WHILE she adjusted the broad leaves that set off the pale
fragrant butter as the primrose is set off by its nest of green I am afraid
Hetty was thinking a great deal more of the looks Captain Donnithorne had cast
at her than of Adam and his troubles. Bright, admiring glances from a handsome
young gentleman with white hands, a gold chain, occasional regimentals, and
wealth and grandeur immeasurable--those were the warm rays that set poor Hetty's
heart vibrating and playing its little foolish tunes over and over again. We do
not hear that Memnon's statue gave forth its melody at all under the rushing of
the mightiest wind, or in response to any other influence divine or human than
certain short-lived sunbeams of morning; and we must learn to accommodate
ourselves to the discovery that some of those cunningly fashioned instruments
called human souls have only a very limited range of music, and will not vibrate
in the least under a touch that fills others with tremulous rapture or quivering
agony.
Hetty was quite used to the thought that people liked to look at her. She was
not blind to the fact that young Luke Britton of Broxton came to Hayslope Church
on a Sunday afternoon on purpose that he might see her; and that he would have
made much more decided advances if her uncle Poyser, thinking but lightly of a
young man whose father's land was so foul as old Luke Britton's, had not
forbidden her aunt to encourage him by any civilities. She was aware, too, that
Mr. Craig, the gardener at the Chase, was over head and ears in love with her,
and had lately made unmistakable avowals in luscious strawberries and
hyperbolical peas. She knew still better, that Adam Bede--tall, upright, clever,
brave Adam Bede--who carried such authority with all the people round about, and
whom her uncle was always delighted to see of an evening, saying that "Adam knew
a fine sight more o' the natur o' things than those as thought themselves his
betters"--she knew that this Adam, who was often rather stern to other people
and not much given to run after the lasses, could be made to turn pale or red
any day by a word or a look from her. Hetty's sphere of comparison was not
large, but she couldn't help perceiving that Adam was "something like" a man;
always knew what to say about things, could tell her uncle how to prop the
hovel, and had mended the churn in no time; knew, with only looking at it, the
value of the chestnut-tree that was blown down, and why the damp came in the
walls, and what they must do to stop the rats; and wrote a beautiful hand that
you could read off, and could do figures in his head--a degree of accomplishment
totally unknown among the richest farmers of that countryside. Not at all like
that slouching Luke Britton, who, when she once walked with him all the way from
Broxton to Hayslope, had only broken silence to remark that the grey goose had
begun to lay. And as for Mr. Craig, the gardener, he was a sensible man enough,
to be sure, but he was knock-kneed, and had a queer sort of sing-song in his
talk; moreover, on the most charitable supposition, he must be far on the way to
forty.
Hetty was quite certain her uncle wanted her to encourage Adam, and would be
pleased for her to marry him. For those were times when there was no rigid
demarcation of rank between the farmer and the respectable artisan, and on the
home hearth, as well as in the public house, they might be seen taking their jug
of ale together; the farmer having a latent sense of capital, and of weight in
parish affairs, which sustained him under his conspicuous inferiority in
conversation. Martin Poyser was not a frequenter of public houses, but he liked
a friendly chat over his own home- brewed; and though it was pleasant to lay
down the law to a stupid neighbour who had no notion how to make the best of his
farm, it was also an agreeable variety to learn something from a clever fellow
like Adam Bede. Accordingly, for the last three years-- ever since he had
superintended the building of the new barn--Adam had always been made welcome at
the Hall Farm, especially of a winter evening, when the whole family, in
patriarchal fashion, master and mistress, children and servants, were assembled
in that glorious kitchen, at well-graduated distances from the blazing fire. And
for the last two years, at least, Hetty had been in the habit of hearing her
uncle say, "Adam Bede may be working for wage now, but he'll be a master-man
some day, as sure as I sit in this chair. Mester Burge is in the right on't to
want him to go partners and marry his daughter, if it's true what they say; the
woman as marries him 'ull have a good take, be't Lady day or Michaelmas," a
remark which Mrs. Poyser always followed up with her cordial assent. "Ah," she
would say, "it's all very fine having a ready-made rich man, but mayhappen he'll
be a ready-made fool; and it's no use filling your pocket full o' money if
you've got a hole in the corner. It'll do you no good to sit in a spring-cart o'
your own, if you've got a soft to drive you: he'll soon turn you over into the
ditch. I allays said I'd never marry a man as had got no brains; for where's the
use of a woman having brains of her own if she's tackled to a geck as
everybody's a- laughing at? She might as well dress herself fine to sit
back'ards on a donkey."
These expressions, though figurative, sufficiently indicated the bent of Mrs.
Poyser's mind with regard to Adam; and though she and her husband might have
viewed the subject differently if Hetty had been a daughter of their own, it was
clear that they would have welcomed the match with Adam for a penniless niece.
For what could Hetty have been but a servant elsewhere, if her uncle had not
taken her in and brought her up as a domestic help to her aunt, whose health
since the birth of Totty had not been equal to more positive labour than the
superintendence of servants and children? But Hetty had never given Adam any
steady encouragement. Even in the moments when she was most thoroughly conscious
of his superiority to her other admirers, she had never brought herself to think
of accepting him. She liked to feel that this strong, skilful, keen-eyed man was
in her power, and would have been indignant if he had shown the least sign of
slipping from under the yoke of her coquettish tyranny and attaching himself to
the gentle Mary Burge, who would have been grateful enough for the most trifling
notice from him. "Mary Burge, indeed! Such a sallow-faced girl: if she put on a
bit of pink ribbon, she looked as yellow as a crow-flower and her hair was as
straight as a hank of cotton." And always when Adam stayed away for several
weeks from the Hall Farm, and otherwise made some show of resistance to his
passion as a foolish one, Hetty took care to entice him back into the net by
little airs of meekness and timidity, as if she were in trouble at his neglect.
But as to marrying Adam, that was a very different affair! There was nothing in
the world to tempt her to do that. Her cheeks never grew a shade deeper when his
name was mentioned; she felt no thrill when she saw him passing along the
causeway by the window, or advancing towards her unexpectedly in the footpath
across the meadow; she felt nothing, when his eyes rested on her, but the cold
triumph of knowing that he loved her and would not care to look at Mary Burge.
He could no more stir in her the emotions that make the sweet intoxication of
young love than the mere picture of a sun can stir the spring sap in the subtle
fibres of the plant. She saw him as he was--a poor man with old parents to keep,
who would not be able, for a long while to come, to give her even such luxuries
as she shared in her uncle's house. And Hetty's dreams were all of luxuries: to
sit in a carpeted parlour, and always wear white stockings; to have some large
beautiful ear- rings, such as were all the fashion; to have Nottingham lace
round the top of her gown, and something to make her handkerchief smell nice,
like Miss Lydia Donnithorne's when she drew it out at church; and not to be
obliged to get up early or be scolded by anybody. She thought, if Adam had been
rich and could have given her these things, she loved him well enough to marry
him.
But for the last few weeks a new influence had come over Hetty-- vague,
atmospheric, shaping itself into no self-confessed hopes or prospects, but
producing a pleasant narcotic effect, making her tread the ground and go about
her work in a sort of dream, unconscious of weight or effort, and showing her
all things through a soft, liquid veil, as if she were living not in this solid
world of brick and stone, but in a beatified world, such as the sun lights up
for us in the waters. Hetty had become aware that Mr. Arthur Donnithorne would
take a good deal of trouble for the chance of seeing her; that he always placed
himself at church so as to have the fullest view of her both sitting and
standing; that he was constantly finding reason for calling at the Hall Farm,
and always would contrive to say something for the sake of making her speak to
him and look at him. The poor child no more conceived at present the idea that
the young squire could ever be her lover than a baker's pretty daughter in the
crowd, whom a young emperor distinguishes by an imperial but admiring smile,
conceives that she shall be made empress. But the baker's daughter goes home and
dreams of the handsome young emperor, and perhaps weighs the flour amiss while
she is thinking what a heavenly lot it must be to have him for a husband. And
so, poor Hetty had got a face and a presence haunting her waking and sleeping
dreams; bright, soft glances had penetrated her, and suffused her life with a
strange, happy languor. The eyes that shed those glances were really not half so
fine as Adam's, which sometimes looked at her with a sad, beseeching tenderness,
but they had found a ready medium in Hetty's little silly imagination, whereas
Adam's could get no entrance through that atmosphere. For three weeks, at least,
her inward life had consisted of little else than living through in memory the
looks and words Arthur had directed towards her--of little else than recalling
the sensations with which she heard his voice outside the house, and saw him
enter, and became conscious that his eyes were fixed on her, and then became
conscious that a tall figure, looking down on her with eyes that seemed to touch
her, was coming nearer in clothes of beautiful texture with an odour like that
of a flower-garden borne on the evening breeze. Foolish thoughts! But all this
happened, you must remember, nearly sixty years ago, and Hetty was quite
uneducated--a simple farmer's girl, to whom a gentleman with a white hand was
dazzling as an Olympian god. Until to-day, she had never looked farther into the
future than to the next time Captain Donnithorne would come to the Farm, or the
next Sunday when she should see him at church; but now she thought, perhaps he
would try to meet her when she went to the Chase to-morrow--and if he should
speak to her, and walk a little way, when nobody was by! That had never happened
yet; and now her imagination, instead of retracing the past, was busy fashioning
what would happen to- morrow--whereabout in the Chase she should see him coming
towards her, how she should put her new rose-coloured ribbon on, which he had
never seen, and what he would say to her to make her return his glance--a glance
which she would be living through in her memory, over and over again, all the
rest of the day.
In this state of mind, how could Hetty give any feeling to Adam's troubles,
or think much about poor old Thias being drowned? Young souls, in such pleasant
delirium as hers are as unsympathetic as butterflies sipping nectar; they are
isolated from all appeals by a barrier of dreams--by invisible looks and
impalpable arms.
While Hetty's hands were busy packing up the butter, and her head filled with
these pictures of the morrow, Arthur Donnithorne, riding by Mr. Irwine's side
towards the valley of the Willow Brook, had also certain indistinct
anticipations, running as an undercurrent in his mind while he was listening to
Mr. Irwine's account of Dinah--indistinct, yet strong enough to make him feel
rather conscious when Mr. Irwine suddenly said, "What fascinated you so in Mrs.
Poyser's dairy, Arthur? Have you become an amateur of damp quarries and skimming
dishes?"
Arthur knew the rector too well to suppose that a clever invention would be
of any use, so he said, with his accustomed frankness, "No, I went to look at
the pretty butter-maker Hetty Sorrel. She's a perfect Hebe; and if I were an
artist, I would paint her. It's amazing what pretty girls one sees among the
farmers' daughters, when the men are such clowns. That common, round, red face
one sees sometimes in the men--all cheek and no features, like Martin
Poyser's--comes out in the women of the famuly as the most charming phiz
imaginable."
"Well, I have no objection to your contemplating Hetty in an artistic light,
but I must not have you feeding her vanity and filling her little noddle with
the notion that she's a great beauty, attractive to fine gentlemen, or you will
spoil her for a poor man's wife--honest Craig's, for example, whom I have seen
bestowing soft glances on her. The little puss seems already to have airs enough
to make a husband as miserable as it's a law of nature for a quiet man to be
when he marries a beauty. Apropos of marrying, I hope our friend Adam will get
settled, now the poor old man's gone. He will only have his mother to keep in
future, and I've a notion that there's a kindness between him and that nice
modest girl, Mary Burge, from something that fell from old Jonathan one day when
I was talking to him. But when I mentioned the subject to Adam he looked uneasy
and turned the conversation. I suppose the love-making doesn't run smooth, or
perhaps Adam hangs back till he's in a better position. He has independence of
spirit enough for two men--rather an excess of pride, if anything."
"That would be a capital match for Adam. He would slip into old Burge's shoes
and make a fine thing of that building business, I'll answer for him. I should
like to see him well settled in this parish; he would be ready then to act as my
grand-vizier when I wanted one. We could plan no end of repairs and improvements
together. I've never seen the girl, though, I think--at least I've never looked
at her."
"Look at her next Sunday at church--she sits with her father on the left of
the reading-desk. You needn't look quite so much at Hetty Sorrel then. When I've
made up my mind that I can't afford to buy a tempting dog, I take no notice of
him, because if he took a strong fancy to me and looked lovingly at me, the
struggle between arithmetic and inclination might become unpleasantly severe. I
pique myself on my wisdom there, Arthur, and as an old fellow to whom wisdom had
become cheap, I bestow it upon you."
"Thank you. It may stand me in good stead some day though I don't know that I
have any present use for it. Bless me! How the brook has overflowed. Suppose we
have a canter, now we're at the bottom of the hill."
That is the great advantage of dialogue on horseback; it can be merged any
minute into a trot or a canter, and one might have escaped from Socrates himself
in the saddle. The two friends were free from the necessity of further
conversation till they pulled up in the lane behind Adam's cottage.
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