魅力英文Ⅲ:不愛也是一種愛 第38章 天使總在身邊 (9)
    「Tellmeassoonasyouhavefinished,」saidJohnsy,closinghereyes,andlyingwhiteandstillasfallenstatue,「becauseIwanttoseethelastonefall.I』mtiredofwaiting.I』mtiredofthinking.Iwanttoturnloosemyholdoneverything,andgosailingdown,down,justlikeoneofthosepoor,tiredleaves.」

    「Trytosleep,」saidSue.「ImustcallBehrmanuptobemymodelfortheoldhermitminer.I』llnotbegoneaminute.Don』ttrytomove『tilIcomeback.」

    OldBehrmanwasapainterwholivedonthegroundfloorbeneaththem.HewaspastsixtyandhadaMichaelAngelo』sMosesbeardcurlingdownfromtheheadofasatyralongwiththebodyofanimp.Behrmanwasafailureinart.FortyyearshehadwieldedthebrushwithoutgettingnearenoughtotouchthehemofhisMistress』srobe.Hehadbeenalwaysabouttopaintamasterpiece,buthadneveryetbegunit.Forseveralyearshehadpaintednothingexceptnowandthenadaubinthelineofcommerceoradvertising.Heearnedalittlebyservingasamodeltothoseyoungartistsinthecolonywhocouldnotpaythepriceofaprofessional.Hedrankgintoexcess,andstilltalkedofhiscomingmasterpiece.Fortheresthewasafiercelittleoldman,whoscoffedterriblyatsoftnessinanyone,andwhoregardedhimselfasespecialmastiff-in-waitingtoprotectthetwoyoungartistsinthestudioabove.

    SuefoundBehrmansmellingstronglyofjuniperberriesinhisdimlylighteddenbelow.Inonecornerwasablankcanvasonaneaselthathadbeenwaitingtherefortwenty-fiveyearstoreceivethefirstlineofthemasterpiece.ShetoldhimofJohnsy』sfancy,andhowshefearedshewould,indeed,lightandfragileasaleafherself,floataway,whenherslightholdupontheworldgrewweaker.

    OldBehrman,withhisredeyesplainlystreaming,shoutedhiscontemptandderisionforsuchidioticimaginings.

    「Vass!」hecried.「Isderepeopleindeworldmitderfoolishnesstodiebecauseleafsdeydropofffromaconfoundedvine?Ihafnotheardofsuchathing.No,Iwillnotboseasamodelforyourfoolhermit-dunderhead.Whydoyouallowdotsillyideatocomeintobrainofher?Ach,dotpoorlittleMissJohnsy.」

    「Sheisveryillandweak,」saidSue,「andthefeverhaslefthermindmorbidandfullofstrangefancies.Verywell,Mr.Behrman,ifyoudonotcaretoposeforme,youneedn』t.ButIthinkyouareahorridold…oldflibbertigibbet.」

    「Youarejustlikeawoman!」yelledBehrman.「WhosaidIwillnottobeyourmodel?Goon.Icomemeetyou.ForhalfanhourIhavebeentryingtosaydotIamreadytobeyourmodel.God!ThisisnotanyreasoninwhichoneasgoodasMissJohnsyshallliesick.SomedayIwillpaintamasterpiece,andweshallallgoaway.God!Yes.」

    Johnsywassleepingwhentheywentupstairs.Suepulledtheshadedowntothewindow-sill,andmotionedBehrmanintotheotherroom.Intheretheypeeredoutthewindowfearfullyattheivyvine.Thentheylookedateachotherforamomentwithoutspeaking.Apersistent,coldrainwasfalling,mingledwithsnow.Behrman,inhisoldblueshirt,tookhisseatasthehermitmineronanupturnedkettleforarock.

    WhenSueawokefromanhour』ssleepthenextmorningshefoundJohnsywithdull,wide-openeyesstaringatthedrawngreenshade.

    「Pullitup;Iwanttosee,」sheordered,inawhisper.

    WearilySueobeyed.

    But,lo!Afterthebeatingrainandfiercegustsofwindthathadenduredthroughthelivelongnight,thereyetstoodoutagainstthebrickwalloneivyleaf.Itwasthelastoneonthevine.Stilldarkgreennearitsstem,withitsserratededgestintedwiththeyellowofdissolutionanddecay,ithungbravelyfromthebranchsometwentyfeetabovetheground.

    「Itisthelastone,」saidJohnsy.「Ithoughtitwouldsurelyfallduringthenight.Iheardthewind.Itwillfalltoday,andIshalldieatthesametime.」

    「Dear,dear!」saidSue,leaningherwornfacedowntothepillow,「thinkofme,ifyouwon』tthinkofyourself.WhatwouldIdo?」

    ButJohnsydidnotanswer.Thelonesomethinginthewholeworldisasoulwhenitismakingreadytogoonitsmysterious,farjourney.Thefancyseemedtopossesshermorestronglyasonebyonethetiesthatboundhertofriendshipandtoearthwereloosed.

    Thedayworeaway,andeventhroughthetwilighttheycouldseetheloneivyleafclingingtoitsstemagainstthewall.Andthen,withthecomingofthenightthenorthwindwasagainloosed,whiletherainstillbeatagainstthewindowsandpattereddownfromthelowDutcheaves.

    WhenitwaslightenoughJohnsy,themerciless,commandedthattheshadeberaised.

    Theivyleafwasstillthere.

    Johnsylayforalongtimelookingatit.AndthenshecalledtoSue,whowasstirringherchickenbrothoverthegasstove.

    「I』vebeenabadgirl,Sudie,」saidJohnsy.「SomethinghasmadethatlastleafstaytheretoshowmehowwickedIwas.Itisasintowanttodie.Youmaybringamealittlebrothnow,andsomemilkwithalittleportinit,and…no;bringmeahand-mirrorfirst,andthenpacksomepillowsaboutme,andIwillsitupandwatchyoucook.」

    Andhourlatershesaid:「Sudie,somedayIhopetopainttheBayofNaples.」

    Thedoctorcameintheafternoon,andSuehadanexcusetogointothehallwayasheleft.

    「Evenchances,」saidthedoctor,takingSue』sthin,shakinghandinhis.「Withgoodnursingyou』llwin.」AndnowImustseeanothercaseIhavedownstairs.Behrman,hisnameis—somekindofanartist,Ibelieve.Pneumonia,too.Heisanold,weakman,andtheattackisacute.Thereisnohopeforhim;buthegoestothehospitaltodaytobemademorecomfortable.」

    ThenextdaythedoctorsaidtoSue:「She』soutofdanger.Youwon.Nutritionandcarenow—that』sall.」

    AndthatafternoonSuecametothebedwhereJohnsylay,contentedlyknittingaveryblueandveryuselesswoolenshoulderscarf,andputonearmaroundher,pillowsandall.
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