IT was an example to me, and I fancy it might be to many others, to see how
immediately Miss Matty set about the retrenchment which she knew to be right
under her altered circumstances. While she went down to speak to Martha, and
break the intelligence to her, I stole out with my letter to the Aga Jenkyns,
and went to the signor's lodgings to obtain the exact address. I bound the
signora to secrecy; and indeed her military manners had a degree of shortness
and reserve in them which made her always say as little as possible, except when
under the pressure of strong excitement. Moreover (which made my secret doubly
sure), the signor was now so far recovered as to be looking forward to
travelling and conjuring again in the space of a few days, when he, his wife,
and little Phoebe would leave Cranford. Indeed, I found him looking over a great
black and red placard, in which the Signor Brunoni's accomplishments were set
forth, and to which only the name of the town where he would next display them
was wanting. He and his wife were so much absorbed in deciding where the red
letters would come in with most effect (it might have been the Rubric for that
matter), that it was some time before I could get my question asked privately,
and not before I had given several decisions, the which I questioned afterwards
with equal wisdom of sincerity as soon as the signor threw in his doubts and
reasons on the important subject. At last I got the address, spelt by sound, and
very queer it looked. I dropped it in the post on my way home, and then for a
minute I stood looking at the wooden pane with a gaping slit which divided me
from the letter but a moment ago in my hand. It was gone from me like life,
never to be recalled. It would get tossed about on the sea, and stained with
sea-waves perhaps, and be carried among palm-trees, and scented with all
tropical fragrance; the little piece of paper, but an hour ago so familiar and
commonplace, had set out on its race to the strange wild countries beyond the
Ganges! But I could not afford to lose much time on this speculation. I hastened
home, that Miss Matty might not miss me. Martha opened the door to me, her face
swollen with crying. As soon as she saw me she burst out afresh, and taking hold
of my arm she pulled me in, and banged the door to, in order to ask me if indeed
it was all true that Miss Matty had been saying.
"I'll never leave her! No; I won't. I telled her so, and said I could not
think how she could find in her heart to give me warning. I could not have had
the face to do it, if I'd been her. I might ha' been just as good for nothing as
Mrs Fitz-Adam's Rosy, who struck for wages after living seven years and a half
in one place. I said I was not one to go and serve Mammon at that rate; that I
knew when I'd got a good missus, if she didn't know when she'd got a good
servant" -
"But, Martha," said I, cutting in while she wiped her eyes.
"Don't, 'but Martha' me," she replied to my deprecatory tone.
"Listen to reason" -
"I'll not listen to reason," she said, now in full possession of her voice,
which had been rather choked with sobbing. "Reason always means what someone
else has got to say. Now I think what I've got to say is good enough reason; but
reason or not, I'll say it, and I'll stick to it. I've money in the Savings
Bank, and I've a good stock of clothes, and I'm not going to leave Miss Matty.
No, not if she gives me warning every hour in the day!"
She put her arms akimbo, as much as to say she defied me; and, indeed, I
could hardly tell how to begin to remonstrate with her, so much did I feel that
Miss Matty, in her increasing infirmity, needed the attendance of this kind and
faithful woman.
"Well" - said I at last.
"I'm thankful you begin with 'well!' If you'd have begun with 'but,' as you
did afore, I'd not ha' listened to you. Now you may go on."
"I know you would be a great loss to Miss Matty, Martha" -
"I telled her so. A loss she'd never cease to be sorry for," broke in Martha
triumphantly.
"Still, she will have so little - so very little - to live upon, that I don't
see just now how she could find you food - she will even be pressed for her own.
I tell you this, Martha, because I feel you are like a friend to dear Miss
Matty, but you know she might not like to have it spoken about."
Apparently this was even a blacker view of the subject than Miss Matty had
presented to her, for Martha just sat down on the first chair that came to hand,
and cried out loud (we had been standing in the kitchen).
At last she put her apron down, and looking me earnestly in the face, asked,
"Was that the reason Miss Matty wouldn't order a pudding to-day? She said she
had no great fancy for sweet things, and you and she would just have a mutton
chop. But I'll be up to her. Never you tell, but I'll make her a pudding, and a
pudding she'll like, too, and I'll pay for it myself; so mind you see she eats
it. Many a one has been comforted in their sorrow by seeing a good dish come
upon the table."
I was rather glad that Martha's energy had taken the immediate and practical
direction of pudding-making, for it staved off the quarrelsome discussion as to
whether she should or should not leave Miss Matty's service. She began to tie on
a clean apron, and otherwise prepare herself for going to the shop for the
butter, eggs, and what else she might require. She would not use a scrap of the
articles already in the house for her cookery, but went to an old tea-pot in
which her private store of money was deposited, and took out what she wanted.
I found Miss Matty very quiet, and not a little sad; but by-and-by she tried
to smile for my sake. It was settled that I was to write to my father, and ask
him to come over and hold a consultation, and as soon as this letter was
despatched we began to talk over future plans. Miss Matty's idea was to take a
single room, and retain as much of her furniture as would be necessary to fit up
this, and sell the rest, and there to quietly exist upon what would remain after
paying the rent. For my part, I was more ambitious and less contented. I thought
of all the things by which a woman, past middle age, and with the education
common to ladies fifty years ago, could earn or add to a living without
materially losing caste; but at length I put even this last clause on one side,
and wondered what in the world Miss Matty could do.
Teaching was, of course, the first thing that suggested itself. If Miss Matty
could teach children anything, it would throw her among the little elves in whom
her soul delighted. I ran over her accomplishments. Once upon a time I had heard
her say she could play "Ah! vous dirai-je, maman?" on the piano, but that was
long, long ago; that faint shadow of musical acquirement had died out years
before. She had also once been able to trace out patterns very nicely for muslin
embroidery, by dint of placing a piece of silver paper over the design to be
copied, and holding both against the window-pane while she marked the scollop
and eyelet-holes. But that was her nearest approach to the accomplishment of
drawing, and I did not think it would go very far. Then again, as to the
branches of a solid English education - fancy work and the use of the globes -
such as the mistress of the Ladies' Seminary, to which all the tradespeople in
Cranford sent their daughters, professed to teach. Miss Matty's eyes were
failing her, and I doubted if she could discover the number of threads in a
worsted-work pattern, or rightly appreciate the different shades required for
Queen Adelaide's face in the loyal wool-work now fashionable in Cranford. As for
the use of the globes, I had never been able to find it out myself, so perhaps I
was not a good judge of Miss Matty's capability of instructing in this branch of
education; but it struck me that equators and tropics, and such mystical
circles, were very imaginary lines indeed to her, and that she looked upon the
signs of the Zodiac as so many remnants of the Black Art.
What she piqued herself upon, as arts in which she excelled, was making
candle-lighters, or "spills" (as she preferred calling them), of coloured paper,
cut so as to resemble feathers, and knitting garters in a variety of dainty
stitches. I had once said, on receiving a present of an elaborate pair, that I
should feel quite tempted to drop one of them in the street, in order to have it
admired; but I found this little joke (and it was a very little one) was such a
distress to her sense of propriety, and was taken with such anxious, earnest
alarm, lest the temptation might some day prove too strong for me, that I quite
regretted having ventured upon it. A present of these delicately-wrought
garters, a bunch of gay "spills," or a set of cards on which sewing-silk was
wound in a mystical manner, were the well-known tokens of Miss Matty's favour.
But would any one pay to have their children taught these arts? or, indeed,
would Miss Matty sell, for filthy lucre, the knack and the skill with which she
made trifles of value to those who loved her?
I had to come down to reading, writing, and arithmetic; and, in reading the
chapter every morning, she always coughed before coming to long words. I doubted
her power of getting through a genealogical chapter, with any number of coughs.
Writing she did well and delicately - but spelling! She seemed to think that the
more out-of-the-way this was, and the more trouble it cost her, the greater the
compliment she paid to her correspondent; and words that she would spell quite
correctly in her letters to me became perfect enigmas when she wrote to my
father.
No! there was nothing she could teach to the rising generation of Cranford,
unless they had been quick learners and ready imitators of her patience, her
humility, her sweetness, her quiet contentment with all that she could not do. I
pondered and pondered until dinner was announced by Martha, with a face all
blubbered and swollen with crying.
Miss Matty had a few little peculiarities which Martha was apt to regard as
whims below her attention, and appeared to consider as childish fancies of which
an old lady of fifty-eight should try and cure herself. But to-day everything
was attended to with the most careful regard. The bread was cut to the imaginary
pattern of excellence that existed in Miss Matty's mind, as being the way which
her mother had preferred, the curtain was drawn so as to exclude the dead brick
wall of a neighbour's stable, and yet left so as to show every tender leaf of
the poplar which was bursting into spring beauty. Martha's tone to Miss Matty
was just such as that good, rough-spoken servant usually kept sacred for little
children, and which I had never heard her use to any grown-up person.
I had forgotten to tell Miss Matty about the pudding, and I was afraid she
might not do justice to it, for she had evidently very little appetite this day;
so I seized the opportunity of letting her into the secret while Martha took
away the meat. Miss Matty's eyes filled with tears, and she could not speak,
either to express surprise or delight, when Martha returned bearing it aloft,
made in the most wonderful representation of a lion COUCHANT that ever was
moulded. Martha's face gleamed with triumph as she set it down before Miss Matty
with an exultant "There!" Miss Matty wanted to speak her thanks, but could not;
so she took Martha's hand and shook it warmly, which set Martha off crying, and
I myself could hardly keep up the necessary composure. Martha burst out of the
room, and Miss Matty had to clear her voice once or twice before she could
speak. At last she said, "I should like to keep this pudding under a glass
shade, my dear!" and the notion of the lion COUCHANT, with his currant eyes,
being hoisted up to the place of honour on a mantelpiece, tickled my hysterical
fancy, and I began to laugh, which rather surprised Miss Matty.
"I am sure, dear, I have seen uglier things under a glass shade before now,"
said she.
So had I, many a time and oft, and I accordingly composed my countenance (and
now I could hardly keep from crying), and we both fell to upon the pudding,
which was indeed excellent - only every morsel seemed to choke us, our hearts
were so full.
We had too much to think about to talk much that afternoon. It passed over
very tranquilly. But when the tea-urn was brought in a new thought came into my
head. Why should not Miss Matty sell tea - be an agent to the East India Tea
Company which then existed? I could see no objections to this plan, while the
advantages were many - always supposing that Miss Matty could get over the
degradation of condescending to anything like trade. Tea was neither greasy nor
sticky - grease and stickiness being two of the qualities which Miss Matty could
not endure. No shop-window would be required. A small, genteel notification of
her being licensed to sell tea would, it is true, be necessary, but I hoped that
it could be placed where no one would see it. Neither was tea a heavy article,
so as to tax Miss Matty's fragile strength. The only thing against my plan was
the buying and selling involved.
While I was giving but absent answers to the questions Miss Matty was putting
- almost as absently - we heard a clumping sound on the stairs, and a whispering
outside the door, which indeed once opened and shut as if by some invisible
agency. After a little while Martha came in, dragging after her a great tall
young man, all crimson with shyness, and finding his only relief in perpetually
sleeking down his hair.
"Please, ma'am, he's only Jem Hearn," said Martha, by way of an introduction;
and so out of breath was she that I imagine she had had some bodily struggle
before she could overcome his reluctance to be presented on the courtly scene of
Miss Matilda Jenkyns's drawing-room.
"And please, ma'am, he wants to marry me off-hand. And please, ma'am, we want
to take a lodger - just one quiet lodger, to make our two ends meet; and we'd
take any house conformable; and, oh dear Miss Matty, if I may be so bold, would
you have any objections to lodging with us? Jem wants it as much as I do." [To
Jem ] - "You great oaf! why can't you back me! - But he does want it all the
same, very bad - don't you, Jem? - only, you see, he's dazed at being called on
to speak before quality."
"It's not that," broke in Jem. "It's that you've taken me all on a sudden,
and I didn't think for to get married so soon - and such quick words does
flabbergast a man. It's not that I'm against it, ma'am" (addressing Miss Matty),
"only Martha has such quick ways with her when once she takes a thing into her
head; and marriage, ma'am - marriage nails a man, as one may say. I dare say I
shan't mind it after it's once over."
"Please, ma'am," said Martha - who had plucked at his sleeve, and nudged him
with her elbow, and otherwise tried to interrupt him all the time he had been
speaking - "don't mind him, he'll come to; 'twas only last night he was an-axing
me, and an-axing me, and all the more because I said I could not think of it for
years to come, and now he's only taken aback with the suddenness of the joy; but
you know, Jem, you are just as full as me about wanting a lodger." (Another
great nudge.)
"Ay! if Miss Matty would lodge with us - otherwise I've no mind to be
cumbered with strange folk in the house," said Jem, with a want of tact which I
could see enraged Martha, who was trying to represent a lodger as the great
object they wished to obtain, and that, in fact, Miss Matty would be smoothing
their path and conferring a favour, if she would only come and live with them.
Miss Matty herself was bewildered by the pair; their, or rather Martha's
sudden resolution in favour of matrimony staggered her, and stood between her
and the contemplation of the plan which Martha had at heart. Miss Matty began -
"Marriage is a very solemn thing, Martha."
"It is indeed, ma'am," quoth Jem. "Not that I've no objections to Martha."
"You've never let me a-be for asking me for to fix when I would be married,"
said Martha - her face all a-fire, and ready to cry with vexation - "and now
you're shaming me before my missus and all."
"Nay, now! Martha don't ee! don't ee! only a man likes to have
breathing-time," said Jem, trying to possess himself of her hand, but in vain.
Then seeing that she was more seriously hurt than he had imagined, he seemed to
try to rally his scattered faculties, and with more straightforward dignity
than, ten minutes before, I should have thought it possible for him to assume,
he turned to Miss Matty, and said, "I hope, ma'am, you know that I am bound to
respect every one who has been kind to Martha. I always looked on her as to be
my wife - some time; and she has often and often spoken of you as the kindest
lady that ever was; and though the plain truth is, I would not like to be
troubled with lodgers of the common run, yet if, ma'am, you'd honour us by
living with us, I'm sure Martha would do her best to make you comfortable; and
I'd keep out of your way as much as I could, which I reckon would be the best
kindness such an awkward chap as me could do."
Miss Matty had been very busy with taking off her spectacles, wiping them,
and replacing them; but all she could say was, "Don't let any thought of me
hurry you into marriage: pray don't. Marriage is such a very solemn thing!"
"But Miss Matilda will think of your plan, Martha," said I, struck with the
advantages that it offered, and unwilling to lose the opportunity of considering
about it. "And I'm sure neither she nor I can ever forget your kindness; nor
your's either, Jem."
"Why, yes, ma'am! I'm sure I mean kindly, though I'm a bit fluttered by being
pushed straight ahead into matrimony, as it were, and mayn't express myself
conformable. But I'm sure I'm willing enough, and give me time to get
accustomed; so, Martha, wench, what's the use of crying so, and slapping me if I
come near?"
This last was SOTTO VOCE, and had the effect of making Martha bounce out of
the room, to be followed and soothed by her lover. Whereupon Miss Matty sat down
and cried very heartily, and accounted for it by saying that the thought of
Martha being married so soon gave her quite a shock, and that she should never
forgive herself if she thought she was hurrying the poor creature. I think my
pity was more for Jem, of the two; but both Miss Matty and I appreciated to the
full the kindness of the honest couple, although we said little about this, and
a good deal about the chances and dangers of matrimony.
The next morning, very early, I received a note from Miss Pole, so
mysteriously wrapped up, and with so many seals on it to secure secrecy, that I
had to tear the paper before I could unfold it. And when I came to the writing I
could hardly understand the meaning, it was so involved and oracular. I made
out, however, that I was to go to Miss Pole's at eleven o'clock; the number
ELEVEN being written in full length as well as in numerals, and A.M. twice
dashed under, as if I were very likely to come at eleven at night, when all
Cranford was usually a-bed and asleep by ten. There was no signature except Miss
Pole's initials reversed, P.E.; but as Martha had given me the note, "with Miss
Pole's kind regards," it needed no wizard to find out who sent it; and if the
writer's name was to be kept secret, it was very well that I was alone when
Martha delivered it.
I went as requested to Miss Pole's. The door was opened to me by her little
maid Lizzy in Sunday trim, as if some grand event was impending over this
work-day. And the drawing-room upstairs was arranged in accordance with this
idea. The table was set out with the best green card-cloth, and writing
materials upon it. On the little chiffonier was a tray with a newly-decanted
bottle of cowslip wine, and some ladies'-finger biscuits. Miss Pole herself was
in solemn array, as if to receive visitors, although it was only eleven o'clock.
Mrs Forrester was there, crying quietly and sadly, and my arrival seemed only to
call forth fresh tears. Before we had finished our greetings, performed with
lugubrious mystery of demeanour, there was another rat-tat-tat, and Mrs Fitz-
Adam appeared, crimson with walking and excitement. It seemed as if this was all
the company expected; for now Miss Pole made several demonstrations of being
about to open the business of the meeting, by stirring the fire, opening and
shutting the door, and coughing and blowing her nose. Then she arranged us all
round the table, taking care to place me opposite to her; and last of all, she
inquired of me if the sad report was true, as she feared it was, that Miss Matty
had lost all her fortune?
Of course, I had but one answer to make; and I never saw more unaffected
sorrow depicted on any countenances than I did there on the three before me.
I wish Mrs Jamieson was here!" said Mrs Forrester at last; but to judge from
Mrs Fitz-Adam's face, she could not second the wish.
"But without Mrs Jamieson," said Miss Pole, with just a sound of offended
merit in her voice, "we, the ladies of Cranford, in my drawing-room assembled,
can resolve upon something. I imagine we are none of us what may be called rich,
though we all possess a genteel competency, sufficient for tastes that are
elegant and refined, and would not, if they could, be vulgarly ostentatious."
(Here I observed Miss Pole refer to a small card concealed in her hand, on which
I imagine she had put down a few notes.)
"Miss Smith," she continued, addressing me (familiarly known as "Mary" to all
the company assembled, but this was a state occasion), "I have conversed in
private - I made it my business to do so yesterday afternoon - with these ladies
on the misfortune which has happened to our friend, and one and all of us have
agreed that while we have a superfluity, it is not only a duty, but a pleasure -
a true pleasure, Mary!" - her voice was rather choked just here, and she had to
wipe her spectacles before she could go on - "to give what we can to assist her
- Miss Matilda Jenkyns. Only in consideration of the feelings of delicate
independence existing in the mind of every refined female" - I was sure she had
got back to the card now - "we wish to contribute our mites in a secret and
concealed manner, so as not to hurt the feelings I have referred to. And our
object in requesting you to meet us this morning is that, believing you are the
daughter - that your father is, in fact, her confidential adviser, in all
pecuniary matters, we imagined that, by consulting with him, you might devise
some mode in which our contribution could be made to appear the legal due which
Miss Matilda Jenkyns ought to receive from - Probably your father, knowing her
investments, can fill up the blank."
Miss Pole concluded her address, and looked round for approval and agreement.
"I have expressed your meaning, ladies, have I not? And while Miss Smith
considers what reply to make, allow me to offer you some little refreshment."
I had no great reply to make: I had more thankfulness at my heart for their
kind thoughts than I cared to put into words; and so I only mumbled out
something to the effect "that I would name what Miss Pole had said to my father,
and that if anything could be arranged for dear Miss Matty," - and here I broke
down utterly, and had to be refreshed with a glass of cowslip wine before I
could check the crying which had been repressed for the last two or three days.
The worst was, all the ladies cried in concert. Even Miss Pole cried, who had
said a hundred times that to betray emotion before any one was a sign of
weakness and want of self-control. She recovered herself into a slight degree of
impatient anger, directed against me, as having set them all off; and, moreover,
I think she was vexed that I could not make a speech back in return for hers;
and if I had known beforehand what was to be said, and had a card on which to
express the probable feelings that would rise in my heart, I would have tried to
gratify her. As it was, Mrs Forrester was the person to speak when we had
recovered our composure.
"I don't mind, among friends, stating that I - no! I'm not poor exactly, but
I don't think I'm what you may call rich; I wish I were, for dear Miss Matty's
sake - but, if you please, I'll write down in a sealed paper what I can give. I
only wish it was more; my dear Mary, I do indeed."
Now I saw why paper, pens, and ink were provided. Every lady wrote down the
sum she could give annually, signed the paper, and sealed it mysteriously. If
their proposal was acceded to, my father was to be allowed to open the papers,
under pledge of secrecy. If not, they were to be returned to their writers.
When the ceremony had been gone through, I rose to depart; but each lady
seemed to wish to have a private conference with me. Miss Pole kept me in the
drawing-room to explain why, in Mrs Jamieson's absence, she had taken the lead
in this "movement," as she was pleased to call it, and also to inform me that
she had heard from good sources that Mrs Jamieson was coming home directly in a
state of high displeasure against her sister-in-law, who was forthwith to leave
her house, and was, she believed, to return to Edinburgh that very afternoon. Of
course this piece of intelligence could not be communicated before Mrs
Fitz-Adam, more especially as Miss Pole was inclined to think that Lady
Glenmire's engagement to Mr Hoggins could not possibly hold against the blaze of
Mrs Jamieson's displeasure. A few hearty inquiries after Miss Matty's health
concluded my interview with Miss Pole.
On coming downstairs I found Mrs Forrester waiting for me at the entrance to
the dining-parlour; she drew me in, and when the door was shut, she tried two or
three times to begin on some subject, which was so unapproachable apparently,
that I began to despair of our ever getting to a clear understanding. At last
out it came; the poor old lady trembling all the time as if it were a great
crime which she was exposing to daylight, in telling me how very, very little
she had to live upon; a confession which she was brought to make from a dread
lest we should think that the small contribution named in her paper bore any
proportion to her love and regard for Miss Matty. And yet that sum which she so
eagerly relinquished was, in truth, more than a twentieth part of what she had
to live upon, and keep house, and a little serving-maid, all as became one born
a Tyrrell. And when the whole income does not nearly amount to a hundred pounds,
to give up a twentieth of it will necessitate many careful economies, and many
pieces of self- denial, small and insignificant in the world's account, but
bearing a different value in another account-book that I have heard of. She did
so wish she was rich, she said, and this wish she kept repeating, with no
thought of herself in it, only with a longing, yearning desire to be able to
heap up Miss Matty's measure of comforts.
It was some time before I could console her enough to leave her; and then, on
quitting the house, I was waylaid by Mrs Fitz-Adam, who had also her confidence
to make of pretty nearly the opposite description. She had not liked to put down
all that she could afford and was ready to give. She told me she thought she
never could look Miss Matty in the face again if she presumed to be giving her
so much as she should like to do. "Miss Matty!" continued she, "that I thought
was such a fine young lady when I was nothing but a country girl, coming to
market with eggs and butter and such like things. For my father, though
well-to-do, would always make me go on as my mother had done before me, and I
had to come into Cranford every Saturday, and see after sales, and prices, and
what not. And one day, I remember, I met Miss Matty in the lane that leads to
Combehurst; she was walking on the footpath, which, you know, is raised a good
way above the road, and a gentleman rode beside her, and was talking to her, and
she was looking down at some primroses she had gathered, and pulling them all to
pieces, and I do believe she was crying. But after she had passed, she turned
round and ran after me to ask - oh, so kindly - about my poor mother, who lay on
her death-bed; and when I cried she took hold of my hand to comfort me - and the
gentleman waiting for her all the time - and her poor heart very full of
something, I am sure; and I thought it such an honour to be spoken to in that
pretty way by the rector's daughter, who visited at Arley Hall. I have loved her
ever since, though perhaps I'd no right to do it; but if you can think of any
way in which I might be allowed to give a little more without any one knowing
it, I should be so much obliged to you, my dear. And my brother would be
delighted to doctor her for nothing - medicines, leeches, and all. I know that
he and her ladyship (my dear, I little thought in the days I was telling you of
that I should ever come to be sister-in-law to a ladyship!) would do anything
for her. We all would."
I told her I was quite sure of it, and promised all sorts of things in my
anxiety to get home to Miss Matty, who might well be wondering what had become
of me - absent from her two hours without being able to account for it. She had
taken very little note of time, however, as she had been occupied in numberless
little arrangements preparatory to the great step of giving up her house. It was
evidently a relief to her to be doing something in the way of retrenchment, for,
as she said, whenever she paused to think, the recollection of the poor fellow
with his bad five-pound note came over her, and she felt quite dishonest; only
if it made her so uncomfortable, what must it not be doing to the directors of
the bank, who must know so much more of the misery consequent upon this failure?
She almost made me angry by dividing her sympathy between these directors (whom
she imagined overwhelmed by self-reproach for the mismanagement of other
people's affairs) and those who were suffering like her. Indeed, of the two, she
seemed to think poverty a lighter burden than self-reproach; but I privately
doubted if the directors would agree with her.
Old hoards were taken out and examined as to their money value which luckily
was small, or else I don't know how Miss Matty would have prevailed upon herself
to part with such things as her mother's wedding-ring, the strange, uncouth
brooch with which her father had disfigured his shirt-frill, &c. However, we
arranged things a little in order as to their pecuniary estimation, and were all
ready for my father when he came the next morning.
I am not going to weary you with the details of all the business we went
through; and one reason for not telling about them is, that I did not understand
what we were doing at the time, and cannot recollect it now. Miss Matty and I
sat assenting to accounts, and schemes, and reports, and documents, of which I
do not believe we either of us understood a word; for my father was clear-headed
and decisive, and a capital man of business, and if we made the slightest
inquiry, or expressed the slightest want of comprehension, he had a sharp way of
saying, "Eh? eh? it's as dear as daylight. What's your objection?" And as we had
not comprehended anything of what he had proposed, we found it rather difficult
to shape our objections; in fact, we never were sure if we had any. So presently
Miss Matty got into a nervously acquiescent state, and said "Yes," and
"Certainly," at every pause, whether required or not; but when I once joined in
as chorus to a "Decidedly," pronounced by Miss Matty in a tremblingly dubious
tone, my father fired round at me and asked me "What there was to decide?" And I
am sure to this day I have never known. But, in justice to him, I must say he
had come over from Drumble to help Miss Matty when he could ill spare the time,
and when his own affairs were in a very anxious state.
While Miss Matty was out of the room giving orders for luncheon - and sadly
perplexed between her desire of honouring my father by a delicate, dainty meal,
and her conviction that she had no right, now that all her money was gone, to
indulge this desire - I told him of the meeting of the Cranford ladies at Miss
Pole's the day before. He kept brushing his hand before his eyes as I spoke -
and when I went back to Martha's offer the evening before, of receiving Miss
Matty as a lodger, he fairly walked away from me to the window, and began
drumming with his fingers upon it. Then he turned abruptly round, and said,
"See, Mary, how a good, innocent life makes friends all around. Confound it! I
could make a good lesson out of it if I were a parson; but, as it is, I can't
get a tail to my sentences - only I'm sure you feel what I want to say. You and
I will have a walk after lunch and talk a bit more about these plans."
The lunch - a hot savoury mutton-chop, and a little of the cold loin sliced
and fried -was now brought in. Every morsel of this last dish was finished, to
Martha's great gratification. Then my father bluntly told Miss Matty he wanted
to talk to me alone, and that he would stroll out and see some of the old
places, and then I could tell her what plan we thought desirable. Just before we
went out, she called me back and said, "Remember, dear, I'm the only one left -
I mean, there's no one to be hurt by what I do. I'm willing to do anything
that's right and honest; and I don't think, if Deborah knows where she is,
she'll care so very much if I'm not genteel; because, you see, she'll know all,
dear. Only let me see what I can do, and pay the poor people as far as I'm
able."
I gave her a hearty kiss, and ran after my father. The result of our
conversation was this. If all parties were agreeable, Martha and Jem were to be
married with as little delay as possible, and they were to live on in Miss
Matty's present abode; the sum which the Cranford ladies had agreed to
contribute annually being sufficient to meet the greater part of the rent, and
leaving Martha free to appropriate what Miss Matty should pay for her lodgings
to any little extra comforts required. About the sale, my father was dubious at
first. He said the old rectory furniture, however carefully used and reverently
treated, would fetch very little; and that little would be but as a drop in the
sea of the debts of the Town and County Bank. But when I represented how Miss
Matty's tender conscience would be soothed by feeling that she had done what she
could, he gave way; especially after I had told him the five-pound note
adventure, and he had scolded me well for allowing it. I then alluded to my idea
that she might add to her small income by selling tea; and, to my surprise (for
I had nearly given up the plan), my father grasped at it with all the energy of
a tradesman. I think he reckoned his chickens before they were hatched, for he
immediately ran up the profits of the sales that she could effect in Cranford to
more than twenty pounds a year. The small dining-parlour was to be converted
into a shop, without any of its degrading characteristics; a table was to be the
counter; one window was to be retained unaltered, and the other changed into a
glass door. I evidently rose in his estimation for having made this bright
suggestion. I only hoped we should not both fall in Miss Matty's.
But she was patient and content with all our arrangements. She knew, she
said, that we should do the best we could for her; and she only hoped, only
stipulated, that she should pay every farthing that she could be said to owe,
for her father's sake, who had been so respected in Cranford. My father and I
had agreed to say as little as possible about the bank, indeed never to mention
it again, if it could be helped. Some of the plans were evidently a little
perplexing to her; but she had seen me sufficiently snubbed in the morning for
want of comprehension to venture on too many inquiries now; and all passed over
well with a hope on her part that no one would be hurried into marriage on her
account. When we came to the proposal that she should sell tea, I could see it
was rather a shock to her; not on account of any personal loss of gentility
involved, but only because she distrusted her own powers of action in a new line
of life, and would timidly have preferred a little more privation to any
exertion for which she feared she was unfitted. However, when she saw my father
was bent upon it, she sighed, and said she would try; and if she did not do
well, of course she might give it up. One good thing about it was, she did not
think men ever bought tea; and it was of men particularly she was afraid. They
had such sharp loud ways with them; and did up accounts, and counted their
change so quickly! Now, if she might only sell comfits to children, she was sure
she could please them!
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