simultaneous gulp had abolished her fit of weeping. His voice now
had lost its ironies.
"Now, Veronica," he pleaded, "Veronica, this is most unreasonable. All we do
is for your good. Neither your aunt nor I have any other thought but what is
best for you."
"Only you won't let me live. Only you won't let me exist!"
Mr. Stanley lost patience. He bullied frankly.
"What nonsense is this? What raving! My dear child, you DO live, you DO
exist! You have this home. You have friends, acquaintances, social standing,
brothers and sisters, every advantage! Instead of which, you want to go to some
mixed classes or other and cut up rabbits and dance about at nights in wild
costumes with casual art student friends and God knows who. That--that isn't
living! You are beside yourself. You don't know what you ask nor what you say.
You have neither reason nor logic. I am sorry to seem to hurt you, but all I say
is for your good. You MUST not, you SHALL not go. On this I am resolved. I put
my foot down like--like adamant. And a time will come, Veronica, mark my words,
a time will come when you will bless me for my firmness to-night. It goes to my
heart to disappoint you, but this thing must not be."
He sidled toward her, but she recoiled from him, leaving him in possession of
the hearth-rug.
"Well," she said, "good-night, father."
"What!" he asked; "not a kiss?"
She affected not to hear.
The door closed softly upon her. For a long time he remained standing before
the fire, staring at the situation. Then he sat down and filled his pipe slowly
and thoughtfully. . . .
"I don't see what else I could have said," he remarked.
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